And so the school term starts. Okay, so it's only been 2 days, but it's pretty much the same as it used to be... Other than the fact that most of my friends aren't in the same tutorials as me, everything is cool... pretty much....
I guess, it's time to learn NOT to depend so much on friends... somehow, for me, it gets to the point that i blissfully and conveniently ignore my surroundings... especially in tuts, where i have friends, i tend to ignore others, and not make any new friends... so, in a way, i guess i'm glad for this chance to actually come out of my shell even more...
on top of that, i'm kinda goin to attend this AIESEC conference thingy... which will, hopefully, give me the chance to meet new friends... so yeah, i'm grateful for this chance.
and yeah, ramblings... fool... :P
i'm off, for god noes how long tis time... :P
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Sunday, February 24, 2008
random pics
my fav cake of the year...
touched... very very.... she even wrote it herself!! :D thanks dear!!!
ahh... the drink of the year...
MY glass... hands off
the skin care stuff... MARY KAY..
jein with makeup?? :D
Nian Gao.... cute rite??
CNY deco at pyramid...
siew pei n me...
giving beauty lessons...
cook of the year
lamb chops
roasted chicken.... (psst! new oven ma...)
present for yuhe...
Jam tarts for CNY....
my cousins n aunt busy at work.... i did my fair share edi.. :P
CNY with F5 classmates.
the shoe of my dreams... sigh....
s***... jein took tis whn i was distracted...
Sunday, February 17, 2008
ghost
When it gets dark out there,
think of me.
When it gets lonely at night,
dream of me.
When you see the stars in the skies,
remember me.
think of me.
When it gets lonely at night,
dream of me.
When you see the stars in the skies,
remember me.
She laid back on the grass, looking up to the heavens. In the background, she could hear fireworks being released, and the joyous squeals of the children. She sighed. Christmas, and here she was, alone and isolated from friends and family, just to stare into space. Oh, how she missed those arms wrapped around her waist, holding her tight, never letting her go. And with that embrace, came the kisses and sweet nothings murmured into her ear.
God knows how long she has suffered like this. Waking up practically everynight, drenched in sweat, her voice hoarse from screaming and crying. 2 years. 2 years since that eventful day. And she still remembered it as if it was yesterday. The car crash that inevitably took her beloved's life.
~Flashback~
They were on their way back home. Trying on all those wedding gowns were exhausting, yet satisfying. Finally, they found the perfect outfits. Chatting idly in the car, none of them expected that to be their last chat, EVER.
Everyone said that it was the worse automobile accident in the whole world, involving 4 cars, 2 motorcycles and a truck. The truck driver had swerved in order to avoid a motorcyclist, and subsequently caused the entire accident. Among the 5 casualties, her beloved's body was the most horribly mangled one of all. She was the lucky one, they say, surviving a crash like that. She was admitted and cared for in the hospital for 5 months.
Going through the stuff he left behind, a few days prior to his funeral, his family members found a velvet box in an envelope. Together in the envelope was a letter addressed to her. Honouring his wishes, they gave it to her.
'my dearest, by now, you should know how much I love you. I truly do. No matter what, I'll always love you. From the day I first met you, I knew, you were the one for me. You caught my eye, and stole my heart. I wanted you to be my bride, and most importantly, to show you my love forever more. I love you, my beloved.'
She broke down, crying and sobbing for the man she loved, for the fact that he started on a journey without her, a journey she can't follow.
~End of flashback~
It's been 2 years, and she still misses him terribly. Everyone said that she should move on, learn to live with the pain, learn to cope, learn to embrace life once more. But her beloved left her, the one man she gave all her love to, the guy she trusted with her everything, has gone. She had gone from sad, to anger, to angst. And now, all she felt was an emptiness.
'my beloved wildflower, you must learn to move on. Look forward, not backward. I'm always here, and will always love you. But you'll need to learn to live again, my love.'
She was startled. That voice. It was HIS voice! She looked up in the heavens, and for once, was at peace. This time, she could feel his presense, and knew, he was fulfilling his promise to her. She smiled, and joined the rest of her family with a genuine smile on her face. They wondered at the change, but was happy for her.
When you're sad and down,
talk to me.
When you're happy and jolly,
picture me.
talk to me.
When you're happy and jolly,
picture me.
God knows how long she has suffered like this. Waking up practically everynight, drenched in sweat, her voice hoarse from screaming and crying. 2 years. 2 years since that eventful day. And she still remembered it as if it was yesterday. The car crash that inevitably took her beloved's life.
~Flashback~
They were on their way back home. Trying on all those wedding gowns were exhausting, yet satisfying. Finally, they found the perfect outfits. Chatting idly in the car, none of them expected that to be their last chat, EVER.
