Beginnings

I've always admired those who can write poems which rhymes and can convey their heartfelt feelings. I'm not one of those. I can never rhyme unless I have inspiration. Modern poem is more suited to my style of writing, as it is free form.

Seven Seas

Sitting by the window,
All day thinking of you.
Watching the days go by,
I started to cry.
But they were not tears of sadness,
they only meant I love you.

I wanna tell you that,
baby, I would travel around the seven seas for you,
to show you that there is nothing I wont do.
Baby, I would walk around the China Wall for you.

If there is a way,
I would do it all for you.
Anything you want me to,
I would.

Some people may think I'm crazy,
and they may be right,
because I'm crazy about you.

See what I mean? Free form. For me, poems are special, more so this particular one. I love it so very much, but more importantly, I love the person who wrote it. The feelings conveyed in that poem, strikes a chord within. A stupid grin on my face, a twinkle in my eyes, and a spring in my walk are just little signs of how much I enjoy reading and re-reading that poem. It might not amount to much to many others, but it means the world to me.

I love her so very much, and I cant wait for the future to unfold.

TLW

oh wow!! i am soo in love with this vid. makes me miss my baby even more.

Lobo

How can I tell my parents about my gf? I love her so much. I want to share her with my parents, with the whole world without needing to hide it from anybody. I want the whole world to know that she's mine and she makes me feel like the luckiest person alive.

I feel terrible for not being able to tell her that I love her whenever my parents are around. My mom already suspects that I have someone, but she thinks that I have a BF, not a gf. I'm not trying to hide her from my family. Part of me wants to shield her from having to face them, but I noe, I can't do it alone.

I miss her all the time I'm not talking to her. I miss her even though I just get off the phone with her. I enjoy falling asleep to her voice, and waking up to it. I want to wake up next to her in the mornings, and sleeping in her arms. I don't want to do it in a secretive manner and to make up excuses why she's in my arms and all that. I want to be able to hold her and be affectionate in public.

So pray tell me, how to break the news?

爱. 恨. 难.

I miss her so much that it hurts. I know she's unable to charge her phone, and that she might be staying over at her friend's place; I know I'm supposed to be concentrating on my studies; I know telling her all this will make her feel bad. But I can't help the way I'm feeling right now.

I miss talking to her while I'm under the covers. I miss the sound of her voice. I miss joking around with her. I miss making her want me. I miss her. I want say sweet nothings to her, tease her about her baby nephew, comfort her when her back hurts, and talk about nothing in particular.

I love it when she's playing around, tho it may seem too real sometimes. I love it even when she's trying to make me jealous. I love it when she's trying to get me to do something. I love it when the questions she's asking make me blush. I love it when I can guess her reaction. I love it even more when she's laughing. I love it when we are thinking of each other and we both know it. I love it even when she cries over something sweet I did, because I'll know, I can evoke such emotions within her.

I hate it that we are so far apart. I hate it when I can't be there for her, with her. I hate it when I don't get to talk to her. I hate it when my messages don't reach her. I hate it that she's in pain, and all I can do is talk to her softly and give her virtual back rubs. I hate it when I fail to give her hugs and kisses when she needs them the most. I hate it when her tears fall, and I'm not there to wipe them away. I hate it that I can't cuddle her. I hate it that I cannot call her as often and as long as I want to. I hate it that I cannot be there to fend off unwanted attention. I hate it that I might not be able to see her in a very long time. I hate it that I cannot introduce her to my parents.

If wishes came true, I would want to wish upon the falling stars during the meteor rain. I wish that this would last forever. I wish that I could be with her now. I wish that we could spend everyday together. I wish that the love we have will never fade. I wish that I could wake up everyday to her. I wish that I could hold her close every night.

All I want, is to be with my baby right now. God knows how much she needs me right now, and how much I miss her.

2days

*Me and mom walked pass the Kotex counter at the supermarket. I was walking ahead of mom.

Salesgirl (to me): Hey miss. Do you want to try this? It's on promotion now.
Me: No thanks.

