Thanks

Thanks,
for all the conversations we had,
for all the conversations we do not have,
for all the conversations we will never have.

Thanks,
for all the wishes you once said,
for all the wishes you do not say,
for all the wishes you will never say.

Thanks,
for all the sms-es you once sent,
for all the sms-es you do not send,
for all the sms-es you will never send.

Thanks,
for all the actions and gestures,
you once gave,
you do not give,
you will never give.

Thanks,
for the past,
the present,
the future.

Thanks,
for letting me know,
the past was sweet,
the present is bitter,
the future is uncertain.

Thanks,
for the memories,
sweet,
bitter,
tasteless.


(this is meant to be read with a sarcastic tone, bitter yet cynical)

belated

woowee!! did i mentioned tat i went out on tuesday?? haha.... yeap!! sorry for tat short, brisk post. i was tired!! haha... neways. i went out with you-noe-who.... since i'm sworn to secrecy, i shall juz talk about it in the most general terms...
i went out. i watched a movie. i watched 'Fantastic Four: The Rise of The Silver Surfer'. the 2nd time i'm watching it. with different people, of course. i muz say, i do quite prefer the company this time. no offence to Mel n Jeannie.. but, this time, the company of a high school friend is much treasured... very indeed.
after the movie, we had ice cream. and she got something. den we did a tour around Jusco. and then we left... rather short time spent together, but it was nice. i wonder. should i pay her a visit again?? wakakak... we'll see... :P

Tagged!!

Layer 1: On the Outside
Name: Laura Yoong Li Wen
Birth Date: 3 Feb 1988
Current Status: Single.... and available to who ever is interested
Eye Color: Brownish black.. :P
Hair Color: Black

Layer 2: On the Inside
My Heritage: Chinese ~ Hakka
My Fears: being alone?
My Weaknesses: too nice..... ppl take advantage of me... :(
My Perfect Pizza: cheese, pepperoni and sausages... hehe

Layer 3: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
My first thoughts waking up: i wanna continue sleeping
My bedtime: btwn 11 pm n 3am.... LOL
My Most Missed Memory: whn i was in secondary school... hehe

Layer 4: My Pick
Pepsi or Coke: both
McDonald's or Burger King: McDonald's
Single or Group Dates: Single
Adidas or Nike: Both!!!
Tea or Nestea: tea.. :)
Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla....
Cappucino or Coffee: coffee!!

Layer 5: Do You...
Smoke: tried b4
Curse: Yes...
Take a Shower: of course
Have a Crush: -.-" yes..
Go to School: Monash
Want to Get Married: dunno
Believe in Yourself: duh!!
Think You're a Health Freak: Nope...

Layer 6: In the Past
Gone to the Mall: Yes..
Been on Stage: long long ago
Eaten Sushi: Yes.....
Dyed Your Hair: i want to

Layer 7: Have You Ever...
Played a Stripping Game: No....
Changed Who You Were to Fit In: nope.. dun think so..

Layer 8: Age You're Hoping to...
Get Married: dunno

Layer 9: In a Girl
Best Eye Color: black
Best Hair Color: black
Short or Long Hair: medium length

Layer 10: What You Were Doing
A Minute Ago: Chatting and doing this
An Hour Ago: Juz woke up
Four and a Half Hours ago: snoring
A Month Ago: preparing for exams
A Year Ago: suffering

Layer 11: Finish The Sentences
I love: you
I feel: sleepy, tired
I hate: being alone...
I hide: my true feelings..
I miss: nobody
I need: nobody

Layer 12: Tag 4 People
Kang
Pei
KK
YuHe

today

today. was a fruitful day alright.
today. i went to gaint.
did some shopping for my precious stomach.
seeing tat there aint much edibles around the house.

today. a fruitful day indeed.
today. i went to jusco.
watched a movie.
a repeat. but what the hell.
i enjoyed the company.
thanks a great deal.

today. i talked alot.
i opened up a great deal.
it was great.
thanks for tat too.

