It's Mid Autumn Festival, and I'm all alone. I mean it literally. I'm in hostel, dad's at home, mom's with grandparents, and I'm alone in the room. Suddenly, I'm filled with these waves of loneliness. Jein is back in Melaka, LiHui, I have no idea. Mel is with Esther, Kang is all the way in Australia. Michie is going out soon, and me? Well, I've my wives to accompany me, I guess. =/
Sigh. I suddenly feel so lonely. I... I really want my baby right now. I've never felt this way before when Mel used to leave. I always say I don't care that she's not in the room, but always at Esther's. And I really don't. I have no idea why I feel differently today. I feel like, everybody left me alone. I feel so invisible. My baby's asleep, and I really don't want to disturb her. I just wish... I could crawl into bed with her, and have her hold me close. Her presence somehow makes these feelings disperse. How can you blame me for being into her, when she's the only one that really makes the loneliness goes away?
I'm emo, all of a sudden. I suppose, today being Mid Autumn Festival, time to be with friends and family and loved ones, and I'm all alone. I miss my baby. I just want to feel her arms around me, telling me that she's always there for me and that she'll not leave me no matter what. I suddenly feel so alone, like it's me against the whole world. Sigh... I wish my baby was here... I just want to snuggle against her and feel loved. I hate this empty feeling. It's like a sinking rock in my heart. Perhaps this is called, homesick?
I want my panda right now, this very instant. God knows how much I need her right now. When I'm talking to her, somehow, she lifts up my mood. Sometimes, even way back then, I still feel lonely when I'm with friends. But I've never felt that way with my baby. So don't blame me for being so into her. Like I said, she's the only one that ever made me want to cast off my barriers. I feel at home with her, like I can tell her anything under the sun.
The fireworks aren't doing my mood any good, because they serve to remind me of just how empty I feel. I need my baby more then ever right now. My friends...... Aren't here with me anyway. All alone during Mid Autumn Festival. I hate it...
Saturday, September 13, 2008
cute
Apparently, I am not monogamous. I have, to date, 4 wives. Yeah, just like a Muslim guy. I mean, no offense or anything, I was just commenting on the number. =x So yea, from the 1st to the last: My baby in USA, my handphone (it's the main way we communicate), my laptop (how else can I send her emails?) and my desktop (wide screen, perfect for movies. Enough said.).
Hahaha. So apparently I cant keep my hands off my other wives, which is making my baby jealous. LOL! She says when she comes over, she's going to have a good long talk with my laptop, and I'm not allowed in the room when she does it. LOL! She's goofy.
Talking about goofy. My baby is goofy, but sweet. She would insist on waiting up for me every day. And if she's tired, she'll never admit it. She'll put the blame on everything else, ranging from the baby to the radio. There's even a new addition this time: the air con.
She kept insisting that she's not tired, yet, when I asked her to close her eyes, she fell asleep immediately to the sound of my voice putting her to bed. She's a pig, MY pig. She's so cute that even when she was about to sleep, she told me: Just so you know, it really was the air con. It wasn't me. (She was yawning)
I love her little ways, because they're so cute. Thinking back on her little behaviour and habits, makes me want to smile and shake my head at the same time. She's adorable to a fault. There should be a law against people as irresistable as her. =P I love that panda of mine. Sue me for being so into her, but soon, you'll understand why. =X
(P/s: Perhaps I should start calling her goofball? lol)
Hahaha. So apparently I cant keep my hands off my other wives, which is making my baby jealous. LOL! She says when she comes over, she's going to have a good long talk with my laptop, and I'm not allowed in the room when she does it. LOL! She's goofy.
Talking about goofy. My baby is goofy, but sweet. She would insist on waiting up for me every day. And if she's tired, she'll never admit it. She'll put the blame on everything else, ranging from the baby to the radio. There's even a new addition this time: the air con.