Mom (grumbling to me): She never ask me. She must think that I'm menopausal or something.
Me: HAHAHAHAHA

*Talking on the phone

XXX: Well, I did think of being a singer.
Me: Wow! Great! Have you ever thought of joining American Idol?
XXX: Oh no! I don't like Simon. He hurts alot of people.
Me: Aww. But I like him!
Me: Won't you join for my sake?
XXX: Do you want me to join?
Me: Well, I kinda like the idea of you appearing on tv, just for me.
XXX: Okay. If you want me to, I'll do it.
Me: Oh really? Cool! Then I get to show you off to every one of my friends.
XXX: Haha.
Me: Hmm... But on second thoughts, I much rather you be my personal singer. :D

* Watching a cooking program on tv
Mom: I want to try cooking a fish pie la.
Me: Yucks.
Dad: Eh, girl. Ask you. How do you say chicken pie in Mandarin?
Me: Ha? Er. Dunno! Hahaha.
Dad: I teach you la. Call CI-PIE (cibai)
Me: HA?! NO LA! Ji-Pie, not Ci-Pie la!
Dad: CI-PIE la! hahahahaha
Me: Dad... You're terrible... hahahahahaha

*on translations
Me: Hermana grande, te quiero
(jie, i love you)
Ganli: Ok...
Me: Can und?
Ganli: Yea, it's Spanish
Me: =.=
Me: What language you DONT und?
Ganli: Indian

*on the phone, again
ZZZ: Hi
Me: Hey. Where did you go?
ZZZ: She's in the shower. I'm her sister
Me: Neh. Can't be
ZZZ: Yea, we sound alike, being sisters and all.
Me: Hmm...
ZZZ: You don't believe me?
Me: No...
ZZZ: Really, she's in the shower now
Me: Then why am I talking to you? I mean, why not just hang up?
ZZZ: 'Cause she told me not to.

*Once again.
Me: Why does your sister sound like you?
XXX: Do we sound alike?
Me: Hmm, yeah. 'Bout 90%.
XXX: Okay.
XXX: My sister likes you. She says I can keep you.
Me: ...

XXX: You know, I'm 20, but I don't look 20
Me: Oh? I bet you look 16.
XXX: Oh no. When I go out, people say i look 12
Me: What?! hahaha
XXX: That's not funny.
Me: Oh, but it is! Oh gosh baby, what if they arrest me for statutory rape?
XXX: LOL

KLIA

This is exactly how I feel about you and me.




I wish this is far from the truth.




But I cant get everything I want in life.




This sucks big time, you know?




I really hate this.




Sometimes, I hate myself for being such an idiot. Sometimes, I even hate you.

Love.... survey?

Love Survey: You must answer every question TRUTHFULLY!!

[01] Are you currently in a relationship?

-yeap

[02] Have you ever been given a rose?

- virtual

[03] What is your all-time favorite love story movie?

- Shrek

[04] Are you in love right now?

- yeap

[05] Do you believe that everyone has a soulmate?

- yea

[07] Have you ever had your heart broken?

- i suppose everybody did

[08] Your thoughts of online or long distance relationships?

- Well... I am currently in an online long distance relationship... Let me tell you, it really sucks. Even more so when I cant be with my baby... All I can do is give virtual hugs and kisses, and it hurts not being there with my beloved.

[09] Have you ever seen a friend as more than a friend?

- yeap...

[10] The person your with right now, do you want to spend your life with?

- hmmm... yes... of course!

[11] How many kids do you want to have?

- erm... idk if i'll even have kids... if i do, it's totally up to my baby

[12] What is/are your favorite color/s?

- blue, black, white, silver

[13] Who are your celebrity crush(es)?

- Jorja Fox, Angelina Jolie, Alex Parks, Zac Efron, Kate Moennig

[14] Do you believe you truly only love once?

- 1 true love of my life, yes.

[15] Imagine you are 79 and your spouse just died, would you get re-married?

- haha... imagine if i died of a broken heart shortly after that... hahahahaha

[16] Do you believe in love at first sight?

- idk... anything is possible i suppose

[17] What song u want to be played at your wedding?

- i think i want... Only You by Ashanti

[18] Do you like anyone?

- i love someone, i like almost everyone

[19] Do you believe that first love never dies??

- the love?? i suppose it nvr does... it changes its form, one way or another.