steamboat

so let me eleborate abit more about last night. sorry about tat post.
recap recap.. hmm....
yesterday, for once, i woke up early by CHOICE... i went to the wet market with gramps, n kat n family... we walked abit, and shopped abit to get the stuff for the steamboat ready.. and the 1st shop we stopped at, was the shop selling all those stuff... weehoo!! hehe... den while waiting for gramps to pay up, something happened. i was standing there, minding my own business, when someone banged the back of my knee.. i was so going to scold tat idiot, when i turned around.. shockingly, it turned out to be U. Kenny!!! omg!! haha... 1st time i see him so.... relaxed?? hahhaha.... so i was happy laa, duh!! den i started chattering lor... kat n mom were bit bit shocked la, den i intro U.kenny to them.. then they were like, OHHH!! den we chit-chatted a bit, and we parted ways... :D
den we had our breakfast.. hehhee..... and den shopped abit bit more lor.... wakkaka... den on the way back, gramps asked,'want to go carrefour??' idiot tat i am, i said, 'sure!! y not??' den tat gramsp coolly turned his head and said,'asking u meh?? asking john la!! he's driving ma!!' omg!! i tell u, i really kena zadao from him lor!!! wth!!!
den we went back home and rest a short while... kat n i chatted and read papers... hahaha.... den den den... den all of us, except for mom, went to carrefour... coz, i tarik harga abit la... duh!! coz of how tat gramps said in the car earlier ma!!! den den den.... kat ask me to accompany her, and gramps kinda made up... so think think, might as well go... hahaha... since i dont really spend much time with my cousin anyway... and i dont hold grudges against gramps... ehheh... coz i love him so much... wakakkaka.... so ma go n enjoy myself lor... hehehe
den at carrefour, we kinda split up, with U.john goin his own way half the time, gramps goin to get his filter, and me, kat, granny n A.candy walking together.. mostly... LOL... ah well!! so much for having nth to buy, and the oni reason we ended up in carrefour is coz of the filter.. LOL... we ended up buying spagetti, prego's, cheese, milk, vege, chips and god noes wat else....
and so we had spagetti, and salad for lunch... of coz, yours truly tries her hardest to steer clear from salads... but somehow.. i have a feeling.. i'll be eating salads before long.... -.-" no joke!! serious shit...
and den... STEAMBOAT!!! hahahaa... there was 10 of us.... which are: Laura, Katherine, Kristy, mom, U.John, U.Kenny, A.Candy, A. Lay Ling, Popo, and the chef himself, Ah Gong.... hehehe.... of coz, we started off with a decent glass of white wine.. it was nice!! hahaha.... den we proceeded to the nx glass of red wine, of which i had 3... hehe... most stopped after the 1st glass... cept for me, kat, mom, A.candy, gramps, U.john and U.kenny... den U.kenny poured the sweet white wine from aust... nice... but bit tooo sweet.... so in total, i had, 3 glasses of white wine, and 3 glasses of red... den we drank some irish coffee as well.. of tat i had 2... omg!! my face, i tell u, was as red as a lobster.... and yes.. to answer ur questions.. i was definitely high... dun ask me why.... tat's for me to know, and u to figure it out...

alchohol

i'm seriously high!! wakakkaa.... or at least i was, a couple of hours ago... i had streamboat, and i drank like, 6 glasses of red n white wine, and around 2 glasses of irish coffee.. bit disappointed with myself, coz i tot my alchohol tolerance is rather good... sigh... guess this is called, drown ur sorrows... wakaka... but sumhow, i dun see the humour in the situation.... i guess i'm pathetic... god save me.... give me some distraction....
i guess, what they say about alchohol is true... if u're sad, drinking alchohol will make u sadder.. and if u're happy, u'll feel happier... haha
so i guess... i'm sad... ha.ha. shit.

past

ok. this is to recap an old memory. and tis is dedicated to CK, Pei's bf. hehe... CK stands for Chi Kian (think it's spelt tat way).
it was a thursday, on the 5th of oct, 2006, when Pei, Peng n I went to 1U. skipped school coz Peng was there, and i wanted to spend a little extra time with her. Pei joined us for movie. we watched 'rob-b-hood'.. den we met up with CK. he gave Peng and me a lift to the nearby Kelana Jaya LRT station.. hehe... kind fella... wkakkaka..... i went to sentral with Peng tat day, and waited till she boarded the train safely back to Sban.. and then I went back to Subang to have dinner with Jill... those were the happy days... i suppose....
thinking back, was it foolhardy to skip classes coz of her? given a 2nd chance to go back into the past, i would still do the same. even if the feeling wasn't mutual.

