Santa

miss is a terrible feeling
miss is a nonstop thing
miss is when i think of u
everyday, every moment i'm free

i miss u so
i want u by my side
i need ur reassuring presence
i wish to hear ur voice

if oni i could freeze time
if oni i could preserve every memory of u
if oni i could put those memories into jars
and re-live those times

oh Santa, Santa!
wont u give me the perfect gift of all??

(U)

all i see is darkness
the sun refused to shine
the moon hides behind the clouds
wat remains is the cold, cold wind
strong and cruel

billowing me away
away from where i want to go
blinded by the icy cold rain

i can only stumble backwards
helplessly.....

you say not to think so much
you claim that i misunderstood

tell me then, what am i supposed
to think
to say
to believe

you never picked up my calls
you never replied my msgs
you never chatted with me via msn
in fact, i have every reason to believe
you did block me

i dun blame you for tat
i never will.
just,
cant you come clean and tell me the truth?
the truth sets you free..
i rather be hurt
thn to endure a long period of uncertainty

shit

farking hell
idiotic move

i shouldn't never have taken the 1st move
i shouldn't have message you

why did i have to breach the silence
i should have left it be
why
why
why

helpless

your heart keeps saying, it's just not fair,
but still you have to make up your mind.
are you gonna stay with the who loves you
or are you going back to the one you love.

tat's the song i was hearing just now, in the car. sori james. here's another sad post. no brightness watsoever.

looking at the phone
hoping it would bring
a message
a call

but it remains silent
wat remains
is but the time ticking away
second by second
minute by minute
tick! tick!
the hours go by

despite everything,
i pick up the phone
typing you messages
calling your number
always making the 1st move

never grudging the fact that
you never called
never messaged
hardly replied

somehow,
i came to realize,
how fruitless it is
to feel so deeply for you

at the end of the day
i would never be at the edge of your mind
i would never be the one you share everything with
i would never be an integral part of your life

i would only be a fren
i would only be the one who stands by your side all the time, silently
i would only be the one you call, when you're free
i would only be the one you call, when you have something to ask, or discuss

i'm so tired of giving all the time.
in a sense, i call it upon myself.
knowing how useless it is,
yet still holding on.

but it's the last straw.
5 hours and ticking,
and still the phone remains silent.
silence is golden,
but there is nth golden about the moment.

i'm so tired....
teach me how to let you go,
coz i cant find the strength in me,
to let you free.....

Courtesy of Jill =]

Layer ONE : On the Outside
Name : Laura Yoong Li Wen
Birth Date : 3rd of February, 1988
Current Status : Single but unavailable (",)
Eye color : Black
Hair Color: Black
Righty or Lefty : Righty
Zodiac Sign : Aquarius

Layer TWO : On the inside
Your Heritage : Chinese
Your Fears : The unknown
Your Weakness : I get really emo at times.
Your Perfect Pizza : cheese, seafood, cheese, mushrooms, and more cheese...

Layer THREE : Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
Your thoughts first waking up : Is it a new day already??
Your Bedtime : Before 3 am..
Your most missed memory : Everything that happened on the 4th of Nov

Layer FOUR : Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke : Coke.
McDonald's or Burger King: Depends
Single or group dates: Single, and sometimes group...
Adidas or Nike: Nike.
Lipton tea or Nestea: Lipton.
Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla
Cappuccino or coffee: Both works for me!

Layer FIVE : Do you
Smoke : Nope
Curse : All the time. but i try to control...
Take a shower : Yep
Have a crush : :D. Yes.
Think you've been in love : I suppose... i dunno..
Go to school : Yep. College... but it's almost over...
Want to get married : Perhaps?
Believe in yourself : Sure. Y not? I have to believe in something.
Think you're a health freak : No. I couldn't care less.

Layer SIX : In the Past Month
Drank alcohol: Yes.
Gone to the mall: Yea....
Been on stage: No. Hate being scrutinised by ppl.
Eaten sushi: No. Not a fan of sushi.
Dyed your hair: Nope.

Layer SEVEN: Have You Ever?
Played a stripping game: No....
Changed who you were to fit in: i dunno. Did I??

Layer EIGHT
Age you're hoping to be married : Just go with the flow..

Layer NINE: In a Girl/Guy.
Best eye colour: Blue
Best hair colour: Black
Short or long hair: Anything.

