Monday, July 12, 2010
*faints*
I'm starting to think that I really have worms in my stomach. To think that I just had lunch not too long ago. Well, ok. More like, 3 hours ago. Still. This sucks big time. I'm HUNGRY! Damn.
Need You Now - Lady Antebellum
Need You Now Lyrics - Lady Antebellum
Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor.
Reaching for the phone 'cuz I can't fight it anymore.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind?
For me it happens all the time.
It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without.
I just need you now.
Another shot of whiskey, can't stopping looking at the door.
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind?
For me it happens all the time.
It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now.
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without.
I just need you now.
Oh whoa
Yes I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all.
It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk
and I need you now.
Well I don't know how I can do without.
I just need you now
I just need you now.
Oh baby I need you now.
Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor.
Reaching for the phone 'cuz I can't fight it anymore.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind?
For me it happens all the time.
It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without.
I just need you now.
Another shot of whiskey, can't stopping looking at the door.
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind?
For me it happens all the time.
It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now.
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without.
I just need you now.
Oh whoa
Yes I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all.
It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk
and I need you now.
Well I don't know how I can do without.
I just need you now
I just need you now.
Oh baby I need you now.
Week 2
Week 2. It's still oh so boring. Meh. I have no idea how to spend my time in the office. I wonder if it's possible I continue writing during office hours. I'm being reduced to doing all my e-learnings now, while waiting for work to do. I can't believe I'm saying this, but I actually WANT work. Wth you're asking? Yeah. It's totally wth. Gah. Boredom settles in.
Thursday, July 08, 2010
Updates!
Ok. So I realized that it's been quite a while since I last posted. April 11 till now, that's like, what, 3 months or so? It's no excuse, but I plead finals, World Cup, Thomas Cup, and whatnot as reasonable distraction. But hey, it really doesn't matter, 'cause this blog aint dead after all. I mean, I'm here now, blogging aint I?
So anyway. Thomas Cup is over, with China winning the Thomas and losing the Uber. That's old news. Right. Carry on. The World Cup 2010 is here, and Finals is but a few days away. The finalists? Netherlands vs Spain. Epic, aint it? The so called top teams, like, Brazil, France, Italy all crashed even before the semis. They say that this World Cup 2010 is the world cup of upsets, and I so have to agree.
Anyway. Here I am, on an awesome Thursday morning, at freaking 8.56am, blogging. Reason being not that I've insommia, but rather 'cause I'm at work. Yeah. You heard me. WORK. Geez. I kinda regret telling my manager that I'm free from 1st July onwards. I haven't even had a break yet! *sadface* And! My other friends are still at home, enjoying themselves, pigging it out, hanging out with friends, watching world cup and whatnot. I missed that Germany vs Spain match this morning. An EPIC. And I missed it! *SIGH*
So yeah. Work. A freshie over here, I couldn't even log on to the computer without needing someone to help me, till late yesterday evening. See? That's why I'm blogging right now. Apparently there's supposed to be this, training/meeting thingy that starts at 9, but, looking around, there aint that many people around, so yeah, some free time to kill.
Work is alright, I guess? Was just stoning around at the office for the past few days, since my seniors/colleagues are all busy busy busy, and they don't really have the time to teach me, except when they have a short break. So basically, I'm just sitting there watching them work, den they'll explain a lil here and there. They're kinda nice, I guess? Well, those that I interacted with. The rest, idk yet. Takes time I guess? I hate that I need time to take up the initiative to talk to people, shy? reserve? cowardice? whatever you want to call it.
I could go on and on and on about work, but I really rather not, especially since I'm @ work. So onward to my personal life. Speaking of which, I realised that I actually missed typing. Idk how my mind works. I'm just weird that way.
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2 hours later and this post isn't even ready to be published. Reason being that I just got out of that... thingy. So basically. Now I'm freezing and I'm plain bored, and I'm resorting to blogging as my only entertainment, seeing that they blocked basically all my entertainment sites, from Facebook to Twitter to even fanfics, and let's not even talk about MSN or even Ebuddy. Blocked blocked blocked blocked blocked. Lucky my phone didn't get blocked. Anyway. Think it's pretty much an update on most of my life at the moment. I'm off to 'study' once more! Toodles darlins!
(Damn. I sound a lil........(idk... bimbotic? gay?)