bbq nite

this is our makeshift barbeque pit.... innovative, right?? :Dok.... this is my 1st attempt... :( so pathetic right?look at Jesny, holding the umbrella under the porch.... -.-'yeah.... 4 ppl under the umbrella, under the rain, taking pics.... -.-' they are jill, jesny, pei n fw
this is the bday cake... nice rite?? heheheh...
this is wat happens, when u're the bday gal... LOLok... this is plain kelian.... nt her bday, but kena frm bday gal... -.-'jesny.... showing off her biceps... LOLarm-wrestling!!! hahahha... btwn jill n jesny... LOL... see how red jesny's body turned into?? seriously!! OMG!!

ok... so i finally posted up pics of the bbq i went to with mel n cass. it was to celebrate fw's bday... we went to pei's house and we baiscally jz chill... waited for jill n jesny to come, and prepared the bbq pit in the meantime. hehe... pei n jet fried chips, and v were eating as soon as the chips came off the pan... LOL...
so basically, it was supposed to be a surprise party for fw.. bt she somehow managed to guess... so v chit chatted and juz relaxed.... wat with all the dirty jokes being cracked... lol... i'm kinda glad i'm still very much sane.. and ppl call me pervert. i wonder why.. go figure.

celebrations

So. Yesterday was the end of my torture. Yippee!!! I'm so happy!! after papers, went out with Jeannie and Mel to 1U.. we watched.. Fantastic 4!! hahaha... it was way cool!! the silver surfer is soooo 'yeng', gaya, handsome... definitely OMG stuff!! he's the stuff dreams are made of.. hehe...
ARGH!!! i juz ran my fingers tro my hair, and a strand of WHITE hair came out!!! getting out edi!!! T.T sigh. fine. back to where i was before.
the silver surfer dude. i can imagine wat he looks like if he wasn't covered in silver, kinda like the sliver thingy in the termometer.. paiseh.. i kinda forgot the name... heh heh heh.. -.-" ah!! i remember edi!! is called, MERCURY!!! hahahhaha....... yea yea... like mercury.. hehhee...
den after the movie, v went to MPH for a short while, cz Mel had to get a book for her friend... den v had tea at Waffles World.. hehe.... we ate ice cream waffles, hehe, and i drank hot chocolate with mashmellows and Jeannie drank hot tea.. hehehe.... nice nice waffles... wakakaka..... wif vanilla and chocolate ice creams... hehehhehhe..... den Jeannie's bf, Eugene, (i believe it's spelt liddat) came to pick us up, and since it was on their way back, he sent us, me n Mel, bk to uni. so nice of him.
oh ya!! lest i forget, Ganli gave us a lift to 1U, coz she was on her way to Tmn Tun for a haircut... so yeah!! i guess she's alright after all. i suppose, i was overreacting...
ok. let me recap wat happened earlier on.
we went for exams. and then after i on my phone after the exams, i gt a msg frm Ganli. i meet up wif her at the foyar. turns out she came out earlier, around 20 mintues earlier. me, cass and ganli started talking, and megan and jocelyn joined us. we chit chatted for a bit, and then jeannie came over. ganli offered us a lift to 1U. we waited for Mel and soon enough, she came down with Michelle. Michelle looked dead tired. i wonder. might i have done an injustice to her? maybe.
anyway. we went to Medan to have some food. got a msg from taryn but only read it like, 20 minutes later. so end up din manage to say bye to my jie n shi ni... :( sad sad... i miss talking to jie.... sigh... guess i'll juz have to wait for 3 weeks before i can even see her again.. assuming v have the same classes.. tat is.... sad sad... :( :(

in a weird, twisted way, i miss Michelle. alot. sigh.

