thanks alot for making me see clearly now. it's so obvious that u're avoiding me. fine. whatever man. it's not that i care very much. just that i thought we can still be friends. clearly not.

Swipe!

'Swat! Stupid fly..'
'Muacks! Muacks! Love my Mel Mel soooo much!'
'Aiyer!! I paiseh laa!!'
'Cheers!'
'Yikes!'
'Oh.Ma.Gawd. Curi tangkap ya!'
Our... Pizza's former habitat. New Habitat:Stomach
'huh! Mm moi choi nei!' (not talking to you)
'Weewahahahahaha! I finally got my pizza!!'
'Yawn! Sleepy! Aiya! Take my pic!!'
Mel: 'My side profile is equally as nice.' (or was Michelle taking a pic of that fella in white?)
'There there there! Look there!' ( dunno what she saw.. LOL)
'Mm... Yummy!!'
I was lazy to write captions for every picture taken. But now I've edited it. Nice? Haha. Well. Suffice to say that the pictures were taken by Michelle and Melissa. We, meaning, me, Mel, Cass, Michelle and Sea Win, had lunch at Pizza Hut. We went to do some shopping and to gao dim Michelle's laptop thingy for her. She decided to install XP Pro, instead of Vista, upon hearing Cass and the computer guy's advice. Then we shop shop shop. :D
Finally, we went back to see to Michelle's laptop. It was almost done. The nice guy even installed Nan Ji Xing for her, and AVG anti virus. WOW! So. We went back to Uni slightly late. Urm. We were a mere 15 minutes late for lectures. :D AND it was raining.
Went to class and met Taryn and Shi Ni. ISH! That fella never told me that she was going to go for the accounts lecture that evening. Then today, went back early again. What la this girl. No time for me. Sad.

wat a day

"Look at me! I'm soo cute!"
'Mess with me, and we'll meet in the boxing ring."

Haha... Was messing around in college as usual. Snapped a number of pictures. Was relaxing after a tough struggle with accounts. Haha. So I just HAD to destress before classes. Not that it did much help anyway.
It was fun talking to Michelle, and taking stupid pics. Haha. And you know what? She's also an only child, just like me! Haha.
Did I mention being totally into anime these days? Yup! Been watching Flame of Recca for the past few days. I should totally find a new hobby, and start doing my assignments early. Right. Like that'll ever happen. But I am trying. Hee.. Trying..
Aiya! Dunno what else to blog about dy la.

dark thoughts

You know. It's hard. Getting to know someone real intimately, would mean opening up to that someone. That someone whom you are comfortable with, being friends and more. That someone you can trust with your deepest, darkest secrets and fears.
If I asked you, how much do you truly know me. How would you answer me? It's easy for me to be there for people. I've been doing that practically my entire life. But when I really need a shoulder, to whom can I turn to?
Being a clown is easy. Acting like one is simple. Living like one is hell.
Entertaining friends. Humouring them. Listen to them talk. It's all nothing but a cliche. I wear a mask everyday. Everyday you see me, you see the mask I wear. How could you have known otherwise? Me, who have never ever lost rein of my emotions before. I let you see who I wish you to know. But I'm so tired of it. How I wish... That my life wasn't this fucking complicated. It's such a fearsome weary burden to shoulder.
Bare my soul. Can I ever do that? I wonder that from time to time. And the answer would always be in the shadows. Accepting that, this feelings and thoughts would subside into nothing. But thinking about it, makes me realize, it DID NOT subside, merely hidden.
Would I ever be released from this? I want so much to truly have a carefree life. One without this dreadful burden. The worst burden one can carry is the burden of secrets. Why do you think I have a hard time trusting people?
Bare my soul. Is it possible?

Weekend

OK. Imagine how would you feel, if you suddenly found out that you have cousins that exist but you've never heard of them before, and they are of a different race? Not meaning to be racist here, but honestly? I was very very shocked to learn of the existance of 4 Malay cousins whom I know next to nothing about. Other than the fact that their dad is called Denny (Uncle Denny to me), and he converted to Islam, and married their mom, and that Uncle Denny is Uncle John's brother, I am absolutely clueless.

