recap?

so it's way after the holidays. aunt ju had her xmas party at her place, n v had a marvelous meal. had fun with kat, mel, kristy n kevin. basically, this holidays kinda holds a lot of 1st-times for me. tat day, 22nd dec, was the 1st time i ever met aunt joyce n her family. met her hubby, uncle stanley, the kids, amy, yvonne n tricia. somehow, they kept more to themselves, with oni aunt joyce mixing around with the rest of the family. uncle terence came too, with his mom, and the rest of the party was attended by me n mom, grandparents, uncle kenny n family, aunt ju n hubby, uncle john teh n family n kevin n mom. well, u can say it was the usual crowd, with the addition of aunt joyce n co. but i'm not complaining.

the next day, me, kat, mel n kevin went to KLCC. well..... i wont say it was a disaster, coz it's not, but, it's kinda the 1st time someone ever tried a makeover for me... omg. *might post pics up after getting them from kevin* but, yeah, after getting over the 'shock' of the makeover, it's kinda enjoyable. well, at least i'm not the oni one to get a makeover... :P

no choice but to go back to sban on 24th. met up with uncle john yoong (yeah, ANOTHER uncle john) n family. saw aunt sue pandy n sean n aveen for the 1st time. they were nice, but dinner was kinda awkward i'm afraid. one thing i'm thankful for, is that uncle tuck n family showed john n the others around. sometimes, i'm so embaressed to call myself a sban person, seeing as i dont even know sban very well... =.="

26th brought another 1st time for me. 1st time tyh offered to treat me to a movie. WOW! seriously? it's shocking, very! but maybe i shouldn't make such a big deal about it. oh ya! it's the 1st time i met joanne too! the joanne i've heard so much about. haha. N she turns out to be yc's AUNT. honestly, i wont want a nephew who is same age as me, n borned on the same day as me. gosh!

27th, dim sum breakfast, n david goon came. he actually came. wow. (sacarsm) but it was nice to actually chat with him. i kinda miss him, really. n i learnt some dirty little family secrets. haha... :P

n today, 28th, woke up early to cook breakfast for mom n pn wo... which is cool, oni it was EARLY. dunno y, couldn't really sleep well last night.. :( but at least i went back to sleep after that. well, the thing on my mind right now, is about tmr. HP asked me to go to her place for a party, presumely for her bro's pending wedding. should i, or should i not go?

p/s: merry ex-mas (Tay, 2007) n happy new year to everyone! :)

feast

aunt Ju n hubby are back! and that means...... a FEAST!! therefore, this year, we invited the whole clan over for an early xmas party...

the party is scheduled on the 22nd, and my friends are invited to come, if they will... :P seriously, if u guys wanna come, i dun mind going over to the LRT train station n pick u guys up... i'll even give u a place to sleep at night... :)

so, i'm really looking forward to this party, mainly coz of the food, and the company... talking about the food, the menu is as follows:

Smoked salmon
Roasted pork English style
Chicken wings
Lamb stew
Sheppard's pie
Roasted leg of lamb English style
Mashed potatoes
Roasted root vegetables
Stir-fry kailan
Christmas pudding
Santa jelly
Mince pie

i think, as of now, this is it... :)

btw, went shopping with mom today at KLCC. managed to get 2 pairs of jeans, and 3 tees. all for less then $200. nice.... i finally got new clothes to go with my new look, and now, all that's lacking is a nice pair of shoes. actually, i saw this real cool pair at Everbest, but they din have my size.. in fact, the smallest size they have is a size 10. :( wat a pity!