Layer TEN: What Were You Doing.
1 minute ago: answering the questions above
1 hour ago: Gaming. Diner Dash 2 rox!
4.5 hours ago: Asleep... dunno dreaming bout wat.
1 month ago: Sleeping, eating, studying??
1 year ago: SPM??

Layer ELEVEN : Finish The Sentence
I love: me
I feel: sleepy
I hate: being down and emo
I hide: many secrets
I miss: you
I need: guidance

Layer TWELVE : Tag 5 people
Kang Yun
Wen Chean
Yu He
Mary
Jwu Wey

p/s: i want alot of other ppl to do also.. haha... ppl like, chinnpei, syinkit, ZZ, peng and ally.... hhehe..... so u ppl better do it k.... hahahaha

huh

u say i dont care
u say i cant be bothered
u say i dont tell you my plans b4 hand
u say i dont show concern

u say so many things
1st u said, dun worry so much
everything will be fine
thn u say, cant u at least show some concern?
cant u at least msg me, or him
asking how is he?
how is everything?

u said so many things.
u tell me you're facing so probs and issues
u tell me so much

but at the end of the day,
these things need to be done
and i cant help u in the process

if i can, i will surely help
but i cant
i juz cant

flames

a stranger drifting amidst the crowds
a lone ranger staring at the faces of the passer-bys,
all with smiles and laughter to accompany their actions.
all turned towards the person next to them,
to be greeted with a smile and a light of recognition in their eyes.

looking forlornly into space,
leaning against the wall,
he creates the impression of being self-sufficient.
self-sufficient and bored,
as if whatever that's happening is very monotonous.

deep down,
he's lonely and scared.
lonely 'cause he has nobody to share his tales and aches,
scared 'cause he has no one to rely on when things get grim and bleak.

he wants to reach out into the sea of strangers in front of him,
to find a friend, and be a friend,
but is afraid of rejection.
instead, he withdraws into himself,
creating a space between him and the world.
he sees them, but they cant see him.

to be tat man is tiring,
and hurting.
'cause at the end of the day,
he will be on the losing end.
never knowing how to be a friend,
how it's like to be treated as a friend.

it take two to clap.
without fuel, there can be no fire.
treasure your friendship while it lasts
dun let the fire die out.
say goodbye need not mean
forever more.
say goodbye should be, but a term.

thanks for being a good fren.
i wish you all da best,
and tat no matter how close or not we were,
we will still be frenz.
the fire should burn beyond time,
as long as we keep it alive,
and not douse it....

失去

失去
我一直认为你就是我最要好的朋友,
这五年里边,你确实帮我不少,
我真的好感激,好感激你,
我以为我们这五年的感情
回比海还深,
比石头还坚固,
但,那天,
因为我的那段话,
这五年多的感情竟在几十分钟内断裂了,
它,粉碎得如此彻底,
尽管努力尝试地把它给缝合,
但那痕印还是如此地耀眼;
那种心疼,
那种伤心,
并不像洪水般,如此澎湃,
但却是如地下泉般,如此地隐约,
它,
慢慢地流,流入一个无底洞,
当连那无底洞都溢满时,
它才静悄悄地从脸庞滑下......

frm me to you
你说过，我们是好朋友。。。
这五年来，我们的感情蛮好，
友谊也蛮坚固。。。

你那一段话，
可真的伤透了我的心。。
不是我不珍惜我们这份友情，
但却伤痕还深，
我还需要时间。。。。。

你就让我一个人吧。。。。。。。
我很抱歉。。如果你觉得我对你冷淡。。。。。
one thing i can say for sure,
we will still remain as frenz...

for jwu wey

so sorry i missed your bday
the day u came into tis world 18 yrs ago
bringing with you
light, joy and laughter.

you're such a good fren
always there for me whenever i was down
u supported me no matter wat

chatting wif you always brings a smile to my face
smsing you is a relief from the everyday life
getting to noe you
is one of the nice things SAM has to offer.

the only thing i regret
is not able to share your burden
seeing u suffer and hide your pain
stabs my heart each time i see you like tat

i wish i could be as good a fren to you
as you were to me..
and tis i write for u,
coz i feel bad for merely wishing u
happy bday....
with luck,
tis will bring a smile to your face..... :D

determination

i've come to an decision.
i've decided to let you go.
it's a hard thing to do,
but it seems right.
i refuse to try and change the situation.
much as i want to be by your side,
i dont want to change things as they are now.