I also just met my cousin from JB. Her name is Katherine, and she's studying medicine at UCIS. Ok. This cousin of mine, at least I'm AWARE that she exists. You see. Uncle John was admitted into hospital, so mom called Aunty Candy to find out how is she. So. They popped in at around 9 and we chit-chatted till almost 11. It was kinda fun. For once, i wasn't THAT shy and stuff. I was rather, urm, outgoing? Haha. It was nice talking to them. Hope Uncle John is feeling better.

Neways. I'm back at Uni now. Nth much to blog about. Just thought you peeps would like to know about my weekend. Oh ya! I was spending my weekend watching 'Flame of Recca'. Despite the anime being old and stuff, I like it a great deal. :D And I'm totally recovered from whatever that struck me the other day. :D Cheers!!

duh

Wow! What a week it has been. So. Did I mentioned about being able to use the Uni's wireless network? Yup! Been sitting at the foyer practically every night, till at least around 10 pm. :D
Basically, nothing much to blog about. Just that, on Wednesday night, I was vomiting like hell. Was up practically the whole night. Yup! You heard me. As regular as a clock, my tummy woke me up, and my legs carried me to the bathroom, where I proceeded in kneeling down, and empty the contents of my stomach. Ah well! At least I'm feeling better now. Much much better. Thanks guys for your concern.. :D

holidays - break down

Holidays are almost over. Just the weekend left. To recap.

Saturday, 7/4/07
Woke up late and had brunch. Then, went out and had tea with mom and family friend, Ms. Choong. Did some catching up and went home at around 7. The very same day I got drenched. Sigh. Cats and dogs indeed. You peeps had better appreciate my effort in running to the car!

Sunday, 8/4/07
Nose is giving me problems. *Sniff sniff*

Monday, 9/4/07
Woke up late, watched tv, online. Went to RSUC, Royal Sungai Ujong Club, and made full use of the wireless network there. It's not bad, rather fast. As long as I can use the internet without much interuptions, I'm more than satisfied.

Tuesday, 10/4/07
Pretty much the same as Monday, only I went to fetch mom at around 2, and took her for a haircut.

Wednesday, Thursday. Friday, 11/4/07 - 13/4/07
More or less similiar to Monday's timetable.

Saturday, 14/4/07
Went out with mom and dad to Giant. Had a ncie lunch. Pizza! Haha.. Then went home and slept, and had the weirdest dream ever. I honestly swear. I woke up laughing. And I mean, laughing. Exactly like those stupid LOL emoticons.

Sunday, 15/4/07
Back to where I, erm, belong? Well, at least during the week. And I was shocked to hear about Melissa's grandpa. I'm here for you k, gal? Don't be too sad alright?

Monday, 16/4/07
Here I am. At the computer labs. And I won't be here for long, if I can set up that wireless thingy. Once that is done, wehahahaha! I'll be using my laptop to online instead. Muahahahaha!

Shi Ni

What can I say? I was bored during econs lecture. Sigh. I'm short. I have no choice but to admit it. See the gal next to me? I had a solo pic of her before this, but that smart fella took my phone and erased it. So naughty right? Hence, we ended up with this picture. The only picture I have of Shi Ni. Haha. And as promised, an entire list dedicated to Christine Lam Shi Ni.
She is:
Charming
Lovely
Wonderful
Caring
Gorgeous
Entertaining
Magnificent
Astonishing
Kind
Hardworking
Thoughtful
Dedicated
Cool
Amazing
Vivacious
Gregarious
Friendly
Fun
Tolerant

Sonnet 116

Sonnet 116

by William Shakespeare

Let me not to the marriage of true minds
Admit impediments. Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove:

O no! it is an ever-fixed mark
That looks on tempests and is never shaken;
It is the star to every wandering bark,
Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken.

Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks
Within his bending sickle's compass come:
Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,
But bears it out even to the edge of doom.

If this be error and upon me proved,
I never writ, nor no man ever loved.