She kept insisting that she's not tired, yet, when I asked her to close her eyes, she fell asleep immediately to the sound of my voice putting her to bed. She's a pig, MY pig. She's so cute that even when she was about to sleep, she told me: Just so you know, it really was the air con. It wasn't me. (She was yawning)
I love her little ways, because they're so cute. Thinking back on her little behaviour and habits, makes me want to smile and shake my head at the same time. She's adorable to a fault. There should be a law against people as irresistable as her. =P I love that panda of mine. Sue me for being so into her, but soon, you'll understand why. =X
(P/s: Perhaps I should start calling her goofball? lol)
Friday, September 12, 2008
Jumbo
Let me tell you a story about my lil brat. He's around 7 - 8 months old, and he's a smart lil devil. The brat apparently climbed up to the table, and stole the whole boxful of baby cookies. Those cookies are like, super duper HUGE cookies. Those jumbo sized ones. Well, he climbed down with them, went under the cover, and started munching. By the time he was found out, the whole boxful of cookies were gone. LOL! Imagine that, my lil brat doing all that. That was one of the better jokes I've heard.
Of course, for the adults in the house, that wasn't funny at all. They had to deal with him being hyper. Imagine him sucker punching another baby around his age, and laughing and shouting the whole day. And he was up playing with trains at 1 am. LOL!
I proudly present the greedy pig, Jamar James Houser to you peeps. He's my lil brat when it comes to mischief and naughty stuff. Of course, I was cheering him on when he sucker punched the other one, which in turn got me a scolding from my baby. But it was all in the name of fun? =P And besides, my baby cant stay mad at me for long. It's a mutual thing. My voice calms her down, and vice versa. I wonder, if what she said could be for real. =X
And then there's the matter of a personal bet with my baby. She might not remember it in a few years time but I definitely will. We'll see who wins baby, that's a promise. I'm going to get what I want. =P You're going down baby! Muahahahaha...
Oh talking about my princess. She's a one of a kind idiot smartass. I love her so much. When things are going well for us, without any trouble or anything, talking to her through the phone is the sweetest time of the day. I don't mean that I don't like spending time with my friends, but this is different. I love talking to my baby on the phone despite the phone charges. You might say it's total bullshit, but if I don't hear her voice b4 sleeping, I just somehow can't sleep at all. I love my baby, that it hurts to be so far apart. But the end is going to be worth the wait.
Of course, for the adults in the house, that wasn't funny at all. They had to deal with him being hyper. Imagine him sucker punching another baby around his age, and laughing and shouting the whole day. And he was up playing with trains at 1 am. LOL!
I proudly present the greedy pig, Jamar James Houser to you peeps. He's my lil brat when it comes to mischief and naughty stuff. Of course, I was cheering him on when he sucker punched the other one, which in turn got me a scolding from my baby. But it was all in the name of fun? =P And besides, my baby cant stay mad at me for long. It's a mutual thing. My voice calms her down, and vice versa. I wonder, if what she said could be for real. =X
And then there's the matter of a personal bet with my baby. She might not remember it in a few years time but I definitely will. We'll see who wins baby, that's a promise. I'm going to get what I want. =P You're going down baby! Muahahahaha...
Oh talking about my princess. She's a one of a kind idiot smartass. I love her so much. When things are going well for us, without any trouble or anything, talking to her through the phone is the sweetest time of the day. I don't mean that I don't like spending time with my friends, but this is different. I love talking to my baby on the phone despite the phone charges. You might say it's total bullshit, but if I don't hear her voice b4 sleeping, I just somehow can't sleep at all. I love my baby, that it hurts to be so far apart. But the end is going to be worth the wait.
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Fixed - Coldplay
So I hear I was being tagged by Anne. It's been some time since i was tagged, wasn't it? Well, it wont hurt to do something to while the day away, would it? *thinks* NEH! So, yea, tag below:
1) What is the most important thing in your life?
Well, regardless of what my friends truly think, she is the most important thing in my life right now. It's not that my friends aren't important, she just ranks a lil higher than them.
2) What was the last thing you bought with your own money?
Dinner?
3) Where do you want to get married?
Urm... Canada?
4) How old do you think you will be permanently owned by your love?
Urm... Like, right now? =x
5) Are you in love?
A better question would be does it rain in Spain? =.= Yes, duh, I'm in love. =P
6) Where was the last restaurant you had dinner?
Wow. It's been ages, I think. Urm, I would say, the banana leaf restaurant Wai Mun brought us to.
