So we got back together, and her flight is in a couple of hours. I wish she could just appear in front of me. I miss her like crazy.
I kinda got into a real fight with my mom today. Over what? Over this whole, online friends coming for a visit. Sigh. If this is a taste of what things will be like in the far future, I shudder in fear.
I stood up for her, for us, because I believe. And I will stand up for her, time after time. Perhaps, mom will start suspecting something, but I don't really care. I have an urge to just tell her, that Tasha's my girl.
I don't know. I don't know how long I can take it, before I blurt out the truth.
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Saturday, January 24, 2009
shattered
We broke up. Sad to say, but yes, my true love cheated on me, and I ended up with a broken heart.
I'm sorry, for not listening to all your advice. But this is something I had to go through, to see for myself.
I'm sorry too, I hurt this bad. But. I was happy during those days. And nothing you can say, will change my mind. At least, I was happy.
So please. Don't criticize her in front of me. Don't talk bad about her. Just let her be. Let my heart heal at its own pace. Bring me out to drink.
I'm sorry, for not listening to all your advice. But this is something I had to go through, to see for myself.
I'm sorry too, I hurt this bad. But. I was happy during those days. And nothing you can say, will change my mind. At least, I was happy.
So please. Don't criticize her in front of me. Don't talk bad about her. Just let her be. Let my heart heal at its own pace. Bring me out to drink.
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
=(
I have no idea what's wrong with me. Correction. YOU have no idea what this is doing to me. I am cranky, irritable, and short tempered. I snap at everybody and everything. I am pissed off at every little single thing. I wonder, are u feeling the same way? I wonder, can you sleep well at night?
There are so many questions I want to ask you: Are you alright? How was your day? Did the boy give you much trouble? Do you hurt anywhere? Do you miss me? What are you doing? There are so many things I want to tell you: I went out with my cousins the other day. I miss you terribly. I cant sleep without you. Lessons were dull. My heart is throbbing.
I know why your phone bill is still unsettled. I wish, you could do it soon. I dont know, how long I can go without getting any news from you. My days get a little longer, as my fuse gets a little shorter. I dont know, how I get through each day without talking to you. I dont know, if you miss me as badly as I miss you.
I miss you baby.... I miss you so very very much....
There are so many questions I want to ask you: Are you alright? How was your day? Did the boy give you much trouble? Do you hurt anywhere? Do you miss me? What are you doing? There are so many things I want to tell you: I went out with my cousins the other day. I miss you terribly. I cant sleep without you. Lessons were dull. My heart is throbbing.
I know why your phone bill is still unsettled. I wish, you could do it soon. I dont know, how long I can go without getting any news from you. My days get a little longer, as my fuse gets a little shorter. I dont know, how I get through each day without talking to you. I dont know, if you miss me as badly as I miss you.
I miss you baby.... I miss you so very very much....
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
=(
Man! I can't believe I got ticked off for being on the phone for an hour with my old pal. And it wasn't even my parents who did it, but my aunt! Grrrr! Still mad when I think about it. I feel so... wronged.
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Nightmare
her: I had a nightmare.
me: What is it?
her: I dreamt that I was getting married to a guy.
me: Huh?!
her: Yeah... This is the 1st time I ever had a nightmare like that before.
me: Wow... At least, tell me he was cute.
her: Erm... I couldn't see his face
me: Okay... Was he tall?
her: Erm... I guess you could say that...
me: Wow... So, I guess you really want to get married that bad, huh
her: I guess so...
me: Okay... Let's get married next year!
her: Huh?! No!
me: Why not?
her: That's like, around the corner.
me: Hmmm... Yeah!
her: But we're hardly going to see each other... What kind of marriage is this?
me: Erm... You could always... exchange to come over and study
her: Baby...
me: Baby...
her: ...
me: Baby... I was only joking
her: THANK YOU!
me: Hahahaha... You totally fell for that, didn't you?
her: Only for a minute...! Hahaha...
(That idiot of mine... Can't believe she fell for it that easily... LOL! Sure wish I could see her face when she found out I was just pulling her leg.)
me: What is it?
her: I dreamt that I was getting married to a guy.
me: Huh?!
her: Yeah... This is the 1st time I ever had a nightmare like that before.
me: Wow... At least, tell me he was cute.
her: Erm... I couldn't see his face
me: Okay... Was he tall?
her: Erm... I guess you could say that...
me: Wow... So, I guess you really want to get married that bad, huh
her: I guess so...
me: Okay... Let's get married next year!
her: Huh?! No!
me: Why not?
her: That's like, around the corner.
me: Hmmm... Yeah!
her: But we're hardly going to see each other... What kind of marriage is this?
me: Erm... You could always... exchange to come over and study
her: Baby...
me: Baby...
her: ...
me: Baby... I was only joking
her: THANK YOU!
me: Hahahaha... You totally fell for that, didn't you?
her: Only for a minute...! Hahaha...