Everyone said that it was the worse automobile accident in the whole world, involving 4 cars, 2 motorcycles and a truck. The truck driver had swerved in order to avoid a motorcyclist, and subsequently caused the entire accident. Among the 5 casualties, her beloved's body was the most horribly mangled one of all. She was the lucky one, they say, surviving a crash like that. She was admitted and cared for in the hospital for 5 months.
Going through the stuff he left behind, a few days prior to his funeral, his family members found a velvet box in an envelope. Together in the envelope was a letter addressed to her. Honouring his wishes, they gave it to her.
'my dearest, by now, you should know how much I love you. I truly do. No matter what, I'll always love you. From the day I first met you, I knew, you were the one for me. You caught my eye, and stole my heart. I wanted you to be my bride, and most importantly, to show you my love forever more. I love you, my beloved.'
She broke down, crying and sobbing for the man she loved, for the fact that he started on a journey without her, a journey she can't follow.
~End of flashback~
When you're feeling blue,
share with me.
When you're seeing red,
come to me.
share with me.
When you're seeing red,
come to me.
It's been 2 years, and she still misses him terribly. Everyone said that she should move on, learn to live with the pain, learn to cope, learn to embrace life once more. But her beloved left her, the one man she gave all her love to, the guy she trusted with her everything, has gone. She had gone from sad, to anger, to angst. And now, all she felt was an emptiness.
For i will always be there,
by your side,
in body, heart and soul.
by your side,
in body, heart and soul.
'my beloved wildflower, you must learn to move on. Look forward, not backward. I'm always here, and will always love you. But you'll need to learn to live again, my love.'
She was startled. That voice. It was HIS voice! She looked up in the heavens, and for once, was at peace. This time, she could feel his presense, and knew, he was fulfilling his promise to her. She smiled, and joined the rest of her family with a genuine smile on her face. They wondered at the change, but was happy for her.
Friday, February 15, 2008
BB
Went out with Kang n Yue Anne today. I met a new fren! hahaha... We met up at Pavillon, n from there, we proceeded to Sungai Wang to look see look see, n eat lunch there. Met up with Wei Peng for lunch at Kim Gary.
I enjoyed today's outing. It was really fun! It kinda reminds me of the time I 1st met Taryn, and we hit it off from there. It was kinda the same with Anne. She makes you feel welcomed. ^^
From Sungai Wang, we went to Low Yat, cz Kang needed to get some stuff. We actually saw someone we knew there, Rayzhai. We went like, omg!
'eh eh!! tat's rayzhai!!'
'wat??! omg!! TAT'S ray??! wtf!!'
'ya ya!!! eh.. can v go down again?'
hahahaha... jz a small snippit of convo. ;)
on the way back from Time's Square, in the Monorail, I actually met Ms. Choong!! omg... of all the people I know, I actually meet HER. I called out to her, n my frenz seem embaressed by it. Oh well! Cant blame them at all, I mean, after all, the train WAS crowded, n I DID shouted. hahaha...
all in all, it was a wonderful time out. ;)
I enjoyed today's outing. It was really fun! It kinda reminds me of the time I 1st met Taryn, and we hit it off from there. It was kinda the same with Anne. She makes you feel welcomed. ^^
From Sungai Wang, we went to Low Yat, cz Kang needed to get some stuff. We actually saw someone we knew there, Rayzhai. We went like, omg!
'eh eh!! tat's rayzhai!!'
'wat??! omg!! TAT'S ray??! wtf!!'
'ya ya!!! eh.. can v go down again?'
hahahaha... jz a small snippit of convo. ;)
on the way back from Time's Square, in the Monorail, I actually met Ms. Choong!! omg... of all the people I know, I actually meet HER. I called out to her, n my frenz seem embaressed by it. Oh well! Cant blame them at all, I mean, after all, the train WAS crowded, n I DID shouted. hahaha...
all in all, it was a wonderful time out. ;)
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Theme: Yuri (feb 14?)
Disclaimer: This is pure fiction. Any resemblance to any living person or actual event is purely incidental.
*beep! beep!*
' hey! i'm coming back today. finish work at 5.'
"ok. cya real soon. come back safe k?"
Her message was just like like any message she might have sent to a friend, nothing special whatsoever. Yet, to receive that message, made me happy. Finally, I get to spend some quality time with her. She never did have a penchant for endearments. It was never her style. But at least, at least I hold a special place in her life.