So anyway. Thomas Cup is over, with China winning the Thomas and losing the Uber. That's old news. Right. Carry on. The World Cup 2010 is here, and Finals is but a few days away. The finalists? Netherlands vs Spain. Epic, aint it? The so called top teams, like, Brazil, France, Italy all crashed even before the semis. They say that this World Cup 2010 is the world cup of upsets, and I so have to agree.
Anyway. Here I am, on an awesome Thursday morning, at freaking 8.56am, blogging. Reason being not that I've insommia, but rather 'cause I'm at work. Yeah. You heard me. WORK. Geez. I kinda regret telling my manager that I'm free from 1st July onwards. I haven't even had a break yet! *sadface* And! My other friends are still at home, enjoying themselves, pigging it out, hanging out with friends, watching world cup and whatnot. I missed that Germany vs Spain match this morning. An EPIC. And I missed it! *SIGH*
So yeah. Work. A freshie over here, I couldn't even log on to the computer without needing someone to help me, till late yesterday evening. See? That's why I'm blogging right now. Apparently there's supposed to be this, training/meeting thingy that starts at 9, but, looking around, there aint that many people around, so yeah, some free time to kill.
Work is alright, I guess? Was just stoning around at the office for the past few days, since my seniors/colleagues are all busy busy busy, and they don't really have the time to teach me, except when they have a short break. So basically, I'm just sitting there watching them work, den they'll explain a lil here and there. They're kinda nice, I guess? Well, those that I interacted with. The rest, idk yet. Takes time I guess? I hate that I need time to take up the initiative to talk to people, shy? reserve? cowardice? whatever you want to call it.
I could go on and on and on about work, but I really rather not, especially since I'm @ work. So onward to my personal life. Speaking of which, I realised that I actually missed typing. Idk how my mind works. I'm just weird that way.
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2 hours later and this post isn't even ready to be published. Reason being that I just got out of that... thingy. So basically. Now I'm freezing and I'm plain bored, and I'm resorting to blogging as my only entertainment, seeing that they blocked basically all my entertainment sites, from Facebook to Twitter to even fanfics, and let's not even talk about MSN or even Ebuddy. Blocked blocked blocked blocked blocked. Lucky my phone didn't get blocked. Anyway. Think it's pretty much an update on most of my life at the moment. I'm off to 'study' once more! Toodles darlins!
(Damn. I sound a lil........(idk... bimbotic? gay?)
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Gullible
Laura 欲断魂 says (12:34 AM):
facial make u age faster
peng says (12:34 AM):
dun so funny la.
haha
reli a?
y?
facial make u age faster
peng says (12:34 AM):
dun so funny la.
haha
reli a?
y?
She actually believed me! My oh my! Honestly, of all the crap I utter, you just had to believe this? LOL! Thinking about it, brings back fond memories. I remembered a similar incident with Tash. I think, it went something like this.
Laura:
Baby. Stop pouting. You're gonna get more wrinkles this way.
Teresa:
Are you serious?
Laura:
Oh hey Teresa. Erm. No?
Teresa:
Tash just ran into the bathroom and looked into the mirror. She said, omg you guys! I think I can see lines appear on my face already!!
Laura:
LOL! Are you serious?
Teresa:
Yeah... She's whining about it now.
Laura:
I was just joking! ROFL
Either I'm just too convincing when I crap, or these people are just too gullible. Sweet memories though. Really sweet.
Tuesday, April 06, 2010
黑
我并非是个有胆的人。话说到底，我是个蹜头乌龟。我害怕。我害怕矢去。
依然如旧，梦着一个有你，有我，有家庭的未来。现在觉得，那个梦，很有可能，就只是个梦。一个美好，却达不成的梦。也不懂，想念你，是出于心底，或是因习惯成自然；爱你，是因习惯，因害怕，因没勇心，还是因情太深。有可能，你会觉得，我对你，冷淡了。不是刻意要这么对待你，而是想你想到心太疼了，不知要从哪 儿说起。
你走得越远，走得越快，我没能力跟得上。能做的，是尽量追。追不上，唯有期望你会回头望一望，慢下脚步。但，你回头望时，脚步并没慢下，还告诉我说，你走得太远了，回不来，唯有继续往前走。难道，速度是固定的吗？我不懂，也无法了解，你是如何找不到出发点，为何回不来。
依然如旧，梦着一个有你，有我，有家庭的未来。现在觉得，那个梦，很有可能，就只是个梦。一个美好，却达不成的梦。也不懂，想念你，是出于心底，或是因习惯成自然；爱你，是因习惯，因害怕，因没勇心，还是因情太深。有可能，你会觉得，我对你，冷淡了。不是刻意要这么对待你，而是想你想到心太疼了，不知要从哪 儿说起。
你走得越远，走得越快，我没能力跟得上。能做的，是尽量追。追不上，唯有期望你会回头望一望，慢下脚步。但，你回头望时，脚步并没慢下，还告诉我说，你走得太远了，回不来，唯有继续往前走。难道，速度是固定的吗？我不懂，也无法了解，你是如何找不到出发点，为何回不来。
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Heartstrings
When it pours, I seek a umbrella.