as long as you are happy,
i'm satisfied.
tis is the right decision.
and much as i hate it,
i muz summon up enough willpower
to see me through all this.

i wish you happiness.
stay happy always.
if ever you are unhappy,
i'm here... always...

heartfelt

i lay down,
looking at the stars above,
thinking and thinking.

my mind drifts off,
to the time we first met.

we were strangers to each other,
a new unknown in the sea of faces.
far spread are our roots,
but similiar are our characters.

i gravitated to you,
coz perhaps, i saw me in you.

thinking back,
on how you acted,
talked,
and thought.

i know,
you are the one.

i'm truly grateful,
for all that you are.

a good fren,
a good listener,
a good pal.

i wont say that
we were close from the beginning.
but for now,
you are the one person
i trust with all my heart.

in this,
i bare my heart and soul.
in you,
i lay my trust....

the wake

right now, as i'm blogging, i take comfort in finishing a stick of ice cream.
tis will be a normal post, without much fancy language.
let's recap the weekend.
friday nite, i was watching tis drame series till 4 am.. :D i went to bed tired, but satisfied as i finally got to watch after 1 week of trials. mom woke up 1 hr 30 minutes later to get ready to go school.. yea.. i noe... school on a saturday??? turns out they had to have a replacement day... dad woke me up at 8. 30 and v had breakfast. thn tis gal here chose to go back to bed as she was freaking tired.. haha... pop! to bed i went.. woke at 11 and had a bath. thn followed dad out to school. chatted with one of my juniors, Pei Sun, till almost 1. thn went down to find mom.
v went home, and had lunch. during lunch, i remembered dad asking me to pass on a msg to mom tat grandma called. so mom called back. and v had d shock of our lives. grand uncle willie had passed away at 12 midnight, friday. we were shocked. i felt, and so did mom, that we had to make tis trip to kl. dad cant make it for certain reasons.
on the way to the train station, in the car, suddenly the reality set in. i could feel myself tearing.
basically, i'm bit surprised. i never expected to cry for a person i'm hardly close with. i cried again for a short while while waiting for the train to come. when we reached Trinity Church, and i saw grand auntie gan, it was a whole different story.

her eyes were soulless, she was lost. i sensed great pain and grief in her. i could see that she has lost her sense of direction and purpose. it was as if she was blundering in the dark, searching for something, but cant find it. it wsa as if she was suddenly put into this foreign land, with nothing and nobody to help her. i see as if she was put in the spotlight, all alone, with suppressed feelings and emotions. i felt such sorrow and hurt and pain, just by looking at her face.

in fact, i felt the pain from everyone there. but more so from the immediate family, namely uncle david, aunty anne and uncle kevin. i pity them. my heart went out to them, especially g.auntie gan... the poor dear...
there is so much more i want to say and write, but i just dont have to heart to write it down anymore. so i shall just leave right here.

friday links??

yeah!
happiness is mine!

haha...
it's thureday,
and friday is every minute nearer.

i love fridays.
coz it marks the end of a schooling week,
and the start of the weekends.

fridays are even more worth looking forward to,
when exams end on that particular day.

it is absolutely worth looking forward to,
unless my mood is down,
and i need my frenz here by my side.

but fridays also mark the approach,
of a new year.
a new year, i most probably will spend,
within contact,
beyond sight.

a new year,
not spent with mom,
not spent with dad,
not spent with grandparents,
not spent with you.

12-ness

come 12 midnight
and not a sound to be heard

come 12 midnight
and most lights are off

come 12 midnight
and horror films are aired

come 12 midnight
and thieves are out for the kill

come 12 midnight
and most people are snuggling in bed

come 12 midnight
and the unseen come out to roam

come 12 midnight
and the wolves start to howl

come 12 midnight
and the air is cool

come 12 midnight
and a new day will dawn

come 12 midnight
and there is peace and quiet in the world

come 12 midnight
and here i am, typing

come 12 midnight
and not a word from you

????

de-dum
de-dum
my heart is pounding 'gainst
my rib cage

i'm feeling scare
of what might happen
i'm afraid
to be disappointed

oh boy!
it's so near
trials is so near
and clever fool here
chose to use trial results for applications

how stupid and idiotic.
oops! did i mention clever?
muz be a typo error.