JB Cousin.. :P

Well, well, well.... look whose pic is on MY blog... wahhaha.... presenting, Katherine Teh, from JB
ok.... i noe this aint much.... but i did the cooking all by myself.... damn proud ok!!
and this is the cause of it all... my mom and her beautiful arm sling.

okie.... so wat happened was, as mentioned before. neways, some pics here. since we've talked about mom and her esperience, let's talk about Katherine. Yeah, well. She's my cousin, and she hails from JB. i only got to know her this year. Previously, all i know about her is that she's Uncle John's eldest who took STPM. Kat is in UCSI, studying Medic. 2nd yr student. surprisingly, i was talking and laughing together with her and her mom the 1st time i met them. perhaps it's her friendly nature, but this is the 1st time i warmed up so fast to a stranger cousin i've met for the 1st time. ok, maybe stranger cousin isn't really the word for it. but what other words can i use? her sis. Melissa, is currently in Switzerland, coming back real soon. Mel is my age, and seems to be real friendly. course, i've nvr met her b4 either. but if kat is anything to judge by, i suppose mel should be quite easy for me to warm up to, i guess. so kat, if u're reading this, kindly do NOT whack me the nx time i see u for talking about u here, and plz, be happy, coz u're really the 1st cousin i've warmed up to so fast.
talk about Katherine. ok. well. she's cute, and funny, and friendly, and talkative. LOL!! i enjoy talking to her... hehehe..... huge compliment considering how choosy i am... wakkakaka.... :P

weekend

Oh wow!! i tell u.. it's been a hell of a hectic weekend.. let's have a recap.
had my paper on friday. economics paper. it was cold in the exam room!!! but then again, coldness is something i'm used to, right? :) after my paper, like i mentioned earlier, i went straight back to my hostel to pack my stuff to come back home. ended up having tea with Mel and Taryn den hitched a ride from Darren to the train station. reached home at almost 8. kelian. :( ate dinner den Katherine n her mom came over. we chit-chatted for some time, den i continued dinner at 9. den. IT happened.
mom was getting up from the toilet bowl, when she slipped and fell. OMG! WTH! called Uncle Kenny and Katherine. Kat being a Medic student, at least knew wat to do in this kind of situation. gotta admit. depended on her heavily last night. well. something to be grateful about, mom only has a close fracture on her left shoulder. at least, the other parts of her body, more importantly her brain is alright. so now, her arm is in a sling, and her movements are somewhat dampen, but, at least, she's ok. and she gets an extra whole week off.
so much for her cooking for me during the weekend.
i ended up cooking breakfast, lunch and dinner. fried bacon and eggs for breakfast, maggi and crab sticks for lunch, and bday noodles for dinner. yeap!! I did the cooking for once. will post some pics nx time. :) Kristy and family came over just as mom n I were going down to visit Katherine n co. so we just sama sama went over. WOW!! her place is NICE!!!!!!!!!!
hahahaha..... aiks!! should have taken some pics.... hehe... nvm la!! suan!! hehe.... she just woke up, poor thing... made her go hospital with us yesterday.... but with her there, really felt better lor... i owe u one, dear!! hehehe.... nx time la... i qia u k? hehe... so end up i did the cooking, and a bit of shopping, and very little of reading... NVM!! mom is more important.
hehe... so i guess i'll update AFTER my mgmt? maybe la... hehehe

C 3.13

This song was recommended to me by a close friend. the lyrics are really close to the heart.
you know the worst part of all this? not only am i confused, but actions speak louder than words. why is it everytime i see you, there is conflict going on within me? i want to be near you, talking to you, spending time with you. yet. part of me tells me, no. tat part of me says, what's the point? i'll end up hurt, surely.
i waited outside, and saw you walking towards the classroom. i half expected you to stop and talk to me, but you walked right pass me. i had half a notion to stop and chat with you afterwards, but i steered myself away from you, knowing very well that you were just at the doorway. i was hurt, to say the very least. i had planned to go straight back home, if it weren't coz of the msg. all i sensed was icy cold wind, and blowing snow in my face. a blizzard waiting to happen.
perhaps. i should just be polite and indifferent? perhaps. i should ignore how hurt i feel, and continue treating you like before? perhaps. i'll dance to your tune?
perhaps. it's all in my mind.

ding dong

DAMMIT!!!! my computer has so much to account for.... all my precious files... my pictures, songs, videos... everything!! all GONE!!! was so upset and pissed... DARN!!!
Was talking to Mel today... and we were wondering... why not go gentings after exams?? hehe... nice idea, right? and to think that we're discussing this during exam period... WOW!!! well... guess we'll have to meet up with the others before anything can be decided... right?? hehe

Koorime Island

When is it time to let go? When is it time to move on? Dad once said, expect nothing from people, then you won’t end up disappointed. An act of kindness, an act of friendship will be more appreciated if there were no expectations in the beginning.