(That idiot of mine... Can't believe she fell for it that easily... LOL! Sure wish I could see her face when she found out I was just pulling her leg.)
Sunday, December 14, 2008
My Chemical Romance - Disenchanted
Well I was there on the day
They sold the cars for the queen,
And when the lights all went out
We watched our lives on the screen.
I hate the ending myself,
But it started with an alright scene.
It was the roar of the crowd
That gave me heartache to sing.
It was a lie when they smiled
And said, "you won't feel a thing"
And as we ran from the cops
We laughed so hard it would sting
Yeah yeah, oh
If I'm so wrong (so wrong, so wrong)
How can you listen all night long? (night long, night long)
Now will it matter after I'm gone?
Because you never learn a goddamned thing.
You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a lifelong wait for a hospital stay
Well if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya
I spent my high school career
Spit on and shoved to agree
So I can watch all my heroes
Sell a car on tv
Bring out the old guillotine
We'll show them what we all mean.
Yeah yeah, oh
If I'm so wrong (so wrong, so wrong)
How can you listen all night long? (night long, night long)
Now will it matter long after I'm gone?
Because you never learn a goddamned thing.
You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a lifelong wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya
So go, go away, just go, run away.
But where did you run to? And where did you hide?
Go find another way, price you pay
Woah, woah, woah
Woah, woah, woah
You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a lifelong wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya, come on
You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a lifelong wait for a hospital stay
Well if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya
At all, at all, at all, at all...
Well I was there on the day
They sold the cars for the queen,
And when the lights all went out
We watched our lives on the screen.
I hate the ending myself,
But it started with an alright scene.
It was the roar of the crowd
That gave me heartache to sing.
It was a lie when they smiled
And said, "you won't feel a thing"
And as we ran from the cops
We laughed so hard it would sting
Yeah yeah, oh
If I'm so wrong (so wrong, so wrong)
How can you listen all night long? (night long, night long)
Now will it matter after I'm gone?
Because you never learn a goddamned thing.
You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a lifelong wait for a hospital stay
Well if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya
I spent my high school career
Spit on and shoved to agree
So I can watch all my heroes
Sell a car on tv
Bring out the old guillotine
We'll show them what we all mean.
Yeah yeah, oh
If I'm so wrong (so wrong, so wrong)
How can you listen all night long? (night long, night long)
Now will it matter long after I'm gone?
Because you never learn a goddamned thing.
You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a lifelong wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya
So go, go away, just go, run away.
But where did you run to? And where did you hide?
Go find another way, price you pay
Woah, woah, woah
Woah, woah, woah
You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a lifelong wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya, come on
You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a lifelong wait for a hospital stay
Well if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya
At all, at all, at all, at all...
Tuesday, December 09, 2008
Saturday, December 06, 2008
4th Dec
Dinner
Lunch
Granny's bday was on Thursday, and since Aunty Monica was around, we went for lunch at this Crystal Jade restaurant. Wanted to have dim sum, so was kinda disappointed that the selection there was so limited. But lunch wasn't too bad afterall. Pretty enjoyable. Dinner, on the other hand, was fab! We went to the Unique Seafood Restaurant, the same place we went last year for Grandpa's bday. Between the 8 of us, we had: longevity noodles, oysters, kailan, German knuckles, fish, beans, and ostrich meat. We even had room for supper... much later on.
The whole time Aunty Monica was here, we had mahjong sessions. The routine would be: wake up, eat, go out, eat, come back, mahjong, dinner, mahjong, sleep. It was a pretty enjoyable break. The whole mahjong thing was cool. I have no idea, why, when I saw Aunty Monica, I had the urge to play mahjong. Never felt that urge for a long long time already. Makes me think back on the times when YiPoh (grand aunty) would come over, and we would literally spend our time cooped up inside the house to play mahjong. I still remember, we would have 3 rounds per day, and everybody would play till around 1, 2 am b4 hitting the pillows.
And let us not forget the times b4 Aunty Monica and family migrated to kangaroo land. They would come over every year, and during the later years, they would stay at SuiteStay, those service apartments. Nice and comfy, we would all gather at their place b4 deciding what to do. KLCC is just behind her place, and we could literally reach that mall in 10 minutes. Mostly, there'll be 2 groups: shopping and mahjong. I miss playing with Uncle Cyril. It's been ages since we last sat down to play together. Ah.... Mahjong sure brings back lots of fond memories.
But I digress. This year, Granny didn't blow out any candles or ate any birthday cake. This year, Aunty Julie couldn't make it back. But this year, all of us had a blast, and it's pretty obvious that Granny loved every minute of it as well.