i'm starting to get all
worked up and panicky
ok, maybe not worked up
but definitely panicky.

i think i better get some oil handly
come midnight and u'll see a bright blaze

haha.. i think i better go.
i'm going crazy..
ciaoz!

wat a surprise

jill came over to my place 2day... she came here and told me tat she din understand wat my poems were about.... hahaha... basically, i was a bit shocked.. as her english is rather good... haha.... perhaps my ideas were too vague and general?? haha... sorry bout tat, jill... hahha.....
mayb i shud eleborate slightly more. these poems are basically bout how i feel, towards life, frenz, and ppl closer to the heart... it is mostly my hopelessness and frustration.... hahaha... dont think too much k.... hahaha....

resigned

looking back
you were one of the reasons
i remember those days vividly.

we weren't that close, then,
but as time pass,
our frenship got closer.

then u cut me off.
i was sad,
i was hurt.
i was puzzled,
because i could feel you
keeping something from me.

circumstances were such
that v couldn't keep in touch

but now that i've found you again.
i find myself getting confused.

not being able to keep in touch with you then,
was sad.
having to get your number from another person,
was pathetic.
being rebuffed by you,
was hurtful.

i only react this way with you.
if it were other people,
i wouldn't act in this way.

i see it now.
my feelings for you
is beyond that of frenship,
i believe.
my caring for you,
is more of a fren,
i hope.

you really mean a lot to me
and i go by your judgement a lot.
after much pondering and deliberation,
i know that is true.

but i also know you.
shud the question arise,
the answer would be no.
and our frenship will crumble.

i've experienced this before.
this crumbling of frenships
and i dont want it to happen again.

the question will nvr come to pass
eventhough i want to be by your side
to love and to cherish
still
holding back seems to be appopriate.

it's something i took ages to accept
that bleak reality.

i daren't ask for more
sometimes,
i just wish that you think
of me half as often as i do of you

a simple greeting
a simple question
a simple sentence
at least i'll know
i wasn't far away....

jumbled up

wat is tis feeling?
why do i feel down?
why do i mope?
why does tis feeling choke?

so many questions,
so little answers.

all i know is that it graws on my feelings
i feel melanchony
a bit out of place here.
i find me pining for something,
someone even.
but i dont know wat triggered this off.

the world is full of possibilities.
bt life is full of sufferings and hardships
tis life is filled with sadness and tears
for every laughter there is a gallon of tears,
shed or otherwise.

tis feelings like no other.
is it what they call hurt?
is tis wat it's like to be hurt?
inflicting hurt and it's consequences does not seem so dire
but actually feeling it sucks.

i suppose the way you did it.
the way you said the words you said,
cuts tro my heart like daggers,
worse, like blunt knifes,
piercing tro my very veins,
instead of blood pumping tro my body,
my heart, now gushes blood out of all its pores.

i feel drained.
so tired.
exhausted.
i just want tis feelings to end here.
why, oh why,
did i come back to tis world of feelings?

i sound morbid and emotional.
but that is the oni way i can communicate with my creative side.
i work best when i'm down, sad, pissed or emotionally messed up.
i apologize if any of you are offended by my views.
bt that is truly how i feel. feel free to move on.
i think i'll stay here for now.

my beautiful

this is a piece from my fren. she totally rocks. check out her bloggie at http://nowandforever-mel.blogspot.com
neways. here is her poem, which really touches the heart.

i could tell from her eyes
that there are secrets and lies
all she hid beneath her fragile heart
that was broken and torn apart

i keep thinking about her when she's finally gone
i know i can't do that cause it was so wrong
then i came to realize after so long
i was in denial and i couldn't carry on

truth is i love her more then she'll ever know
a part of me died when i let her go
for a long time it was so cold inside
the hurt from the heartache would not subside

i know it'll take more then words to show her how i feel
that my love for her is sincere and real
all i could do at that time was hope and pray
that she'll have a change of heart someday

she doesn't know for me how much it meant
for her to come back and hold my hand
in this crazy world i could not cope
she came along with a smile and a hope

i held her close as she lied on me
into her lovely eyes is all i want to see
i saw only three words.. 'i love u'
everything deep and within her all i knew

i stayed awake hearing her breathing
laid close and felt her heart beating
she was sleeping and faraway dreaming
i was left wondering if it's me she's thinking

there are times i can't feel my heart
each time i left her side i fell apart
the thought of losing her was just painful
guess i miss her too much, my beautiful

my other name, perhaps??