Thinking back, I can't say for sure, when my friendship for her changed. We were always friends. But one day, talking and laughing, I found myself staring at her across the table. I found myself wanting to hug her, to kiss her, to call her mine. I wanted to run my lips across those delicious lips of hers, want to lose myself in the scent of her hair, want to embrace her, hug her like there's no tomorrow.
~flashback~
'Oi! You ok ma?? What's wrong??'
'H-ha??Oh... Nothing, nothing at all... Wandering mind...'
~end of flashback~
However, the catch was, she was straight. Laying on my bed that night, I can't help but feel depressed. She would only view me as a friend, a good friend, no doubt, but a friend nevertheless. But, there was no harm in being a good friend to her, while trying to tell her exactly how I felt, was there?
We've been dancing to this tune for quite a while now. 3, even 4 months. Then, it all changed when I invited her over for a sleepover. We shared the same bed, and in the shadows of the night, somehow, my arms wrapped itself around her waist. The next morning, we woke up to a compromising situation. Feeling giddy and light-headed, I stole a kiss from her. Fearing rejection, I got up real quick from the bed, and thus untangling our limbs. She held my wrist, forcing me to turn.
~flashback~
'What are you doing?'
"Well... I'm going away, so you don't have to see me again."
'And why would I not want to see you again?'
"Well, because I just kissed you, and you're straight... I guess that pretty much sums up everything, don't you think?"
'Did I say I wanted you to leave?'
"No... but..."
'Sit down. Let's talk.'
~End of flashback~
And so we did, talk things out. She agreed to give it a try. And here we are, both tentatively testing the waters for the first time.
*beep! beep!*
'hey, dinner? at my place. be bk by 8.'
'sure! pick u up at 8 den.'
'ok. n tis time u're staying, k?'
'... okok... if u insist.'
'ya. miss u. cya den.'
*beep! beep!*
'oh ya! btw, happy valentine's day dear.'
':D love ya too. cant wait 2 cya. ;)'
And soon, in a matter of hours, I'll be reunited with my gf, who insists on working in kl. Not that I'm complaining about her independence, I hate not spending time with her during holidays. Ah well! As long as she's in my arms, there should be no reason for complains. As long as she's mine, all's good.
(p/s: I put it in a first person's view. Much easier this way.)
*beep! beep!*
' hey! i'm coming back today. finish work at 5.'
"ok. cya real soon. come back safe k?"
Her message was just like like any message she might have sent to a friend, nothing special whatsoever. Yet, to receive that message, made me happy. Finally, I get to spend some quality time with her. She never did have a penchant for endearments. It was never her style. But at least, at least I hold a special place in her life.
Thinking back, I can't say for sure, when my friendship for her changed. We were always friends. But one day, talking and laughing, I found myself staring at her across the table. I found myself wanting to hug her, to kiss her, to call her mine. I wanted to run my lips across those delicious lips of hers, want to lose myself in the scent of her hair, want to embrace her, hug her like there's no tomorrow.
~flashback~
'Oi! You ok ma?? What's wrong??'
'H-ha??Oh... Nothing, nothing at all... Wandering mind...'
~end of flashback~
However, the catch was, she was straight. Laying on my bed that night, I can't help but feel depressed. She would only view me as a friend, a good friend, no doubt, but a friend nevertheless. But, there was no harm in being a good friend to her, while trying to tell her exactly how I felt, was there?
We've been dancing to this tune for quite a while now. 3, even 4 months. Then, it all changed when I invited her over for a sleepover. We shared the same bed, and in the shadows of the night, somehow, my arms wrapped itself around her waist. The next morning, we woke up to a compromising situation. Feeling giddy and light-headed, I stole a kiss from her. Fearing rejection, I got up real quick from the bed, and thus untangling our limbs. She held my wrist, forcing me to turn.
~flashback~
'What are you doing?'
"Well... I'm going away, so you don't have to see me again."
'And why would I not want to see you again?'
"Well, because I just kissed you, and you're straight... I guess that pretty much sums up everything, don't you think?"
'Did I say I wanted you to leave?'
"No... but..."
'Sit down. Let's talk.'
~End of flashback~
And so we did, talk things out. She agreed to give it a try. And here we are, both tentatively testing the waters for the first time.
*beep! beep!*
'hey, dinner? at my place. be bk by 8.'
'sure! pick u up at 8 den.'
'ok. n tis time u're staying, k?'
'... okok... if u insist.'
'ya. miss u. cya den.'
*beep! beep!*
'oh ya! btw, happy valentine's day dear.'
':D love ya too. cant wait 2 cya. ;)'
And soon, in a matter of hours, I'll be reunited with my gf, who insists on working in kl. Not that I'm complaining about her independence, I hate not spending time with her during holidays. Ah well! As long as she's in my arms, there should be no reason for complains. As long as she's mine, all's good.