grouchy

elo peeps! i'm backkkkkkkkkkkk!!!
well, u see, Laura landed herself in the goddamn hospital. all coz of a mosquito bite. i don't think many of you ppl out there noe this, but i was down with dengue fever. fever that wont go away, low platlet count...... the thing is, despite the red rashes that appear on my body, my blood test still came up negative for the dengue test.... weird, eh? so basically, i spent 5 days in the friggin hospital... not that the nurses there weren't alright, but it's just that, I HATE THE HOSPITALS!! i mean, visiting dad in IJN last year was suffer enough, and now, it's MY turn pulak??! omg! seriously? i dislike that place... the only times that were bearable, were the times when mom n dad were there, and occasionally, a visit from my frenz... the other times, were spent staring at space, spacing out, sleeping n occasionally brooding. i was so supposed to go MLK on 15/16 dec.... but end up i cant go. SUCKS. i really really really wanted to go..... ARGH! GODDAMNMIT!! I WANNA GO MELAKA!! f*** f*** f***.....
i tell u, i can go on & on & on about this cz I REALLY WANTED TO GO!!! :(
gosh... my one n only plan AWAY from kl n sban, and i cant go... :( sucks. looks like my holidays are confined to kl n sban, just like normal schooling days, the only difference being that i dont have to study during this period. GOD!! i feel so pathetic... 4 mths of holidays, n i'm acting the same as during NON holidays...
sometimes, i rather have a shorter holiday, but go to other places. i dun ask for much, just perhaps, a trip down South, a trip up North. at least, somewhere to the South of sban, and North, away from kl. sigh. this is my holidays. KL - Sban - KL - Sban...........
i'm full of grouses today, but, sometimes, i cant help but feel kinda envious. i mean, hearing my frenz go here, go there.... and all i do, is travel to n fro kl - sban..... yucks! i mean, i nvr even went to mlk.... wth!!

long overdue

we celebrated grandma's bday on the 2nd dec. we went to this chinese restaurant 'Six Happiness', near grandparents' place. between us, we discussed the menu, and finally decided on: fish, pork, chicken, yam ring, vegetables, shark's fin, longevity noodles and the longan/white fungus dessert. aunty layling baked a 'high fiber cheese cake'. YUM! this is truly a sinful indulgence. :P truly like this cake.

(P/s: i think blogger got problem uploading pics. been trying so hard to upload the pix. :( so i guess another time ba.... )

Maroon 5

i'm depressed. kinda. let's see... i've gotten my results on thursday 29th nov. to my utter horror n shock, i actually failed 1 subject. ok. so it's not such a big deal, seeing that there are others out there who have also failed. the big deal about this failing, is the fact that, this is the 1st time i'm failing, on record no doubt. ok fine, so there is this 1 time i failed my chinese monthly test in march 2004, but den again, chinese is not my forte, and 95% of the class was cheating anyway.

but that failure is not wat i want to talk about, or rather, rant about. knowing about my failure, the big 'N' on my transcript, was, IS a big blow to my self-esteem, my confidence, my pride. and i just realized, i'm PROUD. i mean, proud as in, there is always a certain image i wish to project into people's minds, and i never ever voluntarily shown any weakness to anyone in public. so i might break down in the comfort of my room or bath stall, but never in public. no matter how much it hurts, i always, always blink away the tears. i laugh off the hurt, i might stalk away in angry, i might be goddamn sarcastic or hurting in my statements, but i never, ever, show my pain n hurt.

'hunt or be hunted' is the Law of the Jungle. for me, it's 'hurt or be hurt'. tat's why i dun show much emotions. perhaps the occasion burst of anger, but never sorrow. i wave it off with a flick of the hand. but, the more nonchalant i look or portray, the more i truly care about that issue. the more i say i dun care, the more i care.

the failure thing sank in after sometime. i admit, i did cry myself to sleep, for a short while that night. but that is the past. i'm moving on, using this as a wake up call. this would serve well as a lesson, not to be too cocky, too proud, and never ever do my revisions last minute. so studying is a goddamn boring thing to do at times. but i don't ever want to fail anymore. i HATE failing. my ego, my pride cannot allow myself to fail anymore. it's time to put my brain to good use. i guess. :P

林宇中 – 淋雨中

林宇中 – 淋雨中

风吹乱的头发，
在我眼前挣扎，
把想你剪成几段，
沙沙的彷徨。

雨有一点急躁，
在我脸上涂鸦，
把心情画得乱七八糟，
滴答滴答响。
我手上没有伞，
分手的信有一张。
我没有哭是雨水渗透，
写你爱他那一行。

我在淋雨中，
看你步上彩虹，
我分不了轻重，
你幸福我该否祝福。
我在淋雨中，
背着你走不动，
我还有一个梦，
被雨水带离我的天空。
我的笑容会很酷，
若和你们巧碰，
放心我会收起我的痛。

我手上没有伞，
分手的信有一张。
我没有哭是雨水渗透，
写你爱他那一行。
我在淋雨中，
背着你走不动，
我还有一个梦，
被雨水带离我的天空。
我的笑容会很酷，
若和你们巧碰，
放心我会收起我的痛。