The more I think about it, the truer the words ring. Yet, I can’t help but have expectations. Perhaps it’s all this being sick business. Perhaps, it’s like what you said, I think too much. Both things coupled up, making me want… something. I only told a few people my condition, and you were the 1^st. in a sense, your response was… disappointing. I guess, I was expecting a less indifferent response from you. All you said was take care. Even my FRIEND gave me more personal replies. Even as a friend, the response was warmer. I expected more from you. Instead, I end up feeling let down. It’s as if, I’m nothing but a shooting star in your life. Perhaps, it should be that case. I wonder, what do you want from me? How do you want me to treat you? As an acquaintance? As a close friend? As a normal friend? Or something else? I’m so tired of the uncertainty. And your actions are confusing. I’ve come to believe that there was a period whereby you were avoiding me. When I asked you what’s wrong, why didn’t you say anything? And now, you’re treating me as if you’re the receptionist, and I’m the client. So impersonal, so cold.

I feel so alone at times like this. My parents are back at home; my outstation friends are not back yet. Times like this, I miss 28, SS15/2F. I felt as if that was my 2^nd home. Celine, Juin… they were like sisters I never had, in a sense. My heart is breaking as I’m writing this. Somehow I want to break down and cry, but something is holding my tears back. I HATE being ill. It makes me feel weak and vulnerable. The sadness, the loneliness is killing me. Literally.

I guess. All I want is concern. Someone other than my mom to fuss over me. I want attention, I admit. Instead, I get cold shouldered. How nice.

midnight flu

3rd June 2007

And so here I am, once again. Current situation? ILL. Yeah, after scolding Jie for not taking care, ironically, I’m the one ill now. I believe I’m having flu, and to think that Finals are but 5 days away. Not wanting to whine here, but I’m still way behind in my revision!! And to think that management is 4 days after economics. Sigh. I’m current sniffing for all my life’s worth, and my throat is hoarse. For once, I shall take YuHe’s advice and turn in early. Early as in after this blog. Yeap! Saving this post in MSWord before transferring to Blogger. Why? I noticed, everything I open the ‘create new post’ page, I never seem to be able to write anything, but during my free time, times like this, I have this urge to blog. So. I might as well kill 2 birds with 1 stone, right?

Did I tell you guys how I absolutely adore that new purchase of mine? (refer to previous post) Yeah!! I’m going gaga over it. OMG! It’s just so nice!!!! Just cant seem to get enough of it. The shape is something I like and admire for so long, and cant seem to be able to find.

Nothing much to blog about, really. Oh ya! My former high school classmates had a fab steamboat on Saturday. It sure seems nice. Too bad I couldn’t go. Kinda miss them though. But then again, some of my closer friends couldn’t make it. So I suppose I didn’t really miss much. About 15 people turned up, to celebrate a belated birthday for my form teacher at his house. They used this as an excuse for a gathering. I don’t suppose I’ll post any of those pics, as 1, I’m not there, and 2, I don’t suppose you readers will know who are they. So yeah. No pics. Tough luck.

I guess I’ll go sleep now. Regrets cause I couldn’t really study. But getting well is so much more important, right? And mom knows nothing of me being ill. I never expected it, myself. With luck, I’ll be feeling so much better tmr. Hopefully.

MV on Fri

Just realized that there are so many things I was supposed to blog about. Promises, promises, yet unfulfilled. So I guess I'll just cancel all those posts, and one day, when I'm truly free, all the pics will be posted at the same time. Guess I'll just have to get used to blogging. Again.
So. Let's see. Yeah. Went out with mom on Friday. Skipped Econ lec on that day, to go Midvalley with mom. You know? For once, retail terapy actually works for me. The both of us had fun that day. She went shopping for clothes, and me? I wanted to get some more Tees, but ended up with a couple of accesories instead. Had lunch at Kenny Rogers, and walked, and walked, and walked. God! I never thought I could walk for so long. My legs were killing me that day.

This is an image of the necklace I bought. Totally in love with it!! Will take a clearer pic and upload it the next time. :D
Cheers ppl!! Gambate!!