(p/s: I put it in a first person's view. Much easier this way.)
all the michelles in the world
so! CNY is here. nth much happening, except for the party at 'Chelle's place. okok, so technically, i'm supposed to call her aunty n stuff. buttttt..... she said, she hates the term 'aunty', especially since the age gap aint all that huge. hence, i'm to call her Michelle, or ah 'Chelle, as the whole family has been doin so. (great! now there's 3 Michelle's in my life. how confusing can tat be?)
grandpa outcooked himself, preparing tonnes of food, enuf to feed my whole Uni... (exegerating, of course!) and den, there was desserts: longan, ice cream, orange liquor. of course, me being me, had a bit of everything. the orange liquor was delicious! n i drank almost half of mom's share as well. (will post pics later)
den after tat, was the 5A bai nian. was actually seriously contemplating not going. but after the phone call from SK, i decided, 'wat the hell.. might as well give it a go..' to be honest, i was apprehensive about it. but it was good. met up with the others, even had dinner with them. after dinner, they came to my place, n v played Ginrummy, which incidentally, i learnt how to play at Chelle's place. it was fun... at the end of the day, i'm glad i went out afterall, even if it meant being lethargic.
grandpa outcooked himself, preparing tonnes of food, enuf to feed my whole Uni... (exegerating, of course!) and den, there was desserts: longan, ice cream, orange liquor. of course, me being me, had a bit of everything. the orange liquor was delicious! n i drank almost half of mom's share as well. (will post pics later)
den after tat, was the 5A bai nian. was actually seriously contemplating not going. but after the phone call from SK, i decided, 'wat the hell.. might as well give it a go..' to be honest, i was apprehensive about it. but it was good. met up with the others, even had dinner with them. after dinner, they came to my place, n v played Ginrummy, which incidentally, i learnt how to play at Chelle's place. it was fun... at the end of the day, i'm glad i went out afterall, even if it meant being lethargic.
Saturday, February 09, 2008
click click click! ;)
my beng-ified blog
have a look at this! i saw it at Jein's blog, gave it a try, and it's COOL! hehe...
have a look at this! i saw it at Jein's blog, gave it a try, and it's COOL! hehe...
Thursday, February 07, 2008
cny day 1
| What Laura Yoong Li Wen Means |
 You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way. And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life. You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts. You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it. You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator! You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. |
Wednesday, February 06, 2008
idiotic, moronic, BLOND!
i fell for it.
i want to meet all of my frenz when i come back.
i said, contact me whn u wanna meet up.
bf got exams; i cant go alone; msia nt safe; dunno how to take public transport.
i waited. and waited.
i'll contact u to find out whn v can meet up. i missed u so much!
waited and waited. hoped against all hope.i want to meet all of my frenz when i come back.
i said, contact me whn u wanna meet up.
bf got exams; i cant go alone; msia nt safe; dunno how to take public transport.
i waited. and waited.
i'll contact u to find out whn v can meet up. i missed u so much!
i wont be bk for 2 yrs or more.
2007 came n left.
sorry cant hang out with u all.
2008, new year came. my buddy came back.
been busy these 3 mths, due to CNY.
my bday came n passed. CNY coming soon.
think u all oso wont be able to go out.
opened my heart, jz to fall again.
feel so hurt right now.
Monday, February 04, 2008
celebs?
a facade. that's wat it always has been about. in fact, quite successful, in that people perceive me as cold. but i quite like being fussed over, especially during my bday. so yeah, i enjoyed being in the center of attention for the day.
one would say it's rather mundane, boring to a certain point: movie, lunch, walk. but for me, it was the company tat really mattered. went for 'Sweeney Todd' with kejun, mabel, peikay n last bt not least, yuhe. yuhe n kejun actually came to my place 1st, dropping off my present, (earrings) n my bday cake (cheese cake, courtesy of yuhe). :D ok, so Sweeney Todd aint exactly the epitome of a happy birthday, yet, it was interesting. one would say it's the exact opposite to a joyous day, but it's MY bday, so i watch the show i goddamn well wanna watch! (bit aggressive, n defensive. :P) of course, after that, v grabbed a bite at Ichiban Ramen, where i was told, the bday gal CANNOT eat rice. yea rite! hahaha....