7) Name the latest book that you bought
Urm, it's 'The Last Kings' by David Gremlin ( or something like that. I don't even remember the title or the author. it's been too long. =/ )
8) What is your full name?
Laura Yoong Li Wen... Quite a mouthful, won't you agree?
9) Do you prefer your mother, or your father?
I don't prefer either one of them, cz i love them both equally.
10) Name a person you really wish to meet in your life for the first time.
Other than my gf, I would like to meet Katherine Moennig in person. =x
11) Christina or Britney?
Neither? I much prefer to meet someone else, preferably, Rihanna or Leona.
12) Do I do my own laundry?
Hmmm... Half-half. Other than my innerwear, the rest goes to the dobi.
13) The most exciting place you want to go
Wherever my baby wants to bring me go.
14) hugs or kisses?
both. I love feeling loved. =P
15) 8 things I am passionate about
i) her
ii) friends
iii) pranks
iv) songs
v) getting to know people
vi) food
vii) mind stimulating games
viii) a worthwhile conversation
16) 8 things I say too often
i) i love you
ii) i miss you
iii) babe
iv) damn ass la you
v) f***
vi) dammit
vii) panda
viii) hey baby
17) 8 books I've read recently
i) Concise Principles of Malaysian Company Law
ii) Commercial Banking
iii) Lord of the Silver Bow
iv) Her Sister's Keeper
v) Management Accounting
vi) - to be filled in at a later date -
vii) - to be filled in at a later date -
viii) - to be filled in at a later date -
18) 8 songs that I could listen to over and over again
i) Say It Again - Marie Digby
ii) Maybe - Jay Sean
iii) Damaged - Danity Kane
iv) Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis
v) No Air - Chris Brown ft Jordin Sparks
vi) Fall For You - Secondhand Serenade
vi) Stranger - Secondhand Serenade
vii) Wherever You Will Go - The Calling
viii) Promise - Ciara
19) 8 things I learnt last year
i) Friends will always tell you the truth, even though it hurts
ii) Falling in love is not something impossible
iii) Making new friends isn't all that hard
iv) Flirting is fun
v) Getting to know someone is my forte
vi) Patience is a virtue
vii) Pranking others is way too much fun to totally give up on
viii) The future is very uncertain. Anything could happen. Nothing is impossible.
20) Tag 8 people
i) LiShan
ii) Whaley
iii) Jeinie
iv) LeeEan
v) Ally
vi) Jie
vii) Joanne
viii) KeJun
(And anyone out there that lovesss tags. =P)
1) What is the most important thing in your life?
Well, regardless of what my friends truly think, she is the most important thing in my life right now. It's not that my friends aren't important, she just ranks a lil higher than them.
2) What was the last thing you bought with your own money?
Dinner?
3) Where do you want to get married?
Urm... Canada?
4) How old do you think you will be permanently owned by your love?
Urm... Like, right now? =x
5) Are you in love?
A better question would be does it rain in Spain? =.= Yes, duh, I'm in love. =P
6) Where was the last restaurant you had dinner?
Wow. It's been ages, I think. Urm, I would say, the banana leaf restaurant Wai Mun brought us to.
7) Name the latest book that you bought
Urm, it's 'The Last Kings' by David Gremlin ( or something like that. I don't even remember the title or the author. it's been too long. =/ )
8) What is your full name?
Laura Yoong Li Wen... Quite a mouthful, won't you agree?
9) Do you prefer your mother, or your father?
I don't prefer either one of them, cz i love them both equally.
10) Name a person you really wish to meet in your life for the first time.
Other than my gf, I would like to meet Katherine Moennig in person. =x
11) Christina or Britney?
Neither? I much prefer to meet someone else, preferably, Rihanna or Leona.
12) Do I do my own laundry?
Hmmm... Half-half. Other than my innerwear, the rest goes to the dobi.
13) The most exciting place you want to go
Wherever my baby wants to bring me go.