我在淋雨中，
看你步上彩虹，
我分不了轻重，
你幸福我该否祝福。
我在淋雨中，
背着你走不动，
我还有一个梦，
被雨水带离我的天空。
我的笑容会很酷，
若和你们巧碰，
放心我会收起我的痛。

停雨之后我不会再哭。。。

just a song my friend, Sze Jein intro-ed to me. i really enjoy listening to this song. kinda sad, but nice..... :D
btw. i most definitely am NOT emo-ing now. :P

dissapointed.. somewhat

i started off, wanting to blog. finally having the mood to do so. but somehow, i lost the mood.

was talking to mom just now, about how certain friends take you for granted. perhaps i'm being sensitive, perhaps i'm reading too much into it. but friends who expects you to be able to accommodate their plans all the time, as if the whole world revolves around them. i dunno. perhaps i was expecting too much out of people i call friends. maybe it's my fault, seeing that i'm always the one bugging others to go out with me. perhaps people see me as annoying, irritating, and basically a nuisance.

perhaps it's all my fault. perhaps i'm just PMS-ing. but when i think about this, i cant help but feel sad. i wish, for once, i'm nt the one always looking out for others, nt the one always wanting to meet up, organize get-togethers. i want to hang out, cz i enjoy your company, but mz u treat me like shit? ok, maybe shit is not the right word. u keep saying how much u want to meet up, yet....

'do NOT take me for granted' (Wong, 2007)

laksa n pasta.. perfect companions

today, met up with ms choong, ying li and hong ee. together with mom, we had lunch at 'laksa' at kemayan square. mom n i waited for them at the shop, as mom flatly refused to go to branch school. it was kinda the right decision, as ying li fell down prior to reaching her car, parked just outside the school. poor girl! kesian her.. so kelian!

neways, we had a good lunch, and proceeded to chatting till 5 something... i tell u, it was a damn long lunch! we started at 12.30 and ended way past 5... gosh! it was a nice meal, the company was wonderful. :) guess hong ee has changed, as in his attitude, which is quite refreshing. yet, in some sense, he remains idealistic, not realistic, but i guess it's harmless.

even chit-chatting can be tiring, as mom n i 'collapsed' after the loooong lunch. we took a nap till almost 8. she woke me up n we started preparing our own dinner. :) pasta again, but it was nice, even if i say so myself.

CYY

last saturday, dad brought us to my fren'z place, at Klawang. it was a kinda long journey, but quite worth it, i would say. the fren we're talking about here is Chong Yuan Yih, my high sch mate. had a nice chat with her. her bro.....

'jie.. tat one is girl or boy?' (points to someone in the picture)
'.....' (sis ignores him)
"u think is a girl or boy?" (I asked the bro)
'hmm... is girl.. i think..'
'den u're a girl or boy?'
"hmm... u say ler?"
'boy!..... no no.. girl...' (i laughed b4 he said no)

i look like guy meh? aiyo! hair short nia...haha.. funny guy. neways, once me n YY started talking, non-stop de... even when dad came in and asked me to go out, i jz smiled at him, but kinda ignored his suggestion that we left. then after sometime, mom actually called me. =.=" so had no choice but to go out. (we were in her room, looking at pics in her laptop) when we went out, and all prepared to leave, dad was talking to her dad. swt swt! so v jz stood at the doorway there, n chat summore.

we reached her place at around noon, and left around 2. 30?? short visit, as mom was kinda tired out.
short but sweet. pretty enjoyable. :)

random pic pt3

HuiPing n I, at Border's in Time's Square. :D
Look at the time.....
look what we were doing.
surprise snap when we met up. :)

take a look at this

random pics pt2

look at this fella... sigh... dunno wat to do with her.... *shakes head*
ganli mz really miss her beloved. :P
i was having exam stress. hehe
stress + jobless
ewww!! disgusting.

pics pt1

this is my new haircut.
a different angle.
this is what i look like, a couple of weeks ago.

assorted

had an amazing lunch. dad brought us to tanjung sepat, kuala langat there to have seafood. nice nice!! ;)
had: fish, mussels, vege n sotong. hehe.

on an entirely different note. WONG KANG YUN!! y feb????! gosh! was so looking forward to meeting u in dec, now u tell me feb... ish ish ish!!!

