it's been sometime since i really really updated my blog about everything that's happening in my life... so here goes...
i'm currently in a cold war, with no other den.... you-know-who.... let's just call that person A. so yeah... i suppose i should resolve it ASAP... and i totally intend to.... if not for the emergence of new knowledge... knowledge is power, and this will definitely complicate things.... i suppose, part of the problem arises from my high expectations??
i suppose, there are only a few others who know exactly what happened..... i would say less den 5 outsiders know about it... not likely to disclose to others....
to A:
i wonder, do i really have too high an expectation out of you? is it wrong for me to want to be closer to you? am i imposing my will on you? do i never give u space? i really really want to spend more time with you, but you... you... you know the way the story ends....
i know that u're not mad at me, and i'm not mad at u... but den, i found out certain information which hurt me to the core.... when i 1st hear, my chest constricted.... i felt as if i cant breathe.... it was as if, there was a huge weight on my lungs.... i think u know wat it is, and i'm pretty sure u know who u are...
it is because of this, i cant face u yet... silly, irrational, nonsensical... i know... but that's the truth... that's me....
hopefully, everything turns out alright...
Friday, March 28, 2008
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
tags
LIST OUT THE TOP 5 PRESENTS YOU WISH FOR :
1. CASH
2. All HD's
3. Healthy F&F
4. My crush
5. a complete heart
THE PERSON WHO TAGGED ME IS: darling
YOUR 5 IMPRESSIONS OF HIM/HER:
whackiest friend of mine. can talk to her bout anything. best sifu i could ever wish for. can be random at most times, but funny like hell too. always saying no money, but can go clubbing n drinking.
MOST MEMORABLE THINGS HE/SHE HAS GIVE/DONE FOR YOU:
found out for me about XXX.. thanks darling!
THE MOST MEMORABLE WORDS HE/SHE SAID TO YOU
darling.. luv u!
IF HE/SHE BECOMES YOUR LOVER, YOU WILL
er... hugs n kisses!! lots of PDA... :P hhahahaha
IF HE/SHE BECOMES YOUR ENEMY, THE REASON WILL BE
she fucked up my life so badly
PASS THE QUIZ TO 5 PEOPLE THAT YOU WISH TO KNOW HOW THEY FEEL ABOUT YOU:
1. Jein
2. Darling
3. Shan
4. KeeKuen
5. YuHe
1. WHO IS NO.3 HAVING RELATIONSHIP WITH?
currently single
2. WHO IS NO.5 HAVING RELATIONSHIP WITH?
er.. oso single
3. IF NO.3 AND NO.2 ARE TOGETHER, WILL IT BE A GOOD THING?
AHAHAHA!! no comments!! ahahaha... but... NO!! definitely a no-no
4. WHAT ABOUT NO.4 AND NO.5?
both are hetero's
5. WHAT IS NO.3 STUDYING?
er... business, if i'm not mistaken
6. WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOU CHATTED WITH NO.5?
weeks ago... had an arguement... nt resolved yet
7. DOES NO.4 WORK?
Nope
8. DO YOU HAVE ANY COUSIN IN HIS/HER OWN SCHOOL?
nope
9. WILL U BE WITH NO.1?
omg! no! she's straight
10. HOW ABOUT NO.5?
if i had the ability to change her mind, i'll seriously consider
11. DOES NO.2 HAVE ANY SIBLINGS?
Nop. only child
12. HOW DID U GET TO KNOW ABOUT NO.2 AND NO.4?
darling n keekuen: darling was my SAM classmate..(she rocks!) n keekuen was my LP committee way back during high school... (now i call her jie)
13. WHERE DOES NO.1 LIVE AT?
hometown: Melaka. Currently staying in hostel
14. HOW DID U GET TO KNOW NO.2?
Taylor's college.
15. IS NO.5 THE SEXIEST PERSON IN THE WORLD?
urm... no comment?? hahaha
1. CASH
2. All HD's
3. Healthy F&F
4. My crush
5. a complete heart
THE PERSON WHO TAGGED ME IS: darling
YOUR 5 IMPRESSIONS OF HIM/HER:
whackiest friend of mine. can talk to her bout anything. best sifu i could ever wish for. can be random at most times, but funny like hell too. always saying no money, but can go clubbing n drinking.