When it snows, I seek shelter.
When it's hot, I seek the shade.
When it's cold, I seek a fire.
When I'm lost, I seek directions.
When I'm confused, I seek guidance.
When I'm upset, I seek comfort.
When I'm troubled, I seek assurance.
You are the umbrella,
Covering me from the pouring rain;
The shelter,
Offering me protection.
You're cool and collected,
When things heat up;
The heat and passion,
In a bone-chilling situation.
The path you point out,
Stands out clearly from all others;
Impeccable timing,
You provide the right words at the right time.
An enveloping embrace,
No words are needed;
Kisses and hugs, along with
Small yet not unimportant words, soothes the beast.
Running and running,
My life's story;
From others I flee,
To you I sprint.
3 small, yet significant words,
I would always utter.
Even when we fight,
Even when we hurt.
I've said it once,
I'll say it again.
I love you,
I always will.
When it snows, I seek shelter.
When it's hot, I seek the shade.
When it's cold, I seek a fire.
When I'm lost, I seek directions.
When I'm confused, I seek guidance.
When I'm upset, I seek comfort.
When I'm troubled, I seek assurance.
You are the umbrella,
Covering me from the pouring rain;
The shelter,
Offering me protection.
You're cool and collected,
When things heat up;
The heat and passion,
In a bone-chilling situation.
The path you point out,
Stands out clearly from all others;
Impeccable timing,
You provide the right words at the right time.
An enveloping embrace,
No words are needed;
Kisses and hugs, along with
Small yet not unimportant words, soothes the beast.
Running and running,
My life's story;
From others I flee,
To you I sprint.
3 small, yet significant words,
I would always utter.
Even when we fight,
Even when we hurt.
I've said it once,
I'll say it again.
I love you,
I always will.
Thursday, January 14, 2010
holey
I wonder. Why the hell do I miss you? It's draining, to wake up each morning, with hopes, only to have it dashed. I know, I said I could be satisfied with just hearing from you once a week. And yet, the more I get, the more I want. Whatever attention you give me, I want more. I crave for more. I want your 100% 24/7. Well. Perhaps not 24/7. But you get the idea. And whatever time you can spare me, I want more. I want all your attention on ME.
I sound like a brat, don't I? A selfish brat. But I dont care! I FREAKING WANT YOUR ATTENTION!!! You said... you said many things. And each time you fail to deliver, I die a little on the inside. You... I dont know if you cant see it, or if you just dont want to see it, or if you see it but pretend not to notice it, but that's the truth.
I hurt. I still do. I dont know, if I'm going to carry this hurt, forever. But right now, it's there. Much as I try to ignore it, and I do succeed occasionally, each reminder of you triggers it. I dont know how to plug that hole in my heart, that hole the pain keeps oozing in. I guess, I need you to do that. Even as I'm writing this now, I can feel that pain, that stabbing pain in my heart. As for the tears, let's pretend they dont exist, shall we?
Everyone says, 'Laura, you're a fool.' 'Laura, how is it you're still able to love her after all this?' 'Laura, why do you love her?' 'Laura, she's not for real. Dont waste your time on her, please?' 'Wake up! Face reality!'
And to each of them, I smile and wave them off. I turn around so that nobody sees the pain in my eyes. I plaster a smile to face the whole world, to ward off any nagging or concerned words, and to hide the pain etched deep within. It's so hard, when you're hardly around.