14) hugs or kisses?
both. I love feeling loved. =P
15) 8 things I am passionate about
i) her
ii) friends
iii) pranks
iv) songs
v) getting to know people
vi) food
vii) mind stimulating games
viii) a worthwhile conversation
16) 8 things I say too often
i) i love you
ii) i miss you
iii) babe
iv) damn ass la you
v) f***
vi) dammit
vii) panda
viii) hey baby
17) 8 books I've read recently
i) Concise Principles of Malaysian Company Law
ii) Commercial Banking
iii) Lord of the Silver Bow
iv) Her Sister's Keeper
v) Management Accounting
vi) - to be filled in at a later date -
vii) - to be filled in at a later date -
viii) - to be filled in at a later date -
18) 8 songs that I could listen to over and over again
i) Say It Again - Marie Digby
ii) Maybe - Jay Sean
iii) Damaged - Danity Kane
iv) Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis
v) No Air - Chris Brown ft Jordin Sparks
vi) Fall For You - Secondhand Serenade
vi) Stranger - Secondhand Serenade
vii) Wherever You Will Go - The Calling
viii) Promise - Ciara
19) 8 things I learnt last year
i) Friends will always tell you the truth, even though it hurts
ii) Falling in love is not something impossible
iii) Making new friends isn't all that hard
iv) Flirting is fun
v) Getting to know someone is my forte
vi) Patience is a virtue
vii) Pranking others is way too much fun to totally give up on
viii) The future is very uncertain. Anything could happen. Nothing is impossible.
20) Tag 8 people
i) LiShan
ii) Whaley
iii) Jeinie
iv) LeeEan
v) Ally
vi) Jie
vii) Joanne
viii) KeJun
(And anyone out there that lovesss tags. =P)
Damaged - Danity Kane
Dear Panda,
You don't want to talk to me? I just... Have you ever thought of how this is making me feel? I need you to tell me how you feel about this. You can't go all quiet on me just like that. You even think that I... Sigh... Never mind.
I think you don't really believe me when I say that I trust you no matter what. This falls in the 'no matter what' category. Surely you know my stand... I told you before, no matter how ugly the world out there gets, you can always turn to me. Baby, I want to turn to you, even though this is my friends we are talking about. Come on baby. I know you're upset over the whole situation, but, won't you reassure me of your feelings? I need to hear you say I love you.
Twice I called. You didn't even respond to me. I don't think you even want to talk about it. Baby... Please... You're upset and idk how to make it up to you... Sigh...
You don't want to talk to me? I just... Have you ever thought of how this is making me feel? I need you to tell me how you feel about this. You can't go all quiet on me just like that. You even think that I... Sigh... Never mind.
I think you don't really believe me when I say that I trust you no matter what. This falls in the 'no matter what' category. Surely you know my stand... I told you before, no matter how ugly the world out there gets, you can always turn to me. Baby, I want to turn to you, even though this is my friends we are talking about. Come on baby. I know you're upset over the whole situation, but, won't you reassure me of your feelings? I need to hear you say I love you.
Twice I called. You didn't even respond to me. I don't think you even want to talk about it. Baby... Please... You're upset and idk how to make it up to you... Sigh...
opinions
I didn't mean to worry you peeps. Perhaps, I shouldn't have made you guys so worried, by constantly telling you what happened. I'm sorry. I know, you guys really care for me. And I'm thankful I've got a great bunch of friends like you. Really, this comes from the bottom of my heart.
The time I spend with my gf is the sweetest ever. Almost as if I'm dreaming. If this is a dream, I'm hoping it would last. I'm reluctant to wake up, because I don't think anything could be sweeter then this.
However, I'm going to make more time for my friends. My baby is important, but my friends are important too. So I'm going to spend more time with them, and talk about other things besides my gf. Much as I would love to share her with everybody, I know, that has to change.
The time I spend with my gf is the sweetest ever. Almost as if I'm dreaming. If this is a dream, I'm hoping it would last. I'm reluctant to wake up, because I don't think anything could be sweeter then this.
However, I'm going to make more time for my friends. My baby is important, but my friends are important too. So I'm going to spend more time with them, and talk about other things besides my gf. Much as I would love to share her with everybody, I know, that has to change.
Sunday, September 07, 2008
Tasha
To: My dearest Panda
I wonder. Did I made a mess out of everything? Is it so very wrong for me to approach your ex gf and bestie for information? I only had you in my mind when I asked them about what happened. You won't even tell me anything. Is it really that wrong for me to do what I did?