MOST MEMORABLE THINGS HE/SHE HAS GIVE/DONE FOR YOU:
found out for me about XXX.. thanks darling!
THE MOST MEMORABLE WORDS HE/SHE SAID TO YOU
darling.. luv u!
IF HE/SHE BECOMES YOUR LOVER, YOU WILL
er... hugs n kisses!! lots of PDA... :P hhahahaha
IF HE/SHE BECOMES YOUR ENEMY, THE REASON WILL BE
she fucked up my life so badly
PASS THE QUIZ TO 5 PEOPLE THAT YOU WISH TO KNOW HOW THEY FEEL ABOUT YOU:
1. Jein
2. Darling
3. Shan
4. KeeKuen
5. YuHe
1. WHO IS NO.3 HAVING RELATIONSHIP WITH?
currently single
2. WHO IS NO.5 HAVING RELATIONSHIP WITH?
er.. oso single
3. IF NO.3 AND NO.2 ARE TOGETHER, WILL IT BE A GOOD THING?
AHAHAHA!! no comments!! ahahaha... but... NO!! definitely a no-no
4. WHAT ABOUT NO.4 AND NO.5?
both are hetero's
5. WHAT IS NO.3 STUDYING?
er... business, if i'm not mistaken
6. WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOU CHATTED WITH NO.5?
weeks ago... had an arguement... nt resolved yet
7. DOES NO.4 WORK?
Nope
8. DO YOU HAVE ANY COUSIN IN HIS/HER OWN SCHOOL?
nope
9. WILL U BE WITH NO.1?
omg! no! she's straight
10. HOW ABOUT NO.5?
if i had the ability to change her mind, i'll seriously consider
11. DOES NO.2 HAVE ANY SIBLINGS?
Nop. only child
12. HOW DID U GET TO KNOW ABOUT NO.2 AND NO.4?
darling n keekuen: darling was my SAM classmate..(she rocks!) n keekuen was my LP committee way back during high school... (now i call her jie)
13. WHERE DOES NO.1 LIVE AT?
hometown: Melaka. Currently staying in hostel
14. HOW DID U GET TO KNOW NO.2?
Taylor's college.
15. IS NO.5 THE SEXIEST PERSON IN THE WORLD?
urm... no comment?? hahaha
Sunday, March 23, 2008
late late..!! me bad!!
Lao de n xiao de came back on friday. gosh! miss them so much!! neways, lao de couldn't join us for dinner, so oni me, jein, mel, esther and xiao de went to 1U... since esther lost her bet regarding her SPM straight A's result, she treated us to dinner. of course, this happened only after we almost toured the whole 1U mall, new wing n old wing..... ended up at Fish & Co, and the food there was awesome!!
in the midst of dinner, lao de msged jein... and so we quickly finished dinner, den hurried back to sunway to pick her up... :) we went to the side gate, n bumped into DaJie... den lao de came out with jiyen.... we went out for movie, 'Spiderwick Chronicles'.... den den den... since the movie started at 11.55 pm... we went to the arcade 1st... met jiyen's fren... gosh!! so yeng la weii!!! totally dig wat the fella wore... yeng yeng yeng! pity i dont do caps... it's like, so wow!
oh ya! talking bout the arcade.... mel n jiyen went dancing.... not bad!! den the movie... ok.. i have to apologize here, cz i was like, yawning quite frequently during the show... but seriously... it was a good show.. one of the more memorable quotes of the show was:
'what happens if he does??'
'what happens??! i'll tell you what happens... i die, you die, we all die.. byebye!!!'
ahaha... nice rite, the way tat fella put it.... haha... den after tat, we decided to go back, as it was pretty late, and lao de n xiao de got convocation the nx day... by the time i actually went back home, it was like, 2 am... wanted to go sleep immediately, den that erica opened her door, so ended up chatting for awhile, till almost 3 am...
went to the Kelana Jaya with her at around 7. 40 am den she went on to 1U, den we parted ways there....
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
BSB
I know, you are
Not what you seem to be.