(Oh btw! I recall Anne asking me to post some pics of myself. So Anne. Satisfied? hahahaha)
Lunch
Granny's bday was on Thursday, and since Aunty Monica was around, we went for lunch at this Crystal Jade restaurant. Wanted to have dim sum, so was kinda disappointed that the selection there was so limited. But lunch wasn't too bad afterall. Pretty enjoyable. Dinner, on the other hand, was fab! We went to the Unique Seafood Restaurant, the same place we went last year for Grandpa's bday. Between the 8 of us, we had: longevity noodles, oysters, kailan, German knuckles, fish, beans, and ostrich meat. We even had room for supper... much later on.
The whole time Aunty Monica was here, we had mahjong sessions. The routine would be: wake up, eat, go out, eat, come back, mahjong, dinner, mahjong, sleep. It was a pretty enjoyable break. The whole mahjong thing was cool. I have no idea, why, when I saw Aunty Monica, I had the urge to play mahjong. Never felt that urge for a long long time already. Makes me think back on the times when YiPoh (grand aunty) would come over, and we would literally spend our time cooped up inside the house to play mahjong. I still remember, we would have 3 rounds per day, and everybody would play till around 1, 2 am b4 hitting the pillows.
And let us not forget the times b4 Aunty Monica and family migrated to kangaroo land. They would come over every year, and during the later years, they would stay at SuiteStay, those service apartments. Nice and comfy, we would all gather at their place b4 deciding what to do. KLCC is just behind her place, and we could literally reach that mall in 10 minutes. Mostly, there'll be 2 groups: shopping and mahjong. I miss playing with Uncle Cyril. It's been ages since we last sat down to play together. Ah.... Mahjong sure brings back lots of fond memories.
But I digress. This year, Granny didn't blow out any candles or ate any birthday cake. This year, Aunty Julie couldn't make it back. But this year, all of us had a blast, and it's pretty obvious that Granny loved every minute of it as well.
(Oh btw! I recall Anne asking me to post some pics of myself. So Anne. Satisfied? hahahaha)
Monday, December 01, 2008
Friday, November 21, 2008
Avril Lavigne - Hot
You're so good to me Baby Baby
I want to lock you up in my closet, where no one's around
I want to put your hand in my pocket, because your allowed
I want to drive you into a corner, and kiss you without a sound
I want to stay this way forever, I'll say it loud
Now you in and you can't get out
You make me so hot
Make me wanna drop
You're so ridiculous
I can barely stop
I can hardly breathe
You make me wanna scream
You're so fabulous
You're so good to me Baby Baby
You're so good to me Baby Baby
I can make you feel all better, just take it in
And I can show you all the places, you've never been
And I can make you say everything, that you never said
And I will let you do anything, again and again
Now you're in and you can't get out
You make me so hot
Make me wanna drop
You're so ridiculous
I can barely stop
I can hardly breathe
You make me wanna scream
You're so fabulous
You're so good to me Baby Baby
You're so good to me Baby Baby
Kiss me gently
Always I know
Hold me love me
Don't ever go
You make me so hot
Make me wanna drop
You're so ridiculous
I can barely breathe
You make me wanna scream
You're so fabulous
You're so good to me
You make me so hot
Make me wanna drop
You're so ridiculous
I can barely stop
I can hardly breathe
You make me wanna scream
You're so fabulous
You're so good to me Baby Baby
You're so good to me Baby Baby
You're so good
You're so good to me Baby Baby
I want to lock you up in my closet, where no one's around
I want to put your hand in my pocket, because your allowed
I want to drive you into a corner, and kiss you without a sound
I want to stay this way forever, I'll say it loud
Now you in and you can't get out
You make me so hot
Make me wanna drop
You're so ridiculous
I can barely stop
I can hardly breathe
You make me wanna scream
You're so fabulous
You're so good to me Baby Baby
You're so good to me Baby Baby
I can make you feel all better, just take it in
And I can show you all the places, you've never been
And I can make you say everything, that you never said
And I will let you do anything, again and again
Now you're in and you can't get out
You make me so hot
Make me wanna drop
You're so ridiculous
I can barely stop
I can hardly breathe
You make me wanna scream
You're so fabulous
You're so good to me Baby Baby
You're so good to me Baby Baby
Kiss me gently
Always I know
Hold me love me
Don't ever go
You make me so hot
Make me wanna drop
You're so ridiculous
I can barely breathe
You make me wanna scream
You're so fabulous
You're so good to me
You make me so hot
Make me wanna drop
You're so ridiculous
I can barely stop
I can hardly breathe
You make me wanna scream
You're so fabulous
You're so good to me Baby Baby
You're so good to me Baby Baby
You're so good