after that, peikay sent me back, n stayed back for a chat n a slice of cake. talking about cake. omg! i really love that cheese cake. despite it not being as good as a Secret Recipe cake, or aunty layling's cakes, it'll remain one of the BEST cakes i've eaten, all because of the person behind all the effort. thanks so much, yuhe! makes me wanna go up to her n just hug her. nt tat i wont, jz tat it's wistful thinking on my behalf rite? i mean, come on! i wont want history repeating itself. it's done tat once too often. (perhaps i really should consider the alternative)
den today, or rather yesterday (it being the 4th), yuanyih came over with her family, n gave me a cake too! omg! my 2nd cake, n i'm still waiting for my cake from jein. (u noe wat to do ya! ^^) i absolutely love it! even if it was a bit over the top, she sure knows how to celebrate a bday with me... hehe..
sinful thought: if she had any inclinations in my way, i wont mind taking up her offer. ;)
like i said,i dun really demand attention, bt it's really nice to be fussed over during ur bday, jz this once. to be treated as if u're the oni important person tat ever existed sure beats most things on earth. of course, if i had someone special to spend it with, jz the 2 of us, it'll be even more perfect, ya?? hahaha.... wistful thinking, wistful thinking... hahaha... :)
oh ya! btw, thanks guys, for ur bday wishes! totally forgot to add that in b4 i post. :) u guys rock! :)
one would say it's rather mundane, boring to a certain point: movie, lunch, walk. but for me, it was the company tat really mattered. went for 'Sweeney Todd' with kejun, mabel, peikay n last bt not least, yuhe. yuhe n kejun actually came to my place 1st, dropping off my present, (earrings) n my bday cake (cheese cake, courtesy of yuhe). :D ok, so Sweeney Todd aint exactly the epitome of a happy birthday, yet, it was interesting. one would say it's the exact opposite to a joyous day, but it's MY bday, so i watch the show i goddamn well wanna watch! (bit aggressive, n defensive. :P) of course, after that, v grabbed a bite at Ichiban Ramen, where i was told, the bday gal CANNOT eat rice. yea rite! hahaha....
after that, peikay sent me back, n stayed back for a chat n a slice of cake. talking about cake. omg! i really love that cheese cake. despite it not being as good as a Secret Recipe cake, or aunty layling's cakes, it'll remain one of the BEST cakes i've eaten, all because of the person behind all the effort. thanks so much, yuhe! makes me wanna go up to her n just hug her. nt tat i wont, jz tat it's wistful thinking on my behalf rite? i mean, come on! i wont want history repeating itself. it's done tat once too often. (perhaps i really should consider the alternative)
den today, or rather yesterday (it being the 4th), yuanyih came over with her family, n gave me a cake too! omg! my 2nd cake, n i'm still waiting for my cake from jein. (u noe wat to do ya! ^^) i absolutely love it! even if it was a bit over the top, she sure knows how to celebrate a bday with me... hehe..
sinful thought: if she had any inclinations in my way, i wont mind taking up her offer. ;)
like i said,i dun really demand attention, bt it's really nice to be fussed over during ur bday, jz this once. to be treated as if u're the oni important person tat ever existed sure beats most things on earth. of course, if i had someone special to spend it with, jz the 2 of us, it'll be even more perfect, ya?? hahaha.... wistful thinking, wistful thinking... hahaha... :)
oh ya! btw, thanks guys, for ur bday wishes! totally forgot to add that in b4 i post. :) u guys rock! :)
Saturday, February 02, 2008
countdown
let's see. it's the 1st of feb, n WONG KANG YUN IS BACK!!!! gosh!! i miss tat fella... as crazy as she is, she's one of the best things tat happened to me in TCSJ. ever since she went to melb, it seems quieter here in msia. hehe. i'm so looking forward to meeting her soon.
b4 tat, let's look back. i went back to hostel on wed, 30th, with Siew Pei. to be honest, i never really talked much with her during our 6 years of acquaintance. yet, i suppose we got along rather well during those few hours. :) it was real cool... will post some pics up later. :)
and nw, something else to look forward to: sunday. :) i managed to bully yuhe into making cake for me, n coming back from kl to celebrate bday. :P i sound like a brat, a spoiled brat eh? i think so too. :( ah well! the important thing is tat she doesn't really mind, N i get to enjoy her company for the better part of the day. ;)
b4 tat, let's look back. i went back to hostel on wed, 30th, with Siew Pei. to be honest, i never really talked much with her during our 6 years of acquaintance. yet, i suppose we got along rather well during those few hours. :) it was real cool... will post some pics up later. :)
and nw, something else to look forward to: sunday. :) i managed to bully yuhe into making cake for me, n coming back from kl to celebrate bday. :P i sound like a brat, a spoiled brat eh? i think so too. :( ah well! the important thing is tat she doesn't really mind, N i get to enjoy her company for the better part of the day. ;)