You're mad at me, and now I can't sleep. You won't even tell me a single thing. You may not want to make me worried, but how can I not worry when you have this tendency to land into trouble? Since the day we got together, my life has become a TVB drama. I don't regret a single inch of it, but I do wish we could have a talk about this. You don't just hit me with one sentence, 'Why don't you continue being friends with them? Since you guys are becoming so close, and leave me out of it.'
How am I supposed to inteprete it? You sound mad, and pissed off. How am I supposed to sleep well tonight? You really tear my heart apart, rip it into pieces. I wonder. I know you're hurting over there, and I'm sick over here. I really want to know if you're feeling any better. But somehow, idk anymore.
What are you trying to say? What are you trying to do? What are you looking for?
I wonder. Did I made a mess out of everything? Is it so very wrong for me to approach your ex gf and bestie for information? I only had you in my mind when I asked them about what happened. You won't even tell me anything. Is it really that wrong for me to do what I did?
You're mad at me, and now I can't sleep. You won't even tell me a single thing. You may not want to make me worried, but how can I not worry when you have this tendency to land into trouble? Since the day we got together, my life has become a TVB drama. I don't regret a single inch of it, but I do wish we could have a talk about this. You don't just hit me with one sentence, 'Why don't you continue being friends with them? Since you guys are becoming so close, and leave me out of it.'
How am I supposed to inteprete it? You sound mad, and pissed off. How am I supposed to sleep well tonight? You really tear my heart apart, rip it into pieces. I wonder. I know you're hurting over there, and I'm sick over here. I really want to know if you're feeling any better. But somehow, idk anymore.
What are you trying to say? What are you trying to do? What are you looking for?
Tuesday, September 02, 2008
Smexy
Damn.
I'm never sleeping after dinner. Too much weird dreams.
I'm beginning to hate myself.
I'm starting to hate food.
I'm hating water.
I hate being sick.
My throat is the equivalent of sandpaper.
Nothing I do works.
I wish my baby was here to make me feel better.
I'm never sleeping after dinner. Too much weird dreams.
I'm beginning to hate myself.
I'm starting to hate food.
I'm hating water.
I hate being sick.
My throat is the equivalent of sandpaper.
Nothing I do works.
I wish my baby was here to make me feel better.
Angel
So I'm in uni at this god forbidden hour. 9 am is way too early to be stuck here in the bloody library. But a girls' got to do what a girls' got to do: assignment. If I plan on going back early, I'll have to try to finish this confronted commercial banking assignment. But enough about that. Like I was saying, I was in the library, and my mind is like, on the other side of the globe.
I really really miss my baby. I just can't stop thinking of her. She fills my thoughts all the time. Every moment I'm not joking around with those monkeys or attempting to study or chatting, I'm always thinking about her. Call me a pervert, but I can't stop thinking and wondering how would it be like to spend all the time in her company when she comes over. I want to know what it would be like to share a bed with her, and to wake up and see her face each and every morning. I know, I should just wait till the day she's actually here, but I can't really help it.
Perhaps I'm taking it for certain that she's really coming over. And I really want that to happen. I mean, her coming over is seriously going to make my birthday the best ever. Not that it's not going to be good, but with her here, it's going to be way better. And her present to me is just a bonus. I can't really wait till the day she's actually in my arms, and I'm holding her close for real. I can ask for hugs and kisses anytime of the day and she would willingly give them to me. I can just hold her for no reason, and just murmur i love you just because I can.
I really really want her here, by my side right now.
=) I still remember how I tease her about youtube. She threatened to punish me if I ever did put her lovely voice on youtube. =) And she wouldn't tell me what that punishment would be. =/ and she plays dirty. She summed up our 1st night together to be 'special' when I asked her what she thinks will happen. =X She's terrible and mean and evil. And I totally love her for all that and more. She's playful enough to keep me intrigued, and wonderful enough to keep me hooked. She has a great personality and I totally love her for that.
I really really miss my baby. I just can't stop thinking of her. She fills my thoughts all the time. Every moment I'm not joking around with those monkeys or attempting to study or chatting, I'm always thinking about her. Call me a pervert, but I can't stop thinking and wondering how would it be like to spend all the time in her company when she comes over. I want to know what it would be like to share a bed with her, and to wake up and see her face each and every morning. I know, I should just wait till the day she's actually here, but I can't really help it.