Your Japanese Name Is...

Minako Rokujochigusa

What's your Japanese Name?

a question

we were frolicking as usual,
laughing about something,
when i caught sight of your face,
i stopped....
u stopped gradually, after seeing me look so serious...
i just had to do it.
i had to ask u.

and to my joy,
you said yes!

my heart was racing,
filled with such euphoria...
u actually said yes!!

i was jumping for joy,
my heart felt like as if it would burst
coz finally,
u're really mine..

lost

which way?
north
south
east
west

which way are our paths heading?
sometimes,
our paths weave in and out of each other's paths
sometimes, you are very much a prominent figure
sometimes, you are but a memory

sometimes, when all i need is a comforting word from you,
you are very much in the shadows.
but when i'm showing concern to you,
you are a prominent figure.

am i being silly?
perhaps i presume too much.
perhaps our ties are not as strong or close
as i make them out to be.

i'm being stupid.
writing it here,
poem form,
knowing that you never visit

i wonder,
do you konw who i'm refering to?
do you know that it's YOU??

volcano

life is like a volcano.
it lays dormant for a long period of time.
and when it does erupts.
it leaves you speechless and
scrambling for cover.
it comes suddenly, the eruption.
without notice, without warning.
it scars you emotionally and mentally.

people tell me.
everything in life is a challenge,
a test from God.
then why is it that some people,
have to face more 'challenges' and 'tests',
then others?
they say,
it's 'cause they are special.
God has other plans for them.

they say,
be strong and face all that God
throws into your face.
but they never said
how hard it would be,
or how it can break you.

once you fall, it tramples all over you.
you can hardly scramble to your knees.
it doesn't help when your loved ones
don't offer you a helping hand.
worse still, when they don't
understand you.

at the end of the day,
either you crawl back up,
or you lay spawling on the streets.
but.
for sure you will be marked.
emotionally and mentally.
forever more.

meaningless days

without you,
the sun don't shine nomore.
without you,
the stars are pale.
without you,
the days are bleak and meaningless.
without you,
seconds turn to hours, and hours seem to stretch beyond imagination.

would that i be,
but a bird,
flying to your side,
being with you every second, every minute.

or even change into the very air that you breathe,
forever billowing
as a gust of wind..
to cool you down,
as you walk down the streets,
in the scorching hot sun.

all i want,
is to be by your side.
to hold you when you fall,
to support you when need arise.
to comfort you when you fail.
to cheer when u succeed.

all that and more,
is what i really want to do.
but i can't.
i just can't.
i can only sit here, in the darkness,
waiting for that phone call.
the suspense is killing me.
oh... won't that phone please ring?
i miss my dear so.....

hapiness

i enjoy hanging out,
more so with frenz.
frenz tat i have never met for so long.
despite not having met for around 8 months or so,
there was laughter and enjoyment,
one that was lacking for me previously.
i guess who you go out with makes a whole new difference
i had a blast today.
hanging out with 4 of my closest frenz during highschool.
chatting and gossiping for the sake of it...
fun, nice, enjoyable.
the only regret was we had to cut it short.
i hope we can go out like this again,
dont you feel the same too??

my dear piggy

C	Creative
H	Handy
I	Innocent
N	Nutty
S	Sloppy
I	Innocent
E	Excellent
W	Wild
P	Proud
E	Exquisite
N	Naughty
G	Gloomy

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bit of everything.....

i nvr realized how lonesome it gets....
i miss sch, i miss my frenz,
i miss being able to do duty,
i miss my juniors,
i miss sitting in d prefect room, after duties and juz chit chat.. ( nt tht ppl chat wif me often)
i miss lessons in a big, hot classroom....
i miss the noise when there is no teacher/btwn classes
i miss the old times....
if only time can be reversed....
if only i could bottled up time,
i would save those times in a jar and keep it by me always....
it might nt have been pleasant for me always.
i might have gotten ignored thousands of times...
bt still would i treasure those times...
at least, i had my frenz wif me...
only a phone call away....