Consoling myself, with what might
Or might not be.
Nevertheless, you
Still managed to hit me with
One blow, one
Lasting blow, straight to the pits of my heart.
Alcohol enables me to
Believe that, to prevent any
Long-lasting effects, I can face the harsh reality
Eventually: that of your rejection
Not what you seem to be.
Consoling myself, with what might
Or might not be.
Nevertheless, you
Still managed to hit me with
One blow, one
Lasting blow, straight to the pits of my heart.
Alcohol enables me to
Believe that, to prevent any
Long-lasting effects, I can face the harsh reality
Eventually: that of your rejection
Friday, March 14, 2008
belated
went over to jein's place yesterday and the day before. for a variety of reasons, we had fun. of course, it mainly involved Mich (xiao de). she really never learns... by kindly insulting (sorta), she invoke our desire to tickle her. muahahaha!! we even managed to take numerous vids of her. will upload one day... one fine day... :)
neways, yesterday, we kinda gave xiao de a farewell party... a mini one tho... but it was nice.... took numerous pics and some vids.... might post it up later.... :)
neways, yesterday, we kinda gave xiao de a farewell party... a mini one tho... but it was nice.... took numerous pics and some vids.... might post it up later.... :)
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Ass Tee Pee Am
ok... me not going for the EYLN anymore... :( due to certain complications...
and today was the results of the STPM.... and i wanna announce here, that i'm proud of muh frenz! mabel's results was cool, n yuhe's was fantastic... for a person taking 5 subs, she did pretty well... so goddamn proud of her... *grins from ear to ear*
she actually called me to tell me her results... i was at the Monash Accounting Day with mel n we met some other frenz... so mel n mich were at Ernest&Young, asking questions, when i felt the phone vibrating... saw her pic n quickly picked up.... it was so good to actually hear from her... miss her like crazy now....
but yeah, the ACD.... it was cool... i mean, talking to those ppl there, especially Jennifer from PWC... she's cool.... den i met up with ChengWai oso... n v went to check out the booths again, n went for a talk....
talking bout ChengWai... she's a 3rd year student, and she's cool.... really enjoy talking to her... she's interesting... not hot, but great personality.... :)
and today was the results of the STPM.... and i wanna announce here, that i'm proud of muh frenz! mabel's results was cool, n yuhe's was fantastic... for a person taking 5 subs, she did pretty well... so goddamn proud of her... *grins from ear to ear*
she actually called me to tell me her results... i was at the Monash Accounting Day with mel n we met some other frenz... so mel n mich were at Ernest&Young, asking questions, when i felt the phone vibrating... saw her pic n quickly picked up.... it was so good to actually hear from her... miss her like crazy now....
but yeah, the ACD.... it was cool... i mean, talking to those ppl there, especially Jennifer from PWC... she's cool.... den i met up with ChengWai oso... n v went to check out the booths again, n went for a talk....
talking bout ChengWai... she's a 3rd year student, and she's cool.... really enjoy talking to her... she's interesting... not hot, but great personality.... :)
Saturday, March 08, 2008
cake+water=celebrations
eye bags, and more eye bags. wont be sleeping early last night, or now, or tmr... sigh...
still...
last night was memorable.... (pssst! told you tis year is goin to be one of the best ya?) u see, jein n xiao de n esther came over last night, n celebrated me n mel's belated bday... very berry belated.... hahaha...
they wanted to smash the cakes directly into our faces.. but as all plans go, it nvr works out the way we want it to... it started prematurely, and the end results was: cake all over the floor, the walls, and the beds... oh ya! and the bathroom, and kitchen too! hahaha...
then there was the water fight/war... which ended up with all 5 of us soaking wet... well, at least the others were... only my back was wet... the others?? top to bottom! ;)
then there was the presents... mel got a nice hoodie, n me?? me got THAT t-shirt... the coolest ever! gosh! i still cant believe it!! :) i'll post the pics up... someday... :P and the card... wow... i really love it! seriously... words dont do last night any justice.... it's better if i told u the story myself... ;)
a big thank you to : monkie, lil one, old one, jiyen, mel n su woan... and thanks to esther too, for coming along... :)
still...