Perhaps I'm taking it for certain that she's really coming over. And I really want that to happen. I mean, her coming over is seriously going to make my birthday the best ever. Not that it's not going to be good, but with her here, it's going to be way better. And her present to me is just a bonus. I can't really wait till the day she's actually in my arms, and I'm holding her close for real. I can ask for hugs and kisses anytime of the day and she would willingly give them to me. I can just hold her for no reason, and just murmur i love you just because I can.
I really really want her here, by my side right now.
=) I still remember how I tease her about youtube. She threatened to punish me if I ever did put her lovely voice on youtube. =) And she wouldn't tell me what that punishment would be. =/ and she plays dirty. She summed up our 1st night together to be 'special' when I asked her what she thinks will happen. =X She's terrible and mean and evil. And I totally love her for all that and more. She's playful enough to keep me intrigued, and wonderful enough to keep me hooked. She has a great personality and I totally love her for that.
Combo
Check THIS out. This is what happens when you're the younger one amongst a household full of pranksters like us. Us namely me and Jein. Oh, don't get me wrong. Mei Pow and Mel join in the games as well, it's just that the both of us are more, well, active. And Esther, well, she's the youngest and her turn will come soon, that is a promise. LOL!
Anyway. That video, was taken after Mich was pelted with rotten eggs, doused with ice cold water, and smashed with whipped cream. She tried to step into our room, but she was.... deterred. Bear in mind that she really really stinks, and the fact that Mel can't really speak Chinese or dialects. Hahahaha... Oh right! Before I forget, it was Mich's very very belated bday celebs, since we couldn't get together sooner then this. :X
It was a pretty cool ending to a pretty fun day out. We went to Sunway Lagoon earlier that day. Despite a lil hiccup, I really had fun. Despite the fact that I was freezing in the pool during the rain, it was really really enjoyable. I can understand why people like to just lie back and enjoy the waves. I'm thinking if it was this enjoyable with friends, it would surely be better if i brought her go as well right? =)
But yea, a terrific day out, a fabulous dinner, and an exciting ending to a long day out. What else could a girl ask for? Oh wait, there is, but, let's just let it slide. I was dead tired that day, and I slept at... 5 am. All because I was chatting with Michelle from Singapore. The more I get to know her, the more intrigued I am about her. She's interesting and I don't mind getting to know her a lil better. There's just something about her that screams 'Mystery' and 'Intrigue'.
Perhaps, one day, I'll post a lil bit more about this new friend of mine. Till then, ciao! Toodles! I'm off for my daily dose of chocolates. =)
Oh right. Check this out too.
P/s: Esther injured my finger. A 'nice' cut. Don't ask me how she did that, but she did it. =(
Anyway. That video, was taken after Mich was pelted with rotten eggs, doused with ice cold water, and smashed with whipped cream. She tried to step into our room, but she was.... deterred. Bear in mind that she really really stinks, and the fact that Mel can't really speak Chinese or dialects. Hahahaha... Oh right! Before I forget, it was Mich's very very belated bday celebs, since we couldn't get together sooner then this. :X
It was a pretty cool ending to a pretty fun day out. We went to Sunway Lagoon earlier that day. Despite a lil hiccup, I really had fun. Despite the fact that I was freezing in the pool during the rain, it was really really enjoyable. I can understand why people like to just lie back and enjoy the waves. I'm thinking if it was this enjoyable with friends, it would surely be better if i brought her go as well right? =)
But yea, a terrific day out, a fabulous dinner, and an exciting ending to a long day out. What else could a girl ask for? Oh wait, there is, but, let's just let it slide. I was dead tired that day, and I slept at... 5 am. All because I was chatting with Michelle from Singapore. The more I get to know her, the more intrigued I am about her. She's interesting and I don't mind getting to know her a lil better. There's just something about her that screams 'Mystery' and 'Intrigue'.
Perhaps, one day, I'll post a lil bit more about this new friend of mine. Till then, ciao! Toodles! I'm off for my daily dose of chocolates. =)
Oh right. Check this out too.
P/s: Esther injured my finger. A 'nice' cut. Don't ask me how she did that, but she did it. =(
