friday links??

yeah!
happiness is mine!

haha...
it's thureday,
and friday is every minute nearer.

i love fridays.
coz it marks the end of a schooling week,
and the start of the weekends.

fridays are even more worth looking forward to,
when exams end on that particular day.

it is absolutely worth looking forward to,
unless my mood is down,
and i need my frenz here by my side.

but fridays also mark the approach,
of a new year.
a new year, i most probably will spend,
within contact,
beyond sight.

a new year,
not spent with mom,
not spent with dad,
not spent with grandparents,
not spent with you.

12-ness

come 12 midnight
and not a sound to be heard

come 12 midnight
and most lights are off

come 12 midnight
and horror films are aired

come 12 midnight
and thieves are out for the kill

come 12 midnight
and most people are snuggling in bed

come 12 midnight
and the unseen come out to roam

come 12 midnight
and the wolves start to howl

come 12 midnight
and the air is cool

come 12 midnight
and a new day will dawn

come 12 midnight
and there is peace and quiet in the world

come 12 midnight
and here i am, typing

come 12 midnight
and not a word from you

????

de-dum
de-dum
my heart is pounding 'gainst
my rib cage

i'm feeling scare
of what might happen
i'm afraid
to be disappointed

oh boy!
it's so near
trials is so near
and clever fool here
chose to use trial results for applications

how stupid and idiotic.
oops! did i mention clever?
muz be a typo error.

i'm starting to get all
worked up and panicky
ok, maybe not worked up
but definitely panicky.

i think i better get some oil handly
come midnight and u'll see a bright blaze

haha.. i think i better go.
i'm going crazy..
ciaoz!

wat a surprise

jill came over to my place 2day... she came here and told me tat she din understand wat my poems were about.... hahaha... basically, i was a bit shocked.. as her english is rather good... haha.... perhaps my ideas were too vague and general?? haha... sorry bout tat, jill... hahha.....
mayb i shud eleborate slightly more. these poems are basically bout how i feel, towards life, frenz, and ppl closer to the heart... it is mostly my hopelessness and frustration.... hahaha... dont think too much k.... hahaha....

resigned

looking back
you were one of the reasons
i remember those days vividly.

we weren't that close, then,
but as time pass,
our frenship got closer.

then u cut me off.
i was sad,
i was hurt.
i was puzzled,
because i could feel you
keeping something from me.

circumstances were such
that v couldn't keep in touch

but now that i've found you again.
i find myself getting confused.

not being able to keep in touch with you then,
was sad.
having to get your number from another person,
was pathetic.
being rebuffed by you,
was hurtful.

i only react this way with you.
if it were other people,
i wouldn't act in this way.

i see it now.
my feelings for you
is beyond that of frenship,
i believe.
my caring for you,
is more of a fren,
i hope.

you really mean a lot to me
and i go by your judgement a lot.
after much pondering and deliberation,
i know that is true.

but i also know you.
shud the question arise,
the answer would be no.
and our frenship will crumble.

i've experienced this before.
this crumbling of frenships
and i dont want it to happen again.

the question will nvr come to pass
eventhough i want to be by your side
to love and to cherish
still
holding back seems to be appopriate.

it's something i took ages to accept
that bleak reality.

i daren't ask for more
sometimes,
i just wish that you think
of me half as often as i do of you

a simple greeting
a simple question
a simple sentence
at least i'll know
i wasn't far away....

jumbled up

wat is tis feeling?
why do i feel down?
why do i mope?
why does tis feeling choke?

so many questions,
so little answers.

all i know is that it graws on my feelings
i feel melanchony
a bit out of place here.
i find me pining for something,
someone even.
but i dont know wat triggered this off.

the world is full of possibilities.
bt life is full of sufferings and hardships
tis life is filled with sadness and tears
for every laughter there is a gallon of tears,
shed or otherwise.

tis feelings like no other.
is it what they call hurt?
is tis wat it's like to be hurt?
inflicting hurt and it's consequences does not seem so dire
but actually feeling it sucks.

i suppose the way you did it.
the way you said the words you said,
cuts tro my heart like daggers,
worse, like blunt knifes,
piercing tro my very veins,
instead of blood pumping tro my body,
my heart, now gushes blood out of all its pores.

i feel drained.
so tired.
exhausted.
i just want tis feelings to end here.
why, oh why,
did i come back to tis world of feelings?

i sound morbid and emotional.
but that is the oni way i can communicate with my creative side.
i work best when i'm down, sad, pissed or emotionally messed up.
i apologize if any of you are offended by my views.
bt that is truly how i feel. feel free to move on.
i think i'll stay here for now.

my beautiful

this is a piece from my fren. she totally rocks. check out her bloggie at http://nowandforever-mel.blogspot.com
neways. here is her poem, which really touches the heart.

i could tell from her eyes
that there are secrets and lies
all she hid beneath her fragile heart
that was broken and torn apart

i keep thinking about her when she's finally gone
i know i can't do that cause it was so wrong
then i came to realize after so long
i was in denial and i couldn't carry on

truth is i love her more then she'll ever know
a part of me died when i let her go
for a long time it was so cold inside
the hurt from the heartache would not subside

i know it'll take more then words to show her how i feel
that my love for her is sincere and real
all i could do at that time was hope and pray
that she'll have a change of heart someday

she doesn't know for me how much it meant
for her to come back and hold my hand
in this crazy world i could not cope
she came along with a smile and a hope

i held her close as she lied on me
into her lovely eyes is all i want to see
i saw only three words.. 'i love u'
everything deep and within her all i knew

i stayed awake hearing her breathing
laid close and felt her heart beating
she was sleeping and faraway dreaming
i was left wondering if it's me she's thinking

there are times i can't feel my heart
each time i left her side i fell apart
the thought of losing her was just painful
guess i miss her too much, my beautiful

my other name, perhaps??

Your Japanese Name Is...

Minako Rokujochigusa

What's your Japanese Name?

a question

we were frolicking as usual,
laughing about something,
when i caught sight of your face,
i stopped....
u stopped gradually, after seeing me look so serious...
i just had to do it.
i had to ask u.

and to my joy,
you said yes!

my heart was racing,
filled with such euphoria...
u actually said yes!!

i was jumping for joy,
my heart felt like as if it would burst
coz finally,
u're really mine..

lost

which way?
north
south
east
west

which way are our paths heading?
sometimes,
our paths weave in and out of each other's paths
sometimes, you are very much a prominent figure
sometimes, you are but a memory

sometimes, when all i need is a comforting word from you,
you are very much in the shadows.
but when i'm showing concern to you,
you are a prominent figure.

am i being silly?
perhaps i presume too much.
perhaps our ties are not as strong or close
as i make them out to be.

i'm being stupid.
writing it here,
poem form,
knowing that you never visit

i wonder,
do you konw who i'm refering to?
do you know that it's YOU??