last night was memorable.... (pssst! told you tis year is goin to be one of the best ya?) u see, jein n xiao de n esther came over last night, n celebrated me n mel's belated bday... very berry belated.... hahaha...
they wanted to smash the cakes directly into our faces.. but as all plans go, it nvr works out the way we want it to... it started prematurely, and the end results was: cake all over the floor, the walls, and the beds... oh ya! and the bathroom, and kitchen too! hahaha...
then there was the water fight/war... which ended up with all 5 of us soaking wet... well, at least the others were... only my back was wet... the others?? top to bottom! ;)
then there was the presents... mel got a nice hoodie, n me?? me got THAT t-shirt... the coolest ever! gosh! i still cant believe it!! :) i'll post the pics up... someday... :P and the card... wow... i really love it! seriously... words dont do last night any justice.... it's better if i told u the story myself... ;)
a big thank you to : monkie, lil one, old one, jiyen, mel n su woan... and thanks to esther too, for coming along... :)
Thursday, March 06, 2008
farewell
wow! so much has happened in the past few days... i dont really know where or how to begin...
one thing i would like to share is about Michelle Yap's farewell.
u see, that ding dong is leaving soon. she's goin to work for an accounting firm in KL, and god am i gonna miss her. you see, ding dong is xiao de... the lil one among all of us... despite all those names, i'm really gonna miss her... her sacarsm, her attitude... basically just her. and i'm not the only one to feel tat way.
neways. we went out last night, and it was kinda bittersweet (for me). we had dinner at pyramid, and den went over to subang to look for Jill... we pooled abit b4 leaving.
a couple of highlights of the week:
'mel! y u blushing??!'
'NO la!!! is the steam!! making my face red!'
'xiao de, y the steam is not making UR face red de??'
'cz my face too thick edi.'
'eh, mel, u still owe me money rite?'
'no la, v paid u edi...'
'ya meh? but i rmb, that time u din have enuf to pay me ler...'
'ya la... confirm, i paid u edi...'
'aiya! watever la! i dun wan to torture my mind la!'
(this comment prompted jein to spit out her drink in immediate respond)
'laura, will u miss me when i go over?'
'yes...'
'will u cry?'
'yes....'
'will u send me off?'
'yes....' 'wait... when??'
'hmm, term starts on 1st july, so i'll leave on 30 june lor.'
'ok.. wat time?'
'er... i book ticket 1st den tell u...'
(very sweat lor!)
(btw, jie is leaving for aust soon... :( i'm so gonna miss her... and for the record, i'm not only gonna miss ganli, i DO miss, and still am missing: dear kangkang n HP)
one thing i would like to share is about Michelle Yap's farewell.
u see, that ding dong is leaving soon. she's goin to work for an accounting firm in KL, and god am i gonna miss her. you see, ding dong is xiao de... the lil one among all of us... despite all those names, i'm really gonna miss her... her sacarsm, her attitude... basically just her. and i'm not the only one to feel tat way.
neways. we went out last night, and it was kinda bittersweet (for me). we had dinner at pyramid, and den went over to subang to look for Jill... we pooled abit b4 leaving.
a couple of highlights of the week:
'mel! y u blushing??!'
'NO la!!! is the steam!! making my face red!'
'xiao de, y the steam is not making UR face red de??'
'cz my face too thick edi.'
'eh, mel, u still owe me money rite?'
'no la, v paid u edi...'
'ya meh? but i rmb, that time u din have enuf to pay me ler...'
'ya la... confirm, i paid u edi...'
'aiya! watever la! i dun wan to torture my mind la!'
(this comment prompted jein to spit out her drink in immediate respond)
'laura, will u miss me when i go over?'
'yes...'
'will u cry?'
'yes....'
'will u send me off?'
'yes....' 'wait... when??'
'hmm, term starts on 1st july, so i'll leave on 30 june lor.'
'ok.. wat time?'
'er... i book ticket 1st den tell u...'
(very sweat lor!)
(btw, jie is leaving for aust soon... :( i'm so gonna miss her... and for the record, i'm not only gonna miss ganli, i DO miss, and still am missing: dear kangkang n HP)