jumbled up

wat is tis feeling?
why do i feel down?
why do i mope?
why does tis feeling choke?

so many questions,
so little answers.

all i know is that it graws on my feelings
i feel melanchony
a bit out of place here.
i find me pining for something,
someone even.
but i dont know wat triggered this off.

the world is full of possibilities.
bt life is full of sufferings and hardships
tis life is filled with sadness and tears
for every laughter there is a gallon of tears,
shed or otherwise.

tis feelings like no other.
is it what they call hurt?
is tis wat it's like to be hurt?
inflicting hurt and it's consequences does not seem so dire
but actually feeling it sucks.

i suppose the way you did it.
the way you said the words you said,
cuts tro my heart like daggers,
worse, like blunt knifes,
piercing tro my very veins,
instead of blood pumping tro my body,
my heart, now gushes blood out of all its pores.

i feel drained.
so tired.
exhausted.
i just want tis feelings to end here.
why, oh why,
did i come back to tis world of feelings?

i sound morbid and emotional.
but that is the oni way i can communicate with my creative side.
i work best when i'm down, sad, pissed or emotionally messed up.
i apologize if any of you are offended by my views.
bt that is truly how i feel. feel free to move on.
i think i'll stay here for now.