was THIS all a mistake??
was i wrong in trying 2 achieve my dreams??
was i wrong in wanting freedom??
until u lose it, then will you appreciate it....
i thought my frenz cared....
bt it's always me who mainly made d 1st move...

i feel neglected...
i was, am, possibly will always be, ignored at times...
am i really so unattractive a person to not be able your frenship??
i feel like a clown..
smiling always on the outside...
quietly breaking down on the inside..
ppl think that it is easy for me..
studies and stuff.....

bt i dun mind giving up part of it juz to be able to fit in....
yet...
i juz AM..... i cant change d way i am....
i'm nt extrovert, rather,
much introvert....
i no longer noe wat i wan anymore...
i always assumed that those whos' frenship i value above most would always be there..
i nvr for once, thought that it would come tis...
i nvr thought tat TIS could be happening....
i feel as if i'm in a room,
trapped by four walls, and no doors, no windows....
and the walls are closing in....

it aches....
so much so tat i can hardly draw a breath w/o stilling my emotions....
ppl dun see it.... all they see is juz a projected ice-queen, cant be bothered, smart ass imej....
have i rili perfected tat look so well?? so much so tat it is flawless??

frenz.....
where are you when i needed someone??
where are you when i silently called for help??
where are you when all i wanted was ur support??
where are you when juz a msg would suffice??

i noe, i hardly msg u....
perhaps i am expecting too much....
bt i thought we were frenz....

still i would treasure the times v once shared....
at least, 曾经拥有终比不曾有好.......
i guess.........

going bonkers

tis is the first post whereby i shall not compose poems.
y?? coz d writer is sick! and she is announcing it to the whole world. perhaps there are some people out there that feels this writer is taking things overboard... but the writer feels that prevention is better then cure...
a fren of mine finally unloaded to another fren about most of her probs.... she told this writer that she felt much better, coz it was like a burden off her shoulders.... i truly believe, frenz can be a help, but just dun put too much trust entirely on a person... and choosing tat special fren shud be a long and careful process.... i'm glad tat tat fren of mine decided to unload some of her burdens.... perhaps now, she wont feel so bad, and not feel the need to cry sometimes....
u noe, i personally feel that, when a seemingly strong person crys, it is terrible.. to break tat outer appearance of strength takes a great deal.... sometimes, not being able to cry is also a inability.... sometimes, u can feel something choking u, u want to cry but juz cant.... sometimes, it gets so hard that u cant breathe sometimes....

my good bud in high sch

C	Cute
H	Handsome
O	Outrageous
N	Normal
G	Gorgeous
Y	Yummy
U	Useful
A	Amorous
N	Naughty
Y	Yummy
I	Industrious
H	Honorable

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urm... housemate 2??

B	Bubbly
R	Revolutionary
Y	Yum
A	Arty
N	Noisy
C	Cool
H	Honorable
I	Irresistible
N	Naive
K	Keen
W	Wild
A	Adventurous
N	New
C	Clever
H	Hot
O	Old
O	Outrageous
N	Neglected
G	Grungy

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another housemate

P	Philosophical
O	Orderly
O	Old
N	Neat
Y	Yucky
U	Unforgettable
A	Astounding
N	Normal
Z	Zippy
H	Humorous
A	Awesome
O	Outrageous
U	Unreal

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omg..... damn funny

How to make a lim wen chean

Ingredients: 5 parts anger 1 part self-sufficiency 5 parts ego

Method: Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Serve with a slice of lovability and a pinch of salt. Yum!

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well... i would have put celine's cocktail.... bt if i do, i have nowhere 2 sleep at nite.... so i better not.... hahaa......

A-levels, anyone??

L	Luxurious
I	Industrious
M	Masculine
W	Wicked
E	Exciting
N	Naive
C	Cranky
H	Hot
E	Exciting
A	Astounding
N	Noisy

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roomie!!! and for your info, she's pretty hot!! she's young, tall, and hip.... haha...... oh... btw.... watch out for tat killer handswipe..... man, it hurts!!! ouch!!

erm..... d internet fees collector??? hahaha

C	Courageous
E	Emotional
L	Loud
I	Intense
N	Natural
E	Earthy
Y	Yummy
E	Enjoyable
O	Orderly
H	Huge
S	Silent
S	Sloppy
U	Useful
T	Temperamental
I	Industrious
N	Neglected
G	Great

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wonderful housemate.... met her in feb... and evy beginning of d month she will say, 'fees, plz' hahhaa... funny rite??? yea.... bt she's cool, man!! she's damn cute, and funny, and considerate.... and all those stuff.... those nice stuff, mind u!! hahah.....

committee KK.... haha.....

