Koorime Island

When is it time to let go? When is it time to move on? Dad once said, expect nothing from people, then you won’t end up disappointed. An act of kindness, an act of friendship will be more appreciated if there were no expectations in the beginning.

The more I think about it, the truer the words ring. Yet, I can’t help but have expectations. Perhaps it’s all this being sick business. Perhaps, it’s like what you said, I think too much. Both things coupled up, making me want… something. I only told a few people my condition, and you were the 1^st. in a sense, your response was… disappointing. I guess, I was expecting a less indifferent response from you. All you said was take care. Even my FRIEND gave me more personal replies. Even as a friend, the response was warmer. I expected more from you. Instead, I end up feeling let down. It’s as if, I’m nothing but a shooting star in your life. Perhaps, it should be that case. I wonder, what do you want from me? How do you want me to treat you? As an acquaintance? As a close friend? As a normal friend? Or something else? I’m so tired of the uncertainty. And your actions are confusing. I’ve come to believe that there was a period whereby you were avoiding me. When I asked you what’s wrong, why didn’t you say anything? And now, you’re treating me as if you’re the receptionist, and I’m the client. So impersonal, so cold.

I feel so alone at times like this. My parents are back at home; my outstation friends are not back yet. Times like this, I miss 28, SS15/2F. I felt as if that was my 2^nd home. Celine, Juin… they were like sisters I never had, in a sense. My heart is breaking as I’m writing this. Somehow I want to break down and cry, but something is holding my tears back. I HATE being ill. It makes me feel weak and vulnerable. The sadness, the loneliness is killing me. Literally.

I guess. All I want is concern. Someone other than my mom to fuss over me. I want attention, I admit. Instead, I get cold shouldered. How nice.

midnight flu

3rd June 2007

And so here I am, once again. Current situation? ILL. Yeah, after scolding Jie for not taking care, ironically, I’m the one ill now. I believe I’m having flu, and to think that Finals are but 5 days away. Not wanting to whine here, but I’m still way behind in my revision!! And to think that management is 4 days after economics. Sigh. I’m current sniffing for all my life’s worth, and my throat is hoarse. For once, I shall take YuHe’s advice and turn in early. Early as in after this blog. Yeap! Saving this post in MSWord before transferring to Blogger. Why? I noticed, everything I open the ‘create new post’ page, I never seem to be able to write anything, but during my free time, times like this, I have this urge to blog. So. I might as well kill 2 birds with 1 stone, right?

Did I tell you guys how I absolutely adore that new purchase of mine? (refer to previous post) Yeah!! I’m going gaga over it. OMG! It’s just so nice!!!! Just cant seem to get enough of it. The shape is something I like and admire for so long, and cant seem to be able to find.

Nothing much to blog about, really. Oh ya! My former high school classmates had a fab steamboat on Saturday. It sure seems nice. Too bad I couldn’t go. Kinda miss them though. But then again, some of my closer friends couldn’t make it. So I suppose I didn’t really miss much. About 15 people turned up, to celebrate a belated birthday for my form teacher at his house. They used this as an excuse for a gathering. I don’t suppose I’ll post any of those pics, as 1, I’m not there, and 2, I don’t suppose you readers will know who are they. So yeah. No pics. Tough luck.

I guess I’ll go sleep now. Regrets cause I couldn’t really study. But getting well is so much more important, right? And mom knows nothing of me being ill. I never expected it, myself. With luck, I’ll be feeling so much better tmr. Hopefully.

MV on Fri

Just realized that there are so many things I was supposed to blog about. Promises, promises, yet unfulfilled. So I guess I'll just cancel all those posts, and one day, when I'm truly free, all the pics will be posted at the same time. Guess I'll just have to get used to blogging. Again.
So. Let's see. Yeah. Went out with mom on Friday. Skipped Econ lec on that day, to go Midvalley with mom. You know? For once, retail terapy actually works for me. The both of us had fun that day. She went shopping for clothes, and me? I wanted to get some more Tees, but ended up with a couple of accesories instead. Had lunch at Kenny Rogers, and walked, and walked, and walked. God! I never thought I could walk for so long. My legs were killing me that day.

This is an image of the necklace I bought. Totally in love with it!! Will take a clearer pic and upload it the next time. :D
Cheers ppl!! Gambate!!

MFM----CP

yea, well.. this are pics from that day Chinn Pei came over for a visit. more like asking for help... LOL.... seeing how lazy i am, let me tell u a story.
upon coming to Sunway, Chinnpei showed me wat she needed help in, and proceeded to take pics. whn the assignment was almost, more or less, done, v went to wait for the bus. den v went to Manhattan Fish Market, where we were kinda chatting a bit, and snapping pics, and basically waiting for our food to come. enjoying the food, and CP takes pics... -.-" we managed to polish the whole dish between us, and den we juz had to rest. after eating, it was shopping time, and stuff. :D in short, tat was our day out. LOL