MV=midvalley

went out with Philip n Audrey yesterday. Went for '30 days of night'. OMG! I cant believe I actually watched that show. neways, Philip msged me at around 10 sumthing, asking if i was keen on goin to MV on friday. he asked audrey n taryn out too. unfortunately, Taryn couldn't reply his msg cz no more credit, and couldn't pick up his phone call cz she wasn't by her phone. hahaha. end up i call her, n i told her about MV. she couldn't join us, which was a real pity.

so, anyway. went for '30 days of night'. basically bout the vampires and their bloodlust. ewww... after that, went for lunch at Carl's Jr. den chit chat abit, and den v said goodbye to each other.

dinner

just came back from dinner. had a wonderful evening with my ex teachers. kinda. well, it was alright, i suppose. there was laughter and neverending talk, and god! am i tired! not much to update about, cept tat i enjoyed my time out with Ms. Choong, Pn. Lee and Ms. Kam. :P

oh ya! btw, i'm not upset or watsoever. surprisingly, i'm emotionless. does it mean tat i just enjoy spending time with you-know-who n occasionally flirting? best v remain as friends. yeah. definitely.

sneeze sneeze sneeze. :(

Today was tiring. Not only did i sleep late the night b4, partly cz i cant sleep, and partly cz i was sneezing, dad had to wake me up early today. he came in around 8 something, and woke me up. said something about changing my driving license. gosh! 6 hours of sleep is ok when i'm in uni, but not when i'm on holidays!! *grumbles*

So. after waking up early for a 5 minute routine transaction, i on9 for a while, and managed to chat with Taryn. sigh. i tell u, this holidays, as Ganli forecasted, is going to be kinda pathetic. Mel n Cass are back in johor, Taryn is goin to work, Michelle is.. Michelle, Ganli is grounded, and the rest... sigh..... no nid say edi, i noe i wont be hanging out with them this holidays. my final hope rests on Huiping and my high school friends, most of which i'm not close to, nor will likely to be close at tis stage of our lifes. and when my college mates come back from Australia, especially Kang n Mary, U GUYS HAD BETTER COME LOOK FOR ME.... or else!!!!!!!!!

but. enough of gloomy forecasts. let's talk about today. met up with Siewpeng (nt to be confused wif HP) whn she came to pick me up at sch. well. wat can i say. her driving is not bad, but i'm better. hahaha... :P so v were chatting all the way. took a turn around jusco n finally settled down at Starbucks. v sat n chat, n chat, n chat till i finally gave in to my stomach's demands. took another turn, n settled at Hongkie Kopitiam for food. ate n drank, n chat even more. we chatted for almost 5 hours straight.... i tell u, tat girl can really talk the hind legs off the donkey. our topics varied, from ex-bf to family, from work to studies, from problems to solutions. n whole lots of nonsense thrown in. haha. nice spending time with her. a good friend indeed.

Talking bout SP. been avoiding her for the past 7, 8 months or so. y? cz i made a promise to myself, not to contact her till i've succeeded in forgetting her. forgetting as in, let go. it's hard to let go, n i never thought i could do it. meeting her again today, makes me realize that i truly missed her, as a friend.

quote

"... So romantic la, ppl sleep on ur shoulder. Haha! confirm u fell for ppl dy la!"

Er.. got such thing de ma? can liddat say de meh? so wat if ppl slept on my shoulder?

i wonder...............

Tuesday with..... Me

Yesterday was Monday. Yesterday was the last day of exams for most of my friends. Yesterday i parted on bad(sad?) terms with Michelle.

Went for movies yesterday with Mel, Cass and Win. We watched 'Stardust'. It's a cool picture. Recommended to be watched with an open mind, and let romance fill the air. Best to be watched with someone dear. Haha. it was a nice show, with just enough amounts of magic and suspense and all the elements of a potentially good romantic show. after the show, we went for dinner, and later went back home. surprisingly, i wasn't bored at home. perhaps it was coz i was on the phone ba! haha... with Michelle, Taryn and Huiping.