Y	Yum
O	Odd
O	Overwhelming
N	Normal
G	Grungy
K	Kind
E	Edgy
E	Exquisite
K	Kind
U	Unnatural
E	Entertaining
N	Naive

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tis gal here is great!! though i oni knew her for a short space of time, regretably, yet, she's a marvellous specimen of the human race... makes u smile fondly and she's juz loyal, kind and a very gd fren....

can you believe this??

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feel the heat??

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ice-cream, anyone??

Your Icecream Flavour is... French Vanilla!

You're a smooth and silky suave type! You exude class and you believe in tradition. A classical taste who doesn't like things to be too flashy or showy. Climb the Eiffel tower of taste with a spoonfull of you! Oui Oui!

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me

How to make a laura yoong li wen

Ingredients: 5 parts mercy 5 parts self-sufficiency 3 parts

Method: Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Add sadness to taste! Do not overindulge!

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juz a quiz......

laurayoong took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test! "Considers the existing circumstances disagreeable ..." Click here to read the rest of the results.

am i going bonkers??

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Moderate
Schizoid:	Moderate
Schizotypal:	Low
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Low
Histrionic:	High
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	High
Dependent:	High
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Low
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urm.... wat my name signifies??

L	Lovable
A	Appealing
U	Unnatural
R	Responsible
A	Altruistic
Y	Young
O	Overwhelming
O	Odd
N	Nutty
G	Glorious

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announcement

i sori if u dun see ur comments here..... there was some probs earlier on... so i deleted tat blog... n set up a new one, bt wif d same name, and same url..... saved d posts too, bt not ur comments..... really treasured ur comments n all... hope u guys will continue posting 'em..... k??

personality

i jus realized,
how could i been so blind??
how could i nt have seen, tat it would nvr change??
i tot interference could change destiny,
bt it seems tat i was wrong.

some ppl glow in the limelight,
some ppl blend in with the surroundings,
living life their way, without interference.

some ppl are neither here, nor there.
not in the limelight, not at the sidewalk.
their presence are assumed, yet, their absence is noticed.

i feel tat i am neither there nor here,
even since primary.
english at home, chinese in sch.
hardly fitting in, juz is.

i tot my prob will be solved if i dismissed the english within.
n so i had fun during high sch.
undeniably i love high sch.
i met some of my great frenz there.......
in short, there was a sense of belonging........

or so i tot.
thinking back, i nvr really was an integral part of the sociaties i joined.
juz a normal violinist looking on, juz an ordinary prefect doin wat shud be done.
juz a student, taking part in her class activities.....
bt somehow, always as an outsider looking in....
the heart was left untouched......

part of me wans to open up to others....
juz pour out my deepest secrets,
my darkest fears,
still, something holds me back....

i'm so sick of this feeling...
i dun wan to be wat i used to be....
an outsider wif an insider view.
it sucks.
it's hateful.
it's juz how i am........

i've learn to come to terms with it....
trying hard to be in the thick of things....
yet.... it's so hard......
and i'm so tired.........
sick of battles............
sick of trying.............
perhaps tis is how it shud be.....
i dunno......
...................
...................

i feel like crying out loud..............

to a special fren

u may not realize it,
but u n i have similar behaviours.

i dun cry in public
i dun show affection easily
i put up a brave front
i shrug off stuff i dun like
i keep all my feelings pent up

no-one knows you like You
no-one understands how you feel
no-one realizes, that inside you might be crying n suffering

bt if u dun try
how would you know??
a burden is best carried with others.
though it is You who must go on.
bt support, though not physical,
helps a bunch.

when facing trouble,
it's best faced with frenz.
that's wat frenz are for.
I might not account to much for you.
but i care.............

thanks

people.
flesh and blood.

girl and boy,
woman and man,
tall and short.
fat and thin.
pretty and handsome.
average and ugly.
artistic and scientific.
ruler and citizen.
bitch and bastard.
friend and foe.

so many ways of categorizing people.