[20]Tagged:
- Jein, Jie(s), Anne, Kang, LiShan, Puppy, joanne.

CSI: Sara Sidle

I admit. If my baby was anywhere near as hot as Angelina Jolie, I'm never letting go. But that is fantasizing. Hot or not, I'm never letting go of my baby no matter what.

But. I digress. The star for today's post, is not me, not my baby, and definitely not Angelina Jolie. It's Jorja Fox. Now, this is one hot mamma! I mean, who doesn't like her character in CSI? She is as hot as they come. I'll admit, one of the reasons why I love CSI, is because I get to see her on air. I love seeing her smile. Everytime she smiles, it brings a smile to my face as well.

Wow. I tell you. Look at that face people, and tell me straight to my face she's not sizzling hot. No wait. DONT tell me.

And now, a video clip, of 2 of my fave CSI persona.

Country? So What

I came across this song the other day. Had it in my computer for sometime, but didn't really listen to it. I dedicate this song to my baby and my bunch of whacky pals. This, people, comes from the heart.


Rascal Flatts
My Wish

Mini road trip

Before telling you people about the great time I had in Penang, grant me a couple of moments of silence....

IFUCKINGWANTMYBABYRITENOW *** WHERETHEHELLISSHE!!
THISISWHENINEEDHERTHEMOST ** NSHEISONDOTHEREND
andsheisnotherewithmerightnow * SHESONTHEOTHERSIDEOFTHEFUCKINGGLOBE


Ok. Penang was FANTASTIC! The company was great, and I actually had fun. A good trip is one with lots of good memories. The food was fabulous, and the conversations were kind of funny.

Example:

KC: Celine! Let's go Pacific!
Celine: Serious ar? Really meh? Don't want la
WC: Yaya! Let's go visit your parents! KC can put on a bear suit and dance and attract customers!!
Celine: No need la. He go and dance now oso can attract customers, no nid bear suit.
KC: ......
WC & Celine: LOL
(you'll have to know us to get that joke... quite possibly)


The drive up from Sg. Buloh was rather noisy, I suppose. We were talking quite a bit. After lunch, we, namely me and WC, fell asleep while KC drove on. We made rather good time, traveling up north. From Celine's place, our 1st stop on the island was Gurney. Now, I suppose everyone knows about Gurney, especially Gurney Drive. It's quite the tourist attraction, I reckon it's because of the long rows of food stalls. The food was alright. We went into this hotel, I think it's called G. Gosh! It. Was. Spectacular!!

I think, we basically toured the whole of Penang Island in 1 day. We visited Kek Lok Si Temple, Batu Ferengghi, the Sleeping Buddha and the Botanical Gardens on Tuesday. Kek Lok Si Temple was by far, one of the more interesting places that day. The place was gorgeous, but what made it interesting was what happened there. You see, upon reaching, WC, Celine and me posed for KC to snap a picture of us. When WC moved away towards KC, this foreign dude standing behind KC took his camera, and requested for us to pose for a picture. *It was a silent request*

See what that KC said.
KC: Wahhh... Laura must be damn attractive to foreigners.
(that idiot)

We went up to the Kuan Yin statue there, and we looked around. WC and I donated money to the building of the shrine/pagoda(?) around the statue by buying a tile, and having our names written on it. It's rather cool. KC bought 2, one for himself, one for his parents. (so filial) The 4 of us took a breather at this little hut on the water (dont know what they call it). When we wanted to leave, we snapped another picture, of us together, and guess what, that dude appeared again. He snapped our picture, again. This time, KC even offered to help him snap a picture of him, with the 3 of us. That brings a total of 3 pictures of me, residing with a stranger. Sigh.

At Batu Feringghi, we hung around at the beach. It made me want my baby even more. That time, at the beach, was the time I felt the loneliness most acutely during the whole trip. Basking in the beach breeze, leaning against the rocks while doing some people watching made me want to have my baby in my arms. Sometimes I wonder, if we'll ever get the chance to spend time together, with each other, quality time that lets me think back with a smile on my face. If only...

The rest of it is about the food. I care more about the experience, and so I decline blogging about food. Sides, I never took any pictures of the food(s) involved. I guess you'll just have to take my word for it when I say it's DELICIOUS.