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Today. Today i went out with Taryn, Mel, Cass n Win. Made a pact to meet up with Huiping at Pavilion today. She was early, while I was about an hour off my estimation. So sorry, Ping!!Neways. Met up at Pavilion, the Esprit shop there. We walked around for a bit, then decided to try our luck with the cinemas. Turned out there were no movies we could decide on as a group, so that part of the plan was cancelled. Sat down to lunch at Uncle Lim's. The food was only edible, but the company was great. We continue walking around in Time's Square, where we went to the Sony centre, Digi, Borders, Nichii and some other shops.

While we in Borders, Mel was looking through a book, while, Taryn, Cass n Win were sitting down, taking a break and chatting. Ping n I were sitting on the bench, looking at some maps. We decided to go back early as we, she was kinda tired. So we said goodbye to the others at the Monorail station and made our way back home.

In the LRT, we managed to find seats and sat down. Tat poor thing was so tired, she dosed off, lying on my shoulder. Sweet! It felt... right. Haha. Too bad we were almost reaching our station already. So we got off the train and waited for her mom to turn up. Instead, her dad came after sometime, as he was busy at the shop. So I went to her house and had dinner with her. A simple meal, and then we're off to check out some phones.

Later on, we went for mamak at Steven's, near the Jln Genting Klang. We sat and ate and drank till almost 10. When we were making our way back, her mom called to find out where she was, and my grandpa msg-ed when we were at the guardhse of the flat. Haha. All in all, spent almost 8, 9 hours with her, which is enjoyable, really. Haha. My friends are goin to take my head off for this, but, truly, spending time with her made my day. Haha. :P To be real honest here, we're just friends, but acting more like friends? =.="

breakfast

today. i became a chef.
today. i burned the bacon,
burned the sausages,
burned the baked beans,
burned the eggs.

joking. hahaha.... prepared breakfast for mom n her friend with some help, albeitly unneccessary, from dad. afer a nice, filling meal, rested for 2 hours or so, and went to bed. stupid drilling going on somewhere, make me unable to sleep at all. almost. den after i woke up n ate lunch, went grocery shopping with mom. shortly after we entered the hypermart, it poured cats and dogs. phew! den came back and ate maggi, cz hungry, den nap again. :P

neways, to end this post. i enjoy flirting with HP.

n mkt.

Wah!! it feels good to finish exams! gosh! tell you, it's been ages since i last updated. dont hate me for that ok? hate exams! i mean it, stupid exams. make me study like shit, den come out those questions oso like cant answer. answer oso dunno correct or wrong. dammit. haha.

neways. dun wan to blog about stupid exams. think of it oso cant sleep, n i wanna sleep tonight. din sleep well for the past god-knows how many days.

so yeah. after exams. hmm. somehow, dun really feel the euphoria that should accompany it. maybe i'm weird? or just too tired to really bother? or perhaps it's 'cause all my frenz, n i mean, ALL, only finish on the 5th. so basically, yeah i'm the only free one now.

talking about frenz. let me update a bit bit bout yesterday. hmm. went over to grandparent's place, where i was immediately put to 'work'. now i kinda can appreciate the hard work editors put into their job. neways, did some editing for old man, and then sent some attachments for him. called huiping at around, wat, 5 something? den talked for a while, till (paiseh!) my credit ran out. so we agreed to meet up at the nightmarket just outside my grandparents' place, the thursday setapak nightmarket Kang is so into last time. :P

so i was at one end, and she was at the other. then she called, and we decided to meet halfway. well. we must have missed each other cz we ended up on opposite sides again! haha... den after sometime, i met her at 7-11 (which she couldn't find at the beginning), and we took a walk. well... enjoyed talking to her. she's really nice and cool to talk to. we ended up at mamak, had a drink, and was having a nice convo when my cousin decided to bang her drink on the table. sorry laa! i din noe u were there mer......

i tell u, this gal can be quite funny, n scary at times... ahhaha.... get to know her, n u'll know.. haha... kinda looking forward to spending more time with her... regret not taking the intiative to find her more often last sem... :( n now, she might be goin over to aust as exchange student... :( think i'll be having more fun at grandpa's this holidays, knowing i could always ajak her out... ngek ngek ngek... ;)

feelings

Love. All she wanted was to be loved. To be cared for, to be attended to, to be fussed over. Really, that’s all she wants at this stage of her life. She was by no means an attention seeker. But rather, she wants, she craves for a different kind of love, other than friendship love and family love. She wants to wake up in the mornings, looking forward to the rest of the day with a smile, just because there is someone special there, to hold her tight whenever and whatever; someone to comfort her when she’s down, to cheer her in everything, to support her every action. In essence, someone to be there for her, someone she can share just about everything with.