for me.
it matters not if you are tall or short,
pretty or ugly, fat or thin.
it matters if you are a friend to me.

i don't mind you asking for help,
i don't mind you asking for advise.
i don't mind you needing a shoulder to cry on,
i don't mind you leaving me alone to do other stuff.

but,
don't take me for granted.
don't make use of me then ignore me.
don't assume i know what you are thinking.
don't let me be the last to learn your excuses.

i really want
some appreciation.
some love.
some kindness of speech.
some care.

but why??
is it really so hard??
just to say a word of thanks.

musical night

They say that music soothes the beast. Yet. Why is it that she feels so restless?? It's not that the music playing is of low quality. It's by Malaysia Philharmonic Orchestra, for God's sake!! Still, something is playing on her mind, and it sure as hell is not the music. What then??

Her mind wanders off to that incident.

"You bitch!! I trusted you! And this is how you treat me?? How dare you come in here, strutting like you belong!! Get the fuck out of my sight!! I never want to see you again!!" His voice cracked.

Oh how she wanted to wrap her arms around him and tell him that it was all a misunderstanding!! The sight of him so disheveled ripped her heart out. His words cut through her like a dagger stabbing her heart. Yet, she did not go to him. Somehow, she knew. He would never believe anything she said anymore. Never again.

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She had went to Jim's place last week when he was on a business trip. She pleaded him to let her go. She had found someone better then him who loves her and treasures her, unlike him. She wanted to start over a new leaf. She was done being number 2 in his life. Jim had stared in her eyes, those expressive green eyes of hers.

"I will never let you go. I want us to begin over again. I want you back in my life. I will never let you go without a fight."

"That's what you always say. But everytime she calls, you go running like a dog on heat. I'm sick of all that. Can't you see that I have finally found someone who loves me for who I am?? Or are you so full of yourself to even see that??"

"I'm blind because your beauty radiates such brightness. Without you in my life, it's not worth going on."

"You are so selfish. I really don't give a damn. You can always go and find another girl who is green enough to fall for your empty words."
And with that she walked out and slammed the door.

He stared at her and winced at the sound of the door slamming. He could distinctively hear the beep of the opening of the door of the lift. There was a determined look in his eyes.

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Her heart ached. She quietly left him there, sitting on the sofa, with his head in his hands. Each step that she took, broke her heart little by little. Jim must have spread rumors saying that she was still sleeping with him. And that she was a cheat. The fact that she neglected to mention that meeting with Jim didn't help her cause.

And so. Here she is. Drowning her sorrows....... in music. She fidgeted in her seat. A few people present looked at her. From the very beginning, it was as if she had sat on hot coals. She decided to leave.

The icy cold wind touched her skin. Wherever she goes, who ever she meets, what ever she does, he would always be there, cutting off her every attempt to start a new life. What was the point anyway, of trying?? He would never stop until he got her back. And she would be reduced to a women with little or no self-respect, always after crumbs. It would not be. She will never return to that life again. Lifting her arms, she felt the wind in her ears, even as the music reached crescendo..........

life

exams,
results,
exams,
results.

the list goes on.
y muz exams be part of our life??
life is short enuf w/o exams.
nvr enuf time to do wat u wan,
nvr enuf time to go where u wan,
nvr enuf time to eat all u wan.

i lead a comfortable life,
but for exams,
and d inevitable stress,
it's been kinda hard.
d pressure of performing,
d pressure of trying to get d answers rite,
heck! even d task of studying is a pressure.

can v live a life w/o pressure??
perhaps.
perhaps not.

ppl say tat pressure motivates us to be d best v can.
i say pressure kills ur life.
exams were once meant to test our abilities.
now its meaning is so distorted.
it's now a battlefield.

would tat life be better w/o exams??
i wonder.....

virgin attempt

perfect world....
perfect life....
perfect mind.....
perfect love......

what defines perfect??
who determines perfect??
why do perfect dominates our world??
when is it possible to achieve perfection??

nothing is perfect.
no-one is perfect.
everybody has a weakness.
everybody has a flaw.
everybody wants to be perfect.
but.
why attempt the impossible??
fingers aren't even in length and width.

some excel in sports,
some excel in studies.
some excel in science,
some excel in arts.

nobody excels in everything.
nobody fears nothing.
everybody falls sometime.

so why torture yourself??
why court trouble??
why look for pain??