I... cant sleep at nights, unless I wear myself out so bad I'm a walking zombie. I try, to keep myself occupied throughout the day, only to find myself at the computer, with that page open, hoping, just hoping to hear from you. I want nothing more, then to lie within your embrace, and feel you holding me close. And I dont mean virtually, online. I mean, physically.
To the world I might seem strong and steady and not at all needy. But dont you see that's just a front? Of all the people in the world, you're the only one I let fall all my barriers for. To you, and you alone, I let myself go, let myself feel, embrace that emotion I feel in abundance for you. To you, I show my vulnerability, my true colors.
So where are you? What are you up to? Why... Dont I feel assured, secure? I know, one of my many flaws, is that I overdo the thinking, and that I'm paranoid. I realize, it's tiring, to always assure me of your intentions, your affections. But baby, I'm scared. I'm so scared. I dont want to be alone, I'm scared of being alone. I've been alone for most of my life, and I dont like it. And I also realize, I've got a rather low self confidence level. I dont get your attraction to me, and that makes me doubly paranoid. I'm not doubting you, just dont understand what's so awesome about me. I'm just about as average as the other girls.
Baby... I told you before, I need alot of reassurances. And I dont think, my fears will truly be put to rest till the day you're here by my side, and hold me for real. I sound desperate, I know. But... You really are the only one who could help me slay my demons, and your affections is the only elixer that could sustain me. Please baby, reassure me once more. Keep reassuring me. I'm needy... for you. Only you...
I sound like a brat, don't I? A selfish brat. But I dont care! I FREAKING WANT YOUR ATTENTION!!! You said... you said many things. And each time you fail to deliver, I die a little on the inside. You... I dont know if you cant see it, or if you just dont want to see it, or if you see it but pretend not to notice it, but that's the truth.
I hurt. I still do. I dont know, if I'm going to carry this hurt, forever. But right now, it's there. Much as I try to ignore it, and I do succeed occasionally, each reminder of you triggers it. I dont know how to plug that hole in my heart, that hole the pain keeps oozing in. I guess, I need you to do that. Even as I'm writing this now, I can feel that pain, that stabbing pain in my heart. As for the tears, let's pretend they dont exist, shall we?
Everyone says, 'Laura, you're a fool.' 'Laura, how is it you're still able to love her after all this?' 'Laura, why do you love her?' 'Laura, she's not for real. Dont waste your time on her, please?' 'Wake up! Face reality!'
And to each of them, I smile and wave them off. I turn around so that nobody sees the pain in my eyes. I plaster a smile to face the whole world, to ward off any nagging or concerned words, and to hide the pain etched deep within. It's so hard, when you're hardly around.
I... cant sleep at nights, unless I wear myself out so bad I'm a walking zombie. I try, to keep myself occupied throughout the day, only to find myself at the computer, with that page open, hoping, just hoping to hear from you. I want nothing more, then to lie within your embrace, and feel you holding me close. And I dont mean virtually, online. I mean, physically.
To the world I might seem strong and steady and not at all needy. But dont you see that's just a front? Of all the people in the world, you're the only one I let fall all my barriers for. To you, and you alone, I let myself go, let myself feel, embrace that emotion I feel in abundance for you. To you, I show my vulnerability, my true colors.
So where are you? What are you up to? Why... Dont I feel assured, secure? I know, one of my many flaws, is that I overdo the thinking, and that I'm paranoid. I realize, it's tiring, to always assure me of your intentions, your affections. But baby, I'm scared. I'm so scared. I dont want to be alone, I'm scared of being alone. I've been alone for most of my life, and I dont like it. And I also realize, I've got a rather low self confidence level. I dont get your attraction to me, and that makes me doubly paranoid. I'm not doubting you, just dont understand what's so awesome about me. I'm just about as average as the other girls.
Baby... I told you before, I need alot of reassurances. And I dont think, my fears will truly be put to rest till the day you're here by my side, and hold me for real. I sound desperate, I know. But... You really are the only one who could help me slay my demons, and your affections is the only elixer that could sustain me. Please baby, reassure me once more. Keep reassuring me. I'm needy... for you. Only you...
madness
Jein : what do you want for your birthday present?
Laura: hmmm... YOU
Jein : hahahaha... already taken... sorry dude
Laura: hahahaha... what he doesn't know wont hurt him rite?
Jein : ROFL... no way
Laura: Hmmm... fine. Den... I want this mall for my birthday
Jein : *glares* i'm not that rich!