-.-"

yo yo!!! Laura's here!!! I'mmmmm BACK!!!!!!!!! hahahhaa.....
well..... as you guys know, or maybe not, FINALS is coming!!! hahhaha.... and here I am, blogging instead of studying... ah well!! a gal has to have break(s) some times!! hahaha...... have been rather busy these past few days, not exactly studying.. *hint hint* but tat should stop now. no more time for fooling around. :D time to hit the books!! soon... wahahhaha....
hmm...... i suppose i should post some pics, right? guess i'll do so in the next post..... for now, i juz feel like typing and typing and typing... crapping for all i care.
hahah.... a random story here. tat day, this tutor, Mr A forgot to zip up his pants, and he was in class. my fren, Taryn (a gal) noticed that there is something wrong with his pants, but dismissed it as something wrong with her eyes. Manatau, he really din zip up his pants, and a guy sitting in front kindly told A tat his pants was not zipped. the next day, Taryn had a swollen eye. Hmm.. Food for thought? wakakaka.....
i tell u, tat was the highlight of the week.. hahhaha....
hmm.... this week was kinda, urm, slow? kinda boring laa... coz even if gt lectures, it's boring and it's only revision... and i cant kacau anyone during class... :( tat's the downside... imagine sitting in the lecture hall, and forced to listen to the lecturer blah-blahing over there, and i HAVE to sit still.. juz coz Michelle and Taryn and Cass are paying attention... :( NT FAIR!!! and tuts were equally as boring. SIGH!!! y do i bother to go the uni?? Oh ya! I know why.
well. i guess i'll juz post those pics and shuddup. oh ya!! to Jie, get well soon ya!! and if i hurt u in any way, gomenasai!! and to evyone reading this, all da best, and gambate!! :D

And so the story goes, the rest they say is history.
history repeated, in a sense.
Well!
Let's just remain as friends.

assorted

Today being a Saturday and all, I've decided to do a bit of writing here. Some of you may noticed that there used to be another post here. But yea, I deleted it. Y? I'll tell you why.
It's a story, as real as it could ever be. perhaps, it's a bit too soon, but basically, yea. it's close to the heart. perhaps, one day, u'll know who i'm talking about. perhaps one day, i'll ask the question.
to answer a friend's enquiry, I don't really know. i'm juz scared, you know? it could go real wrong, or it could go as dreamed. Sigh. Sad story? yea. it is. unfortunately.

Neways. on to more pleasant things. I watched Pirates 3 with Melissa on Friday. and it was TERIFFIC!!! i mean, yea!! U should go watch, no matter how against the cinema you are. no matter how much u hate going to the movies, you should make an exeption for this movie. i mean, the scenes are nice, and the story line sure has got some unexpected twist and turns. hate to burst ur bubbles here, but the ending sure was bittersweet... Sigh..... sighhhhhh.................

on another note, finals are up soon.. and i sure as hell am scared till my legs are shivering and my hands are shaking. however, ppl like Michelle and Taryn will say tat it's total bullshit on my part. sigh. the disadvantage of having a poker face. sigh. so sad... so very very sad........... :(

i hate sacrifices. and everytime I want to meet up with my frenz, either they'll cancel or something will suddenly come up and i'll have to cancel. HUH!! so damn sick of it. i think i'll not make any plans. coz evytime i do, it juz backfires.

just for u

Ok. So I'm slow on the update. But things HAVE been rather hectic lately. So yeah. These are some pics of Jie I took the other day. 30th April, to be more precise.
Thanks Jie, for lunch... :D owe you one...
omg... poser... LOL
This was taken in branch school.. juz before Ms. Choong made us sign the guest book.. -.-"
'No please... No paparazzi allowed...'
hmm... let's see... wat should i order?
Jie before straightening her hair... hmm.... i a bit bit mou liu rite??
'wat u looking at?? nvr seen leng lui before ar??!'

Ah well... tis is almost 2 weeks old, right? din upload every single picture, as it was kinda almost the same, but i'm sure jie wont scold me, right? in fact, she might even whack me for posting her pics.... wakaka.... perhaps some time later, i'll upload my Fish Market pics, steamboat pics and some other odd and ends... :D will see if got time... maybe after assignments and stuff... :D

LPCW

forgive my previous posts. it was terrible. but. as a fren of mine once said, ppl tend to be more vulnerable at night.

neways. let's talk about yesterday. met up with keekuen. it was nice. enjoyed myself. i mean, who would have imagined, me hanging out with my committee? yeap! tat's right! she was my committee in the prefectorial board last time, during high school. she's a PTS student, meaning she skipped a grade, jumping from standard 2 to standard 4. smart ppl! :P
we went back to cawangan. was supposed to pick her up earlier, but town was packed. feel bad about it. upon reaching school, we paid ms.choong a visit. we found out tat keekuen literally left the sch with a bang. i mean, LITERALLY! wow. if ever there was a person who really attracts urm, 'unwanted attention', it would be her. seriously! 2 separate teaching spree, 2 different endings. neither mundane. both sizzling. one word. WOW!
den we went to fetch mom, and then dad. and sent mom to tuition, and dad back home. had to turn back to give daddy his shoes. hence we ended up eating at 3. i feel kinda bad coz it's like, v din really did much yesterday. and for a person who enjoys her shopping, well. yesterday was, nothing? ah well!
gave her a gift yesterday. the webcam and mike. she seems to be enjoying it. saving grace, maybe? haha
well, jie. u're all set to start ur uni life. and it's to be considered as a GIFT. u noe wat that means. :P
haha.. will post pics when i'm back in uni. which is soon... :P so hang on to ur seatbelts.

God! was all tat i was doing is juz filling in the time? waiting for the right moment to just flop down in bed, too tired to think? i hate thinking. hate whining too. bt tat's wat i'm doin, isn't it?
anyway. watever. thanks keekuen. ur smile lifted my mood up. thanks jie!