Came upon this poem when I was watching Much Ado About Nothing. It's a poem about love. How true love will prevail, through life and death, never changing, ever true. Actually. How do we know if it's true love? I mean, what are the signs? Seriously. No offence, but love is a very fickle thing. Won't you agree?
Talk about love. What is it? I mean, people keep saying "Oh, I'm so in love with xxx" So. Someone, please. Educate me. What is love? It's too abstract.. till even I can't grasp the general concept. ARGH! Whatever man. I don't really give 2 hoots about it. I'm off to bed now. Ciaoz!

everybody is a star... right?

my celeb lookalikes

cassie! :D

as promised.. hahha... the cute and pretty lady... hahhaha....

fall, falling, fell

Got caught in the rain yesterday. Where, you may ask. Back home in Seremban. Went out with mom and Ms. Choong. Had an interesting day, overall. Chatted for a while, and when we were about to leave, Ms. Coong exclaims, "My goodness! It's raining cats and dogs!" We kinda rushed out of the restaurant, and to the entrance of Jusco. True enough, it was pouring. It's the kind of rain that makes you want to snuggle up in bed, under your beloved blanket, and just sleep the day away. As it is, I waited till the rain subsided a little, then ran under the pelting rain to the car. Once I gained shelter and safety, I foolishly turned on the air con, wiped the screen and turn on the wipers. Drove up to get mom and Ms. Choong, then drove Ms. Choong back home.
And now, thanks to my ingenious actions yesterday, and some bravado in the past week, I honestly think i'm down with flu. Hooray. I mean it not in a happy manner, rather, cynical and sacarstic. I've been sneezing and sniffing all day long. And, thanks to mom, I can't even rest my head. It feels like it weights a ton. Good Lord! Luckily, I managed to sleep a short while before it was rudely shattered. So, feeling much better now.

Pt. 2

Ok. As I was saying. After management, we went and have ate. We being Audrey, Jocelyn, Sea Win and me. Taryn had to go back. ISH! Then we chit-chatted for a while, and Mel and Cass joined us. We were kinda talking about what movie to watch later, when Shaun joined us. Mel and I couldn't stand it, and abandoned Cass. Sorry dear! Audrey, on the other hand, sat by Cass's side all da time Mel and I were gone. Basically, we chatted till Ganli and Jocelyn came. Ganli offered us a ride to watch movie. So nice of her!
So at the end of the day, only me, Mel and Cass went for movie. 'The Shooter'. NICE! Highly recommended. Then we hanged out there till around 4.
Having holidays now. May or may not be updating regularly. So. Ciao for now!

Pt. 1

Catching up on world happenings...
Oo.... Sweet pretty gal, this one. Just look at her face!
Uh-oh! Better keep my phone away b4 mgmt tutor sees it.. :D
'No no! Don't take my lovely pic!' Jia Xuan exclaims. (HAHA! TOO LATE! :P)
Now this, my dear friends, is our new Shane lookalike. Haha.
Other than the colour, it's kinda similiar, eh? or perhaps I should post a more recent pic.
is this a better pic for comparision reasons?
Yup! Today was kinda fun. I'm now taking this opportunity to blog a short post before meeting up with Audrey. For once, in management, I actually wasn't that bored. Kinda made a new friend, Zara. Kinda 'cause she's in my mgmt tutorial class, bt we never actually spoke to each other before today.

disappointed

Twice
Twice you stood me up
Twice you let me down

Promises
Promises after promises
You never kept any of it

I treated you as a friend
You treated me like shit
I looked up to you as someone special
You tore me down

For me,
You are a companion on the road
For you,
I am but a shooting star

For me,
Friends are for keeps,
For you,
Friends are for leisure and pleasure.

For me,
I mean practically everything I say,
For you,
Words are but words, stripped of any meaning.

For me,
Friendship is literally everything.
For you,
Friendship is but a stepping stone.

You really disappointed me.
I honestly thought,
Our friendship, though a few weeks old,
Is something worth cherishing for a lifetime.

I seriously imagine,
I found a life-long friend.
Someone close to the heart,
Someone I can talk to about practically everything.

How mistaken I was,
I am.
It really feels like a betrayal of trust.

lame

This is freaking insane. I'm starting to think I could well be falling for you. Friggin shit I keep landing myself into. Damn. Ok. So my goal was to forget about you-know-who, and start afresh. But. Why? Why do I have feelings for the same kind of person I once liked so much that it hurts? Perhaps. Friends are all that we are meant to be. Perhaps. I give up trying to figure out your way of thinking and all that. It could be that I tepuk sebelah tangan. Whatever. Sometimes, I think I try too hard, to get to know the real you. At times, it felt as if I've really connected with you. At times, I don't get you at all.
Perhaps, I should have listened to your words. Single but not interested. I don't know. Maybe I will.