Love. The frustrating thing called love. The one thing lacking in her otherwise perfect life. She was not ugly in any sense, and was ready to conquer the world, bedazzle them with her beauty despite some minor setbacks. And yet, she’s all alone, with no-one to share her success, her failures, her worries, her joy. Sometimes, she can’t help wondering, was it something she did wrong before? Is it God’s test for her? Or is Fate dealing her a harsh hand?

She still remembers the day she met him. They were introduced by a group of friends. It wasn’t love at first sight. They became friends, and soon she realized that her feelings for him had changed. She no longer viewed him as a friend, but someone close to her heart. Her infatuation for him had deepened into a crush for him. However, there is something wrong with the picture. He was treating her like a sister, more than as a potential girlfriend.

He treated her with brotherly love, which is not what she wanted. Knowing it could never be, she decided to nip it in the bud. She refused to let herself fall deeper and deeper. Turning to her best friend, who, unbeknown to her, has strong feelings for her, she tried her best to forget him. Unknowingly, she treated her best friend like she would someone special, never knowing, her confusing actions and acts would drive her best friend crazy, and it would mark start of the downward spiral of their friendship.

Blissfully ignorant, she forced her feelings for him to fade. She would try to avoid him as much as she could. Yet, it seemed as if it was impossible. She would bump into him practically everyday. His face would haunt her for the rest of the day, and deep down, she felt miserable. She controlled her urges to text him every time she’s down, or anytime she has news to share. Soon, her persistence paid off. Her feelings for him gradually changed into that of a brother.

All was well, or so she thought. Deep down within, her subconscious knows, the way she’s behaving around and with her best friend would bring trouble. Already, she suspects her best friend has feelings for her, feelings similar to that she used to carry for him. And yet, through her best friend, she’s loved. The attention, the care, the concern she wished would come from him, she gets from her best friend. And to be honest, she’s enjoying it. She likes the feeling when she can tell her best friend everything and anything, when and wherever. Her best friend would accompany her everywhere, do stuff for her, and basically just go the extra mile for her, and her only.

Yet, there is a price for everything. Her best friend would not be able to take this ambiguity much longer. The confusion, the uncertainty and the knowledge that she will not be able to return said affections is killing, slowly but surely. Unburdening to friends, her best friend was brought to the understanding, that she was not the one. And so, slowly but surely, the closeness she once shared with her best friend, would be worn down by time. Until she decides on what she wants, this outcome is inevitable.

The moral of this piece, is that, when it comes to matters of the heart, don’t play. If ever you suspect your friend likes you, as in more than a friend, either return their affections, or make it clear that friends are all that you’ll ever be. Don’t lead him/her along, just so that you can be loved.

DUN play with my heart!!!

pics pt 4 - finale??

in the morning..
4 out of 5... i think mel took the pic...
er.... looks kinda far... jz after the Spinner
after dinner, definitely... ;)
er... Cloud9 at genting
Ming Ren with Michelle's parents too...
boat ride
after dinner
another after dinner shot

sorry there aint much pics.... will definitely get more soon.... basically, these are what Michelle posted in Friendster and Facebook.. nice-ness!! like the pics alot.... mayb, jz maybe, might post a couple of vids?? hahaha....

pics pt 3

use my phone, camwhore in class.. hahahha
omg! like got no neck liddat... blek! (dun kill me ar!)
wrapping the phone?
'peace' sign pula
japanese fan!
wahlao!
fan on top of phone??? =.="
nth to do...
again... at orange.. :P
i adore this pic!! so nice!!!
look at tat pig!! *grumbles*

pics pt 2

movie at mamak???
yeah... they were shooting a scene there... lasted the whole 5 minutes... LOL
see??
jz in case u were wondering which mamak
the urm, front view??
enjoying the cake
see??
told ya!
i'm hardly wrong
ho ho!! GUILTY!! :p
me n gramps
cousins
nt forgetting this one.. ;)
cakey!!
awww!! so romantic!!!

pics pt1

pig n me
again
and again
see la! supposed to be studying... :P
ho ho! camwhore alright! :P