Laura: hahaha... I din say it has to be this year
Jein: *double glare* i wasn't talking about the future... talking about THIS YEAR
________________________________________________________________
XXXXXX says (12:09 PM):
where's my toy
WHERE
LOL
Laura: fucking insomnia says (12:09 PM):
hahahaha
wat kinda toy u want eh?
Laura: fucking insomnia says (12:10 PM):
vibrator?
dildo?
strap on?
LOL
_________________________________________________________________
XXXXXX says (3:19 PM):
she say
if i want to get married
save up
XXXXXX says (3:20 PM):
so i try not to go clubbing too often
lmao
Laura: fucking insomnia says (3:20 PM):
ha
at tat rate
more likely i'ma gonna get married b4 u
LOL
damn
i wanna get married
lol
XXXXXX says (3:20 PM):
idiot
you wont.
i WILL get married
XXXXXX says (3:21 PM):
BEFORE you!
HMPF!
hahaha... have a laugh... a good laugh... cheers!
Laura: hmmm... YOU
Jein : hahahaha... already taken... sorry dude
Laura: hahahaha... what he doesn't know wont hurt him rite?
Jein : ROFL... no way
Laura: Hmmm... fine. Den... I want this mall for my birthday
Jein : *glares* i'm not that rich!
Laura: hahaha... I din say it has to be this year
Jein: *double glare* i wasn't talking about the future... talking about THIS YEAR
________________________________________________________________
XXXXXX says (12:09 PM):
where's my toy
WHERE
LOL
Laura: fucking insomnia says (12:09 PM):
hahahaha
wat kinda toy u want eh?
Laura: fucking insomnia says (12:10 PM):
vibrator?
dildo?
strap on?
LOL
_________________________________________________________________
XXXXXX says (3:19 PM):
she say
if i want to get married
save up
XXXXXX says (3:20 PM):
so i try not to go clubbing too often
lmao
Laura: fucking insomnia says (3:20 PM):
ha
at tat rate
more likely i'ma gonna get married b4 u
LOL
damn
i wanna get married
lol
XXXXXX says (3:20 PM):
idiot
you wont.
i WILL get married
XXXXXX says (3:21 PM):
BEFORE you!
HMPF!
hahaha... have a laugh... a good laugh... cheers!
Thursday, January 07, 2010
australian update
ok. so an update is in order, one would say. let's see. alright. from the beginning it is. well, exams finished somewhere in Nov,2009, the exact date escapes me, and then, a week of hurried last minute packing and stuff. then, on the 22nd Nov,2009, we left for Australia.
Ah... the joys of flying. lucky me, there was minimal turbulence that day, and i had a good meal and a good sleep. we touched down at the airport sometime around 8+ at night, and aunt monica was there to pick us up. went back home, chitchatted for a little while, and then we retired for the night. early Dec, we took a road trip to Sydney. breaking journey at one of the towns along the coastal line, that was when I got news of my results. i... PASSED! i freaking PASSED EVERY GODDAMN SUBJECT I TOOK! omg. i could almost swear that my hands were shaking when i read that text message. anyway. enough on that. after about a week in Sydney, we spent a week in Melbourne, then we flew to Tasmania for about a week. after Tasmania, it was a hectic 3 days, where we ran around getting all our last minute shopping done. then... back to Malaysia.
it was rather fun, the vacation in Australia. sorry to my friends for not meeting up with you peeps half as often as I want to.
Ah... the joys of flying. lucky me, there was minimal turbulence that day, and i had a good meal and a good sleep. we touched down at the airport sometime around 8+ at night, and aunt monica was there to pick us up. went back home, chitchatted for a little while, and then we retired for the night. early Dec, we took a road trip to Sydney. breaking journey at one of the towns along the coastal line, that was when I got news of my results. i... PASSED! i freaking PASSED EVERY GODDAMN SUBJECT I TOOK! omg. i could almost swear that my hands were shaking when i read that text message. anyway. enough on that. after about a week in Sydney, we spent a week in Melbourne, then we flew to Tasmania for about a week. after Tasmania, it was a hectic 3 days, where we ran around getting all our last minute shopping done. then... back to Malaysia.
it was rather fun, the vacation in Australia. sorry to my friends for not meeting up with you peeps